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Daddy

by

Lisa Taylor

Please stop the banging daddy
You know I can’t let you in
Stop rattling the door daddy
I’m sorry I made you mad again
Please leave me alone daddy
You don’t know what I’m going through
I’m trying to block out the sound daddy
But I can’t, I don’t know what to do.
I know you’re angry at me daddy
But can’t we talk it out?
Why do you have to punish me daddy
Physically, and then shout?
I must be a really bad child, daddy
To make you say the things you say
I really don’t know what I did daddy
To make you hit and push me this way.
I hate having to hide daddy
I hate hearing you scream
I try not to love you daddy
But I always have this dream
That some day you’ll see, daddy
What you’re doing to me
That some day, daddy, you’ll realize
What a true family is supposed to be
I’m trying to hate you daddy
With what you do, I shouldn’t have to try
But I’m your little girl, and you’re my daddy
And I’ll love you until the day I die.
I’m trying to tell you this daddy
But you can’t hear me through your yells
I pray to God to have mercy on you, daddy
When you die, I don’t want you to go to hell.
I’m so sorry I made you mad, daddy
I promise I won’t do it again.
Oh no, daddy, don’t pick the lock
Please don’t come in.
I don’t want to die yet daddy
I’m just a little girl
I’m starting to see a little funny, daddy
Everything’s becoming a blur.
I feel my head hit the wall
I feel blood run down my back
I spoke a few last words to daddy
Before everything went black
I said I love you very much daddy
And I’m sorry you never knew that.

Chains of Life

by

Lisa Taylor

Morning comes, I’m still asleep
Not til afternoon do I wake
I lay in bed, not wanting to move
Straining for every breath I take.

I awoke today, once again
Will the torture never end
Can no one see, on my pillow
The tears that I am drowning in?

I dress slowly, look in the mirror
See all the scars I’ve come to fear
Closing my eyes, I wish away what no one’s seen
Wish that tomorrow I’ll wake from this dream.

The day flies past me
In a whirl of colors and lies
Before I know it, the stars are out
Alone at last, my empty heart cries

How can every day be so much the same
With no feelings or emotions, no easing the pain
I can’t put this on someone else, only I’m to blame
My heart is broken, my mind lost, and my spirit stained

So I crawl into bed, the hour before dawn
Struggle with nightmares instead of sweet dreams.
Tears falling to my pillow once again
Soul crying for the day I am free

One More Day

by

Lisa Taylor

She’s so tired of trying to fight away life
She’s so tired of trying to keep herself sane
She can’t find a reason that she should care
Her heart is too broken to fix, her spirit is so stained
She tries all through the day to find a reason to care
She tries to find hope through the sorrow
But the only comfort she finds in life
Is that maybe she won’t wake up tomorrow.
She hears of deaths and horrible things
And wonders why she doesn’t care more.
She wonders how her heart became so cold
And what stops her from just walking out the door?
She sits alone through the night, trying not to fall asleep
Afraid of what she’ll see, afraid of the things in her own dreams
She sits alone through the day, staring at the wall
She’s so numb she can’t think, just an empty soul
One day she sees the gun sitting there
She says, hell why not?
There’s nothing left in this life worth having
Everyone heard the shot
Her parents came running to her
The neighbors heard the shot too
They were mortified by what they saw
Let me just say this to you.
The next day was when school started
She was going to meet the man of her dreams
Her parents were buying her a car
Her birthday was near, it seems
She was going to rattle the stars
She would’ve changed the world we live in today
She was going to fall in love
Overcome all the obstacles that came her way
She would’ve had a happy life
If she’d have lived one more day.

Don't Turn Out the Light

by

Lisa Taylor

I see faces everywhere
With voices all their own
Speaking in my ear
Of things they shouldn’t know.

They grow out of the shadows
Disappear with a ray of light
But leave a cold message in my ear
We’ll be back tomorrow night

No one else knows them
Their message is just for me
With a spine-chilling shriek
And a hair-raising laugh
That in my mind just will not cease

Blood is their aura
They have knives for finger nails
And those knives on a chalkboard
Remind me of their wail

They feed on my weaknesses
They know every fear and secret, new and old
They suck out my sanity if I cower
Yet I die if I am bold.

So as I stand before you
I beg you one last time
Standing before God I ask you
Don’t turn out the light

Shadow in my Mind

by

Lisa Taylor

Darkness running through my veins
Shivers running up my spine
A thrill runs through my body
I feel the evil take over my mind.
The darkness awaits me
Calling out to me
I want to raise the demons
I want to set the evil free
Let me roam the world of evil
This world I’m in now is so boring
Let me see what others haven’t
The world of the unknown is calling
I want to burn in the fiery deep
I would very much like to meet satan
I want to be part of the world of the darkness
I want to be taken.
I feel this shadow in the back of my mind
It won’t ever leave me alone
It grows ever darker, becoming more powerful
Growing a mind of it’s own.
So soon the shadow will overtake me
Soon this impulse will own me
And when i disappear from this land
Know, hidden in the darkness is where I’ll be.

Painful Life to Painful Dreams

by

Lisa Taylor

Holding my hands behind my back, staring at the ground
I try not to listen to your words, but I can’t block out the sound.
Each word tears into my soul, ripping out pieces of my heart
Ingraining themselves in my mind, will the shouting never stop?

I’m so tired, I just close my eyes, trying not to hear what you say
How I’m such a disappointment, my brothers and sisters never acted this way.
I just want to go to sleep, forget everything you’ve said
I wanna forget that I’m stupid and ugly, and that I’m better off dead.

I just don’t understand you, I don’t know how u can say
That one day I’m your angel, when the next you just throw me away.
My head is starting to pound, my temple throbbing painfully
I cannot meet your eyes, I lower my head shamefully

You don’t have to tell me over and over, I know I screwed up again
You don’t need to tell me how bad I am, I already know my sins
You don’t need to tell me how hard your life is, I know that mine is meaningless
I can’t imagine how tough your life is, in all your bliss and ignorance.

Your voice sounds distant, as angry thoughts run through my head
If only you knew what a hard life was, would you say the things you’ve said?
If you knew the things I’ve seen, things that haunt me in my dreams,
Would you sit there with your fancy, big tv and beg me for all my sympathy?

I slowly turn, head up the stairs, your voice taunting me all the way
My mind drifts off to other places, where I can’t hear what you say.
Everything that you say, I know it’s not true, but it must be.
I reach my bed, close my eyes, and go from a painful life, to painful dreams.

Unworthy

by

Lisa Taylor

He can see inside me
He knows I’m truly sorry for what I’ve done
Just because I don’t tell him directly
Does that mean I can’t be his little one?

And because I’m scared, here on Earth
And cannot foreclose to anyone my sins
Does that mean that when I knock at his door
I will not be let in?

If I’m forced to keep a secret so dark
it makes fear a daily resident of my veins
Will he deny me Christ
Because of this humanly fear he created in the first place?

And if my mind is completely lost
A mind created by the Lord
If the pain drives it to break
Paying the one debt that I can’t afford

Shall I be sent to an even worse hell
Than the hell on Earth that I serve?
Will I be shunned into darkness
Getting the torture that I deserve?

Shall I be denied
A light I never knew
All because I’m unworthy
To try and speak to you?

River

by

Lisa Taylor

Down the river my life doth flow
'Neath the frigid ice and snow
Just because my heart may mend
Doesn’t mean the coldness ends
And just because my spirit heals
Doesn’t mean I may suddenly feel
For numbing as the water is
I shall not give one quiver
I cannot feel the cutting rocks
That make the base of this river
The sun then shines
The ice, it thins
Suddenly now
I can breathe again
The water quickens
And I laugh out loud
Help has come
Someone, somehow
Then the ground drops from my feet
The clouds hide the sun, so it does not see
I see the rocks, so far below
The sight makes time seem so slow
Now as I fall
I’ll say goodbye
For this is the last time
You’ll see me die.

Love of a Mother

by

Lisa Taylor

Encouraging thoughts
Are hard to give
It’s easier to die
Than it is to live
It’s easier to lose
Than it is to win
Life’s getting harder
Than it’s ever been
But it was easier before
And it will get easier again
A mother’s love
For a father’s hate
Will always win
At the end of the day
So she kisses me goodnight
I get into bed
And store all my hate away
I close my eyes
Lift my hands
And I begin to pray
I look out on the stars
See the image of God’s face
And I know everything now
Will be ok
I heard my father later
"God forgive me for my sins"
And now he’s much better
Than he’s ever been
This is how the true love
Of a mother always wins

Demons

by

Lisa Taylor

Demons are coming
Bearing their fangs
Scars are now starting
To reopen again

Demons are pushing
I’m starting to fall
Not one person shall hear
No matter whom I call

Demons are laughing
My whole world’s disappeared
And I’m left with the only
People that I feared

Demon’s are possessing
As I fall to the floor
And my father’s wild eyes
Aren’t his anymore

The Demons are leaving
Now that I’ve been beat
Waiting for more prey
Into darkness they retreat.

Black Rose

by

Lisa Taylor

The dark petal from a black rose
Falls swiftly to the ground
The wind is howling in my head
Though it makes no true sound

The breeze softly picks the rose
Lays it gently on the snow
And as I bend down and lift it up
Suddenly that’s when I know

I face up towards the sky
To scream out my praise
Right when a cloud shifts
And light pours over my face

I start to run joyfully
The wind whipping my hair
Knowing my salvation from these streets
Is right around the bend there

But when the thorns stick through my hand
And I see all the dripping blood
I know that when I get around that corner
There’ll be no one.

So I walk gloomily around the curve
Only to see more slushy road
I hand fell limp as I walked slowly on
Letting fall that beautiful black rose.

Resting Place

by

Lisa Taylor

The memories are overwhelming
The guilt of the past haunts you
The pain is nothing but controlling
The fear of the future taunts you
Standing at the edge of a black hole
Teetering in perfect balance
You can’t figure out which is worse
Falling at last, or keeping this balance.
Half-formed thoughts running through your head
Each sounding louder than the next
Until all you hear is the screaming of your silent thoughts
Not one louder than the rest
I leave my thoughts to themselves
Retreat to a dark place in my mind
A place not the darkest demons can disturb
A quiet resting place of mine.

Memories

by

Lisa Taylor

Of all I've heard, of all I've seen
I have a few memeories
They stand out so prominently
Like when you abandoned me

I can still see your back, so straight and tall
Proud of absolutely nothing at all
Listening to me plead and bawl
You lifted me up, only to let me fall

Then i remember your turn, one last stand
I remember facing me, the gun in your hand
Looking no longer remotely like a man
I remember you pulling the trigger

Guilt

by

Lisa Taylor

Right or wrong
Wrong or right
Guilt will haunt you
For the rest of your life

When the crime is true
And facts are facts
And your life is gone
It won’t come back

When it creeps upon you
you get that prickly feeling
suddenly your drowned with suffocation
That can leave you kneeling.

Or when you get a tingling sensation
In the corner of your eye
And you turn away praying
Hoping you won’t cry

And when the sun starts to set
An array of colors galore
And with a heart of lead you turn
Unworthy to be shined on anymore

The guilt can destroy you
Take everything beautiful from your life
Reminders of it are everywhere
You’re surrounded, you can’t fight

So don’t screw up like I did
Always keep control
And when you walk the staircase to heaven
I’ll be dearly paying my toll.

Can't Be Me

by

Lisa Taylor

Daydreaming through the daytime
As well as nighttime too
My attention wanders freely
As you address the room

I hear your voice distantly
Telling me to see you after class
I figure this time won’t be
Any different than the last

Images flash before my eyes
That you will never know
Images of the macabre
Of my past, long ago

I am stuck in the past
Drowning in its despair
I try to breathe desperately
But I can’t get any air

Sweat starts to run down my face
My cheeks as pale as a ghost
My hands are shaking violently
Scared of what I don’t know

I need to go to the bathroom now
So no one can see
For I’m stronger than anyone
This scared person can’t be me

Scared Little Girl

by

Lisa Taylor

At the sound of one taunting word
My face hardens, I throw a dark glare
By God, I’m not scared of anyone
And the greatest torture, I can bear

So why, when I look into the mirror
Do I see a face so sweaty and white?
I refuse to accept the fact
That scared face is not mine

For I must’ve by now, through the years
Learned my lesson, the most important one
For only what you do not fear
Only that can be outdone

So why now do I look like a frightened little girl
When one little memory comes back
I’m supposed to be stronger than anyone
The advantage of a heart gone black

I’m starting to resent myself
Talking to myself, I feel my anger swell
God dammit your tougher than anyone
Don’t you come out of this shell.

My anger explodes now
The broken glass falls to the floor
Staring at the jagged pieces
That scared little girl isn’t there anymore.

The Monster

by

Lisa Taylor

Darkness creeps upon me
The hairs on my neck start to rise
I start to walk a little faster
Behind me I hear the wind’s cries

I hear a whisper in my ear
I spin to see no one there
I start to sprint faster
Looking for help anywhere.

The grass gets slippery beneath my feet
The blinding fog starts to set in
I hear footsteps stalking me
I hear the wind’s cry once again

A skulking shadow right beyond my view
I can feel it watching me
It’s there whichever way I turn
I can barely see it’s outline,
I can hear it hollowly breathe

The disturbing quiet around me
Finally gets inside my head
The tears start streaming down my face
Knowing in an hour I’ll be dead.

I scream out loud, what do you want!
And I fall to my knees on the ground
Grabbing my head I cannot block out
That horrible silence, that horrible sound.

As I cower it will stand there forever
Inside my head, just out of reach
If I try to stand and fight
Will the nightmare just cease?

So with insanity as my only alternative
I stand and stifle my cries
I cannot cower and go crazy
For then I surely will die.

And so I stand and lift my face
Where I see bloody claws and teeth
My last shriek was never heard
As the monster tore into me.

Psychiatrist Visit

by

Lisa Taylor

I first entered your room
With a bored look examined your place
When you said, "Hello Lisa, how are you?"
An angry glare contorted my face.

I screamed for help the entire time
Using dark expressions to show i was in pain
But you couldn't follow the hints I threw
You said you wouldn't see me again.

The next doctor was similar
So was the next and the next
Can no one help me at all?
Am I really that complex?

I don't know why I'm silent
I don't know why I glare.
I don't know why I don't just say
All that i need to share.

But I must be a hopeless case.
I'll never get this right.
You might as well kick me out now.
There's no point to even try.

Roses Red

by

Lisa Taylor

My love for you
Like a field of roses red
The sun never ceasing to shine
Never forgetting the words we’ve said.

But now the clouds are rolling in
The turmoil outside is reaching within
One simple phrase escapes from your lips
A tear slides down through a farewell kiss

Lightening strikes in my field of flowers
I lay inside myself, crying for hours.
How could all our love so quickly disappear?
Everything is now gone, our plans for all the years.

I loved you for so long
And I know you loved me too.
Might there be something wrong with me?
Am I no longer good enough for you?

The clouds swirl through my mind
Tornadoes run through my head.
I sadly look upon my field
Now of roses dead.

But clouds come and clouds pass.
The rain that falls will grow the grass
So don’t mourn now because your love is gone.
Be happy now because he loved you for so long.

And watch your brand new roses grow
Like the flowers that peek after every snow
The rain now will grow back your roses again.
And through the frustration of the moment
You will finally win.

I'm Sorry

by

Lisa Taylor

I hear your worried voice
Try to listen to your words
But I’m too lost in my regret
Feeling like my hearts gonna burst.

I see the tears roll down your face
And want to end everything right then
I can’t believe I let myself
Bring you here, and let you in.

I’m sorry I brought you here
Into this dark world of mine.
I’m sorry I gave in to my pain
And revealed to you my lies.

I would give everything I have
To take this painful knowledge from you
For you were so much happier not knowing
Now what do you have to do?

Your tears make me want to cry
Your sorrow now makes me want to lie
I want to tell you none of it’s true
I never wanted to worry you.

But now all your mind
Is focused on your concern
You can’t do anything for me
You know I’ll never learn.

So what was the point of dragging you
Into the nightmare I live in?
You’ve entered the dark lands of truth
And there’s no hope to believe in.

Depths of Hell

by

Lisa Taylor

Eyes shining through the night
Serving as the only source of light
Fear creeps upon me, just out of their sight
A shriek pierces the air, so begins the fight.

Demons ripping into their own kind
Like raging animals with darker minds
This struggle goes on for all time
In the darkness hidden by the world’s evil design.

How much evil is in the world, that humans do not know?
How much can the world hide, does nature never show?
People disappearing off the streets, everywhere you go
No one ever sees who‘s really at fault, they’re hiding deep below.

To hear the shriek cutting the air, making my hair stand on end
Knowing they’re coming for you, looking for a feast, them and their friends
You’ll never know the fear I know, as into darkness I descend.
They pull me to the depths of hell, be warned they shall come for you too in the end

The Dark Side of Your Mind

by

Lisa Taylor

Who am I you may ask
Well let me give you a little clue
I’m the one who inspires your nightmares
The little devil inside of you
I’m the dark figure of your dreams
That you can never quite make out
I’m the one you hear shriek
When I don’t make a sound
I’m the one who hides under your kids’ beds
Ha, and you think they’re just scared of nothing?
It’s not the darkness little ones fear
It’s me who they hear quietly breathing.
I am the eyes you feel on your back
Whenever you turn around
I’m the one who’ll lose your sanity
Just when you think it’s been found.
I am the demon risen from hell
With fangs, teeth, and wings
I rise from the firey shadows
Every time there’s born a new human being
I am the shadow growing
In the corner of your eye
I am the shiver of fear
That runs the length of your spine
I don’t have any feelings left
I was human once, but now I‘m alive.
So you think I’m a little sick in the head
Look around, I’m not hard to find
Perhaps you should look inside yourself
For I’m the dark side of your mind.

I'd Like to Introduce You to Me

by

Lisa Taylor

My name is Lisa Marie Taylor
Yea, my mom was an Elvis fan
I don’t live in reality much
I have my own fantasy land.
I see more evil than I do good
More darkness than I do light
I don’t like daytime very well
I fit in better at night
I’m not a good church-going girl
But I’m not in a Satanist cult.
I am no longer a child
But I’m not yet an adult.
I am not a demon from hell
But I’m not a saint.
My light don’t shine brighter than anyone else’s
But it is not extraordinarily faint.
I am sometimes very confused
I have 50 different answers to every question.
I will not accept help from anyone
I get angry at every suggestion.
I have many scars all over my legs
And some on my arms too.
They’re scars I wish I didn’t have
I wish I could undo.
For I sometimes take knives to my skin
I can account for every scar.
And one day after many more cuts
My body will match my heart.
I am often haunted
By flashbacks and memories
Sometimes I see people that aren’t there
People from my past that I don’t want to see.
Sometimes I think I’m screwed up in the head
I think I’m beyond repair.
I am not happy most of the time
For some reason I’m lost in despair.
My brother’s suicidal, a druggie, and depressed
My sister’s a drunk and a whore
I don’t wanna take the same path that they did
But this key in my hand seems to fit that door.
I have enough friends to keep me going
But they aren’t really friends with me.
For if I had one wish, it would be
For someone to know me truly.
I am known to myself
For sitting in dark corners to cry
I am known by everyone else
For being tough-never letting a tear escape my eye.
For I know myself as insecure and lonely.
Someone screaming for help to come.
Everyone else sees me as the help
The shoulder they can cry on.
My grades are good, I haven’t been in trouble
Many others see me as great.
But I’m just a girl with a hidden past
Concealing her anger and hate.
So if you ever meet me
Don’t be tricked like the rest of the crowd.
Look into my eyes and know
With every breath I scream out loud.

In My Dreams

by

Lisa Taylor

I stand at the river’s edge
Trying to see into the deep.
The sky starts to cloud over
And snowflakes fall all around me.

I see my reflection, just a dark shadow
Surrounded in a world of white
A powerful surge of sadness over comes me
Why can’t I be part of this beautiful life?

Tears start to drop from my eyes
My eyelashes covered in frozen tears
When I feel a hand on my shoulder
And it takes away my fears

I turn to see a woman
More likely an angel of God.
In a flowing white dress, a flower crown on her head
And she leaves no mark where she’s trod.

She puts her hands on my face
Wipes away the tears and the snow.
With all this she wipes away
The monster locked within, from long ago.

I fall to my knees, cry now pure tears
Tears not tainted with my hate.
When I look back up she isn’t there
I must’ve looked up too late

For I didn’t see the transformation
Didn’t see her turn.
But now instead of an angel of God
I see a beautiful white unicorn.

It’s muzzle touches my forehead
Then lifts up my chin
When I look in its eyes
I see heaven within.

It starts to gallop to the edge of the forest
It looks back as it gets to the trees.
Though I’ll never truly touch that unicorn,
I’ll forever see it in my dreams.

World of a Writer

by

Lisa Taylor

I see a beautiful white stone palace
In every house I see
I can see the whole secret of creation
In one fallen green leaf.
I can look into a bright sunset
And even though it occurs every day
I can always find new bright colors
Something’s always more beautiful than yesterday.
I walk through an ordinary forest,
but see more kingdoms than what exists in all the earth’s past
I can feel creation everywhere
Like when God created the sky so blue, and the ocean so vast.
I look at a bookshelf, a table, maybe a chair
And can see a red wood forest proud and tall
I see the tree with light shining through it’s leaves
And could write a book from it’s birth until it’s fall.
I smile and spin and jump and laugh
As colored sparks and magic fall like a beauty shower
This world is full of the unknown, with limitless freedom
Welcome to the world of a writer.
Full of light and darkness blended to perfection
The beauty of a sunset, sunrise, and the stars in the sky
All mixed together in an eternally changing
World of eternity passing every one else by.
So don’t let earthly limits limit you
Look beyond every surface, beyond the sky.
Don’t let this beauty get away.
For without limits, you can fly.

What I Never Saw

by

Lisa Taylor

My small hand wipes at the dirt
Trying to see through a small window
I can hear what goes on within
I can’t see inside though.

The clouds overhead rumble with rage
They open up, letting fall their tears.
The lightening flashes, showing a sad sight
And this little girl confirms her worst fears

I see through this dirty window
And my own distorting window of tears
I see a man, said to be my father
My sister, and broken bottles of beer

His hands are closed around the girls neck
Blood is dripping down her young face
Watching all this through that window
Making the world slow down it’s pace.

My little hands are bruised
From banging on the glass
As the little girl’s body goes limp
I give up and fall at last.

Tears are flowing down my little face
Until I break down and bawl
Hearing the creak of a door and my father’s yell
I turn and run, Telling myself that I never saw.

Darkness of a Broken Mind

by

Lisa Taylor

Fear lifts inside me
My heart pounding in my chest
I think I’m going crazy
Can’t go on living like this.

Retreating faces, in the dark
Moving shadows through my head
Hearing voices echo through the night
As I lay here in my bed

Rattling doors, banging on the wall
These sounds penetrating into my soul
My mind is breaking, I’m starting to fall
My carefully guarded life is spinning out of control.

Losing myself in empty thoughts
Trying to fill an empty heart
Hiding alone, my breath short and fast
Hiding from the enemies that haunt me from my past

I fear I’m really losing my mind
What would my family do?
If anyone could see in, what would they find?
Would my insanity prove true?

Life’s an endless cycle
The sun sets and rises
At night I’m faced with my true self
At day hidden with many disguises

So welcome to my life
Where demons lurk and voices sound
Where pain can drive the mind to break
And light is never found.

Freedom

by

Lisa Taylor

A hawk hunting for her prey
A wolf running the day away
A deer grazing by the side of a stream
All these creatures are free.

The wind blowing through my hair
The grass flowing like waves on a sea
Clouds passing by overhead
This is what freedom means.

I see an eagle soar over head
The wind lifting her by her wings
Horses running, their manes whipping the air
All carrying the happiness that freedom brings

I move my eyes from the picture
Praying that freedom is what I’ll see
But from the manacles binding my heart
I will never be free.

Turn Away From the Light

by

Lisa Taylor

Retreat to the darkness
Give into the madness
Let go of everything
Let go of the sadness
Wrap yourself up
In the void of the night
Give yourself up
Turn away from the light
Give in to the faces
Leering from the shadows
Walk to unknown places
Sleep in the dark meadows
Of the unknown
Wrap yourself up
In the void of the night
Give yourself up
Turn away from the light.
Listen to the voices
That come out of thin air
Rest in that place
Where you’re everywhere
But nowhere
Wrap yourself up
In the void of the night
Give yourself up
Turn away from the light.
Listen to the melody
Feel evil’s irresistible lure
Let cold fire caress you gently
Be free of the pain that you endure
And cherish it
Wrap yourself up
In the void of the night
Give yourself up
Turn away from the light
Come to a world
Where darkness is the light
Where everywhere is nowhere
And there’s no reason to fight
Wrap yourself up
In the void of the night
Give yourself up
Turn away from the light.
Let the shadows speak to you
Listen to what they say
Twirling in evil's black satin gown
Never be afraid
Turn away
Wrap yourself up
In the void of the night
Give yourself up
Turn away from the light.

The Prayer

by

Lisa Taylor

A girl i know died in a car accident not too long ago, i hadn't seen her for a couple years....i was thinkin about the last time i talked to her, and i wrote this.

Lord, my life hasn’t been the best
And I know I’m not first in line for heaven
I’ve had an empty heart for so long
I haven’t spoken to you since I was seven.
I’ve never really prayed before
And I doubt I’m doing it right
But last time I saw her, she fought for you
And I don’t want all this to end on a fight
I’m not angry at you for taking her
And I really don’t know why
I don’t know why I don’t hate you
For taking away her life
Instead I have noticed, Lord
How happy she was all those years
How her heart was so warm, she loved so many
How she could brave this world without fear.
She always tried to save me, Lord
And I’m really still not sure about this
But I’m willing to put out the effort
To grant my friend’s last wish.
I don’t think I’ll read the entire bible.
And I’m not sure I’ll even go to church
All I know is that, I know you’re there
And somehow you saved her from sadness and the hurt.
I’m still a little scared of leaving
The dark chamber I’ve been trapped in for so long
And I still don’t know if I can be who she thought I could
I’m not really honest, brave, or strong.
But I feel I’m going to breakdown, Lord
And so I’m knocking at your door
I’m hoping you’ll forgive me
For not putting my faith in you before.
I’ve been confused for so long now
Thinking I’m tougher than the world.
But I’m cracking under so many burdens
And I think she’s saved me, that girl.
So I wanted you to know, Lord
I’m going to try my best.
Maybe someday I’ll feel, as she did
And slowly come out of the darkness.