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The Need For Daddys Love

by

Eddie Tacub


Has it ever occured to you
that you dont even know me?
Youre so caught up in other things
you dont even see.
Sometimes I wish I could come to you,
see the world from your eyes.
I wish we could be open,
I bet that would be nice!
When I do something right, you dont even know,
Wheres the acknowledgement I want you to show?
But when I do wrong, youre always there,
calling me names, giving me stares.
I cant do anything but sit and cry
and pray to the lord and ask him why?
Why doesnt he bother and ask whats wrong
when he knows Im feeling down?
why doesnt he bother to ask whats going on
when Im wearing the biggest frown?
Why cant we sit and talk
and have a simple conversation?
All this wondering whys
are turning to frustrations.
You have no idea how much this hurts,
How much I long to hear those 3 little words.
I wish you knew my true feelings inside
You couldnt imagine all the pain I hide.
Sometimes I wish and pray at night
that one day youll notice me and make it right.
If I could face the truth
and tell you this I would.
I wish you would get to know me
LIKE A DADDY SHOULD!!!!!!!!


Something So Harsh

by

Eddie Tacub

pain within me for many years
my heart trembling with constant tears
reading something so harsh
but yet it is so true
as a brother and as a son
what am i to do
someone who brought my sister into this world
and someone who's seeking
to find a father in the middle of this twirl
a repeated cycle with your fourth child
that means one more lost added to the negative files
so harsh but yet so true
this letter is from your 2nd son
who forgives you and will always love you
whatever you did it's all in the past
i forgave you so i can find myself
with peace when it's my time being layed to rest
but right now i have a test
a job from GOD
someone might get hurt
but it's for the best
i have a back up with me
and his name is Jesus
the one who we call
to fill in those missing pieces
i seem to have a problem that deeply needs
a solution
seeking for a resolution
and end with a positive conclusion
so coming from my heart
i reach you by saying you need a change
you need to find you a target
and aim for it from whatever range
take that extra step to be a real man
you are our dad,
but yet we want something a little bigger
maybe what she’s searching for
is what we call a "father figure."
one chance is sometimes all you get in life
Jon, Tanya, and myself is now in the past
correct your mistakes
cause now you've got to deal with the rest

you're never to old to change
never too rusty to fix
just remember it ain't over yet
you still have number's 4, 5, and 6
i'm telling you because it's never too late
what your daughter is going through, 1, 2, and 3 can relate
please don't make this a chain reaction
but yet unite
and make this a group action
you, Malia, and the LORD
ask for forgiveness & understanding
faith and encouragement
and pray for a new beginning
start a new life together
so their will be a relationship between
a father & a daughter
always & forever

this is how I see life through my eyes
and what I'm speaking is no lies
I love you both and wish for joy & happiness
So when she looks for her father figure, she wish she had
she looks at the man, that she calls DAD

from me
a prayer, a letter
just for you two
a poem called
something so harsh & yet so true
I pray that it could be changed to-
"something so beautiful, for the two that grew"


God's Power

by

Eddie Tacub



God is able & Can never fail
He's the one that leads you
To the right trail
If you live by his words
Keep faith in HIM
And whenever doing wrong
Ask HIM to forgive you for your sins
We all know that saying-
"Two heads are better than one"
But two heads are better
When you also have GOD's begotten Son

. So bow your head and close your eyes
And to Lord Jesus pray,
Thank HIM for watching over you
Each and everyday
Thank HIM for answering your prayers
When the world around you crumbles
And also thank HIM for the days
He picked you up when you stumbled
So pray to Jesus and our Father above
To show us peace and Eternal love


A New Found Crush

by

Eddie Tacub

Time goes by with no hesitation
My mind wonders off when I see God’s beautiful creation
The earth pauses and the wind stops
I’m speechless because my mouth drops
My heart melts when your face smiles
My legs go weak as if I ran a hundred miles
I ask myself, "What is it with this girl?"
The answer is, you’re so rare and beautiful--just like a pearl
I love to see you and hate being apart
No matter the wait you will always have my heart
The feelings I have makes me speechless at times
One day cutie pie, I will make you mine
You’ll be mine and I’ll be yours
Ready to make a change and explore
I feel so much in me that I want you to see
I’m falling for you like you would never believe
Can’t eat, can’t sleep, can’t get you out of my mind
Your love, your heart, is everything I’m trying to find
Losing you would make my life hard like concrete
Having you in my presence makes me whole & complete
The beauty in your eyes got me head over heals
Your body got my eyes spinning like bicycle wheels
Life would be sweet holding you till sunrise
Life would be so complete waking up with you by my side
Space is what you need and space is what I’ll give
One thing I can’t do is hide my feelings under a lid
Since the day I first laid my eyes on yours
My love used to drip but now it pours_..


Hoping and Wishing

by

Eddie Tacub


Still stuck in a hole
Feeling nothing but pain
It hurts me to my soul
Since you left, I’ve never felt the same

I’m lost under the sun
Having nowhere to go
I want to be together as one
Do you feel the same, if so let me know

I’m trapped under this rock
Struggling to get my feet out
I’m trying to see what we got
Trying to figure out what you are about

A few moments together
Has been a lifetime of dreams
Separated from each other
Has made things harder on me

I want us to take a chance
To see if there’s something to fulfill
When I see you at a glance
The whole world begins to stay still

I can no longer look away
And forget like nothing was there
I want to see you today
So I can show you how much I really care

Searching for answers when I’m away
Don’t want you and me to set astray
Deep down inside I want you really bad
The feelings I feel I want you to have

I want to be the one you say you love
Now that’s my one and only wish
I felt the warmth when we hugged
And the sparks when we kissed

I want us to do what we can
To see if the both of us are meant to be
Until then my love
We will have to wait and see _


Untitled

by

Eddie Tacub

Out with the old
And bring out the new

Look pass the view
So we can focus on me and you

Frustrated with broken pieces in my heart
My body weakens when we’re apart


Pain

by

Eddie Tacub

Out with the old
And bring out the new
Look pass the view
So we can focus on me and you
Frustrated with broken pieces in my heart
My body weakens when we’re apart


Life and Death

by

Eddie Tacub

Everything that has a beginning has an end
You are given life and you are promised death
To choose life is to live
and to choose death is to die
Your choice of life is to live
and your choice of death is to die
You have a choice how to live your life
but you have no choice
when it's your time to die

I Wish!

by

Eddie Tacub

Since I left I haven’t felt the same
I’m feeling the exact opposite of fame
Being lonely and depressed, I’m singing the blues
Fireworks ignited when it was me and you
Your body is smooth, so sexy and fine
You got me singing my favorite song, "Forever Be Mine!"
Separated across the deep blue ocean
I think I’m drunk off of this entire love potion
I would swim the sea to see you’re once more
I vision you in open arms waiting on the shore
So much joy & happiness filled in my heart
My love is growing stronger the more we’re apart
For you I will remain faithful & true
Because I’m longing for that day we both say:
"I DO!"

Last Breath of Fresh Air

by

Eddie Tacub

Aug. 14, '93
12:24 PM
A family gathering
Standing around a white bed and white pillow
Rain pouring from everyone's eyes
Thunder and lightning pounding and roaring
Yet it's sunny outside
Walking on nails and spikes
A man in a white coat
Brings some disturbing news
On the white bed
A man is swallowing for air
But instead he loses his breath
Like a vehicle with no fuel
His heart no longer pumps
So he's brought to his death
The end of Armageddon...
Emotionally stunned and physically weakened
Cupids arrow strikes me in my heart, literally
Everlasting pain and eternally heart broken
A man's last words could not be spoken
Plastic tubes running through his neck, throat, and ears
Lips in motion but the room remains silent
Staring at surrounding white walls
I scream silently as I see a motionless human being
I can't believe nor describe what my pupils have seen
I see a man laying on
A white bed and a white pillow
He's praying with the last wind from his lungs
I see a man laying down between
Surrounding white walls
I'm silently screaming to myself
"THIS IS NOT FAIR!"
I'm watching a man, my best friend, (My Grandpa) take his
Last Breath of Fresh Air...

Opposite of Love

by

Eddie Tacub

CUPID fired a shot and missed
Shot me directly in the head
I have no life like a baby born dead
Furious and heartbroken
You couldn't save me even with one LIFE token
Face running with tears
I look into a drak cave and have No Fear
I'm ready for my life to be taken
It's over 450 degrees, my whole bodies roasting
I'm curled up in a ball, tossing & burning...
I feel like dying now
So I no longer have to feel my pain
I wish all this dark clouds would disappear-
After The Rain!

Relief

by

Eddie Tacub

Light Complexion
Long silky hair
Love so sweet
SO hard to bare
Being seperated
Brings nothing but weep
Looking out my window
Its you I seek
I look at the moon
Hoping you're doing the same
Kiss my my queen
To take away this pain

Transformation of Love

by

Eddie Tacub

Curious to know where this love will go
I'm in love with someone I barely know
Lost...following this unknown road
Wondering where it will lead
Will it go to the destination of You & Me?
The thirst to see you one last time
How long will it take till we can combine?
Waking up to your beauty for the rest of my life
Waiting for my catepilar transform to my wife
Massaging your shoulderss so you can relax
Screaming your name while having rough sex
Making you breakfast just the way you like it
Love so strong, I can no longer discuise it
My heart is open even for the blind to see
One day my love, it will be you and me
Walking on clouds feeling like you're in heaven
I'm going to shower you with love 24/7
My love will never stop turning like the movement of the earth
I'll treat you like a winner, you should always be first
So patience & time is a have to and a must
To break down this huge wall
We'll need Love, Hope, and Trust!!!

Love & Reality

by

Eddie Tacub

Love & Reality
Pt. 1-
Just a little love but so much pain
So much lost and only a little gained
A little bit of happiness because they're always sad
Two people searching for love they never had
So much to hold but yet they crave for more
Out of gas, relationship can no longer soar
A chilld left alone in the dark, the parents only fear
So they try & they try to make the rainbow reappear
But as their love remian in the dark & gray
They're faced to fight this pain each & everyday

Pt. 2-
Found happiness that's so unreal
So much in love, can't explain the way I feel
Falling for you like the stars in the midnight sky
Trying to catch you to make you 4ever mine
Gazing in to your sexy eyez
I saw you walking down the aisle to stand by my side
Tears falling from my face as I'm holding your hand
I ask you with one knee down--"Can I be your man?"
You said yes with one of the biggest smiles
Said you love everything about me, including my style
Seconds later I woke up, realizing it was all a dream
I thought this was real, what does this mean?
I guess I'm still happy because I still got you
Do what I can to make this dream come true
But for now...let me just say that I LOVE U...

Two Sides

by

Eddie Tacub

My life could be short or it could be long
All I know is...
For every right, there's a wrong
For every action, there's a reaction
In every problem, there's a solution
For every "thesis," an answer lies--waiting to be found
Screw someone and one day someone will screw you back
If you f8$@ed up, then be prepared to be f8$@ed back
In every smile there's a frown
Some folks are deaf and some can hear the sound
Remember not everything that goes up, must come down
But I cann tell you "What goes around, comes around!"

Untitled Pt. 2

by

Eddie Tacub

In with the new
Out with the old
Come to me and
Let your love unfold
You and me 4ever
The greatest story to be told

Ready for Change

by

Eddie Tacub

Ready to gain
Cause I can no longer stand pain
This repeated negativity is driving me insane
I can stand the heat & handle the sun
But I can’t the rain
I wanna close my eyes
Take a ride on the love train
Compare me to a car-
I’m ready to change lanes

Slowly

by

Eddie Tacub

Eternally grateful
Proud to call you mine
I’m ready to share my love with you
One day at a time

Deep Thoughts...

by

Eddie Tacub

Is it me-
or is true love so hard to find?
Is the grass always greener on the other side?
Am I in love-
or am I living a lie?

How Long Will It Take?

by

Eddie Tacub

I’m still here
Waiting on the sidelines
I’m waiting
Waiting for you 2 be mine

You being so far
Only makes me sick
Can’t wait till we’re close
So I can be the one you’re with

Hate to hear
That you’re always alone
How long can we go
Just talking on the phone

Can’t control time
But I just hope it travels fast
Cause I can’t take it anymore
My minds ready to crash

I’m trying & trying
2 be a little patient
I just hope I’ll get to you
Before our love turn ancient

Stress & Relief

by

Eddie Tacub

I feel lost when you’re not around
I feel like treasure but I haven’t been found
The world is passing me by
Still I hear no sound
What can I do to see you once more?
When will you come walking through my front door?
So much pleasure yet so much pain
I feel the weight on my shoulders
But still I try to maintain, I can’t explain
All the feelings that I feel
I got so much love, ready to reveal
I’m going to try and keep strong
I’ll let time do his part
My feelings will never change
All the things I do and say
It comes from my heart
So all I ask is for us to wait
One day you’ll realize
That you are my "soul mate!"

Untitled Pt. 3

by

Eddie Tacub

No more old
Cause I'm with the new
Read this baby
This ones for you
The grass is green
And the ocean is blue
I can't wait to ask the "big question"
Cause our love is long overdue!

The Way I Feel

by

Eddie Tacub

When I look at myself
I see a part of you
I’ve been so happy
Since the day I met you
I knew that you are
The "dream girl" in my life
But I never knew
I'd also thought of you as my wife
You took me out of the dark
And showed me the light
I’d enjoy having to hold you
When we sleep at night
I don’t want to make you shed any tears
I want us to be together
With happiness all of our years
We’ll make it through the tough times
The struggles and the pain
To be without you for the rest of my years
Would never be the same
I love you-not because I have to
But I love you cause I choose to.

Erotic Thoughts

by

Eddie Tacub

I go to sleep at night with the room pitch black
It's time to rub my hands down your back
Kissing your shoulders and pulling your hair
I'm going crazy; the smell of sex is in the air
Candles, candies, hot chocolate & strawberries in a jar
Treating you like the queen that you are
When comparing anything to us making love
Nothing can come close
Sweat rolling down our bodies
We're scorching hot like burnt toast

Erotic Thoughts (Session II)

by

Eddie Tacub

I lay you flat on your back
Candles lit, roses all over the place
Open your mouth, close your eyes
Let’s play a game of taste
Turning you on!
I keep you wet like the ocean
I give a kiss on your neck, BOOM!
A dose of my love potion
There you go again,
Screaming & moaning
A taste of my love got you singing- "Slow Motion"
I-n-h-a-l-e, e-x-h-a-l-e, let it all out
I’ll put it on you without a doubt
After I'm done, you’ll say you want more
After doing it twice, I'll leave you sleeping and sore.

Searching for Help

by

Eddie Tacub

My lifes pacing
I'm lost in frustration
I'm so much in love
I'm losing my concentration...

Life!

by

Eddie Tacub

Yesterday is nothing but history
Today I'm living it up because
Tomorrow's a mystery

The Feeling of Death

by

Eddie Tacub

Ocean at a still
Birds chirping without a sound
I'm stranded in the middle of nowhere
Waiting to be found
I'm out of breath
Running, my feet burning from the hot sand
My life slowly disappearing
I'm drowning in quicksand
With my last breath
I scream silently to the skies above
I'm waiting impatiently
Hoping for someone to walk by
Is this a dream or a test
All I know is---I'm experiencing
The Feeling of Death!

True Power

by

Eddie Tacub

As I close my eyes from the world
I'm sent away from the darkness
And GOD shows me the light
The feeling so powerful and strong
It's showing the devil
The definition of fright
With my eyes still close
I see Heaven in my eyesight
No words can describe
It's such a beautiful sight
From a distance I hear HIS voice
It's quiet with a powerful sound
GOD spoke to me and said
"My Son, you need to turn your life around!"

True Power (Pt. 2)

by

Eddie Tacub

I was once blind
But now I can see
My vision was more clear
Once I realized, "FAITH was the key"

I feel trapped at times
In a maze with no open walls
Everytime I lose my balance
I pray to GOD to catch me
Everytime I fall

I'm learning now
To put all my trust in HIM
Please Lord forgive me
For everytime I sin

With all the dirt that I did
How did I make it this far?
GOD said to me---
"I love you for not what you did
But I love you for who you are!"

HE said to me that "I am the One"
"I love you child, cause You are my Son!"

Searching For A Way Out

by

Eddie Tacub

I'm searching for answers, my life is incomplete
I'm a word with no definition
Soul searching...
I see nothing but the bottom of the barrel
To myself, I'm imperil...
Dramatized with all of these scenarios
I hate to admit
I feel like ice cream with bananas
I'm ready to split
I'm laying down with no movement
I'm tranquilized...
I onced stayed in Fantasy Island
But now I'm living in Lies
Barely living, I utter to the nurse
"Take me away-drive me in a hearse!"
Show me how how a dead man feels
Someone call Lucifer
I think wee could make a deal
As I communicate with the devil
I'm turning red feeling roasted like a duck
Is my life really over, should I give up?
I burst like dynamite
I made a detour out of hell
Life filled with all types of problems
But I'm not ready to ring my bell
Tears falling from my eyes
Blood dripping from my heart &
Out of my chest, I can't give up
I need to pass this test
I'm a tue definition of a soldier
I gotta give it my best
All I can do now is scream
To the Lord up above
Ask him for guidance & show me some love!

A Day In My Shoes

by

Eddie Tacub

The mountains are high
But my valleys low
I see everything that lies ahead
But don't know which way to go

I see heaven and I see hell
I need to choose a destination
Do I stay here or go there
The devil defines temptation

God showed me a sign
And the devil showed me a location
My mind confused over desires
I'm filled with frustration

A brand new day
With another test on my life
One path filled with darkness
The other filled with spiritual light

So many choices
Things I won't do, some I might
God gives me His sword to conquer the world
Lucifer offers to kill me with his personal knife

Another day comes to an end
Weakened by all these struggles
Obstacles came from all angles
All elements of my life being juggled

Realizing all what I went through
Times I conquered & times I failed
I never suffered more pain than my Savior
Cause I've been hit & bruised but never nailed

So I put my head up to the sky
With the devil under my shoes
I'd rather choose Jesus cause
With Him I know I'll never lose

Life In Iraq

by

Eddie Tacub

In a country with rivals
Everyday is a struggle
Where anyone may become suicidal

We are prey
From men with bombs, missiles, & AK's
So we pray 24-hours a day

Can't explain stress
Bombs going off
Hitting the deck
In the air, the smell of death

Keeping aware of everything in sight
Hoping to see another morning light

Soldiers with frowns
Faces sag
After seeing a baby in a body bag

If you don't make it home
God rest your soul
If you do
That's the definition of survival

Finding Myself

by

Eddie Tacub

I'm drinking my sorrows away
Just to make it through my life day-by-day
What more can I say?
I'm just trying to make a way out of no way
I feel like a boat ready to set sail
Only theres a whole in it
And everyone bails
I feel like my brother
Being locked up & trapped in jail
I'm at the downfall in my life
I feel gray and pale
I'm trying to figure out
Who I am or what I'm going to be
Feeling lost and confused
Someone please save me...

My Diary (The Short Version)

by

Eddie Tacub

From birth up into now
Can't nobody really feel my pain
The dark clouds in my life
Is filled with rain
The way I feel I can't explain
My mind wondering in space
I'm driving myself insane
All my battles, all my struggles
Who do I blame?
I wish someone could make it plain
Cause right now
I feel weak & completely drained

Unstoppable

by

Eddie Tacub

I'm challenged
By the devil from every angle
Still I stand tall
With my spirits up high
I'll continue to this
Everyday with GOD
Till the day that I die!

Confessions to the Devil

by

Eddie Tacub

A brand new day
So blessed cause I opened my eyes
Now I have to face
The troubles in the world
Where I could make it or maybe die
With all the trials in my life
I know I'll survive
Because the devil is a lie

Ready for a Change

by

Eddie Tacub

Gripping on to my life
I'm hanging on the edge
I'm still breathing but yet I feel dead
Too much problems, so much stress
Still I'm trying my best
Feeling like the worlds on my shoulders
I'm trying to get my mind right
Cause I'm only getting older
I want to move on and start a new life
Even if I have to find me a new wife...

One More Time

by

Eddie Tacub

I can't wait
Can't wait to see you once more
Ohh, how I miss you
Walking through my door
The smile upon your face
Brought a smile upon mine
Baby girl, I can't wait
Till I can see you "One More Time!"

My Heart

by

Eddie Tacub

So many times
You run through my mind
Especially when we're apart
Everything I say and do
Comes from my heart

I love you no matter the case
I apologize to you now
If I keep staring at your face
You're so beautiful
You constantly make my heart race

What we have I never want to end
Every time when I'm with you
It's like a brand new start
Expressing my feelings to you
And pouring out my heart

Emotional Rollercoaster

by

Eddie Tacub

In my eyesight
She's the the girl of my dreams
On the flip side
I'm confused at times
I try to do all I can to please her
Or make her happy
But yet at times she can be a little sassy
If she only knew the way I used to be
Maybe she would never say, "Don't raise your voice at me!"
I know the depths of my attitude
I know I can create a buzz
But only if she knew
How I once was
I'm not saying anything negative
But trying to remain true
I just want you to know what I mean
When I say that I love you
Often at times I hear you repeat these words
I soak it in and my heart begins to burst
On the flip side I wonder if you really mean what you say
Because I feel like you don't at times in a day
I'm so in love with you
More than my life itself
I'll never stop
No matter if we lose our wealth
Nothing can and should come in between
All what I show is nothing but me
Trying to treat you like a woman
And maybe one day--make you my queen
Why at times things seem so hard
We're both in love but yet I fell so sad
Does she really know
She's the best girl I ever had
I drop everything and push it to the side
I've been so open with nothing to hide
But why do I feel like a hole in the boat
Why at times I feel like all of this is a hoax
I feel that I'm doing all that I can
I don't ask for much
Just love me, respect me &
Give this relationship a hundred-ten
So much relationships fail
And come to an end
All because someone didn't give it their all
Or because their ego couldn't bend
All I know is I'm here and plan on staying
I just hope you understand everything that I'm saying
I want to please you, love you, and care for you
My questionn is, is this something that you that you want to do too
You've been through pain
And I've been through the same
I love you and my heart will never change
Just please, please don't leave me astray

Pain from Seperation

by

Eddie Tacub

Time away
Makes things so hard
I Wish I could pull
A "be with you 4-ever card"
One more hug, one more kiss
To be with you is my only wish
Having you rub my back
While I rub your arm
Whenever you're cold
It's my duty to keep you warm
It's hard to accept
You doing your own thing
And I'm doing mine
When I'd rather do things together
Because only then it would be fine
I'm not worried about anything
I'm just a little sad
I never met a girl like you
You're a "Dream Come True"
You're the best I ever had
So here is one last thing
That I have to say
I'm happy with you
Proud to call you my baby
I'll never leave you
And that's a promise
There's no if, ands, or maybe
One day, we will unite
We have to do this
We're made for each other
So that only makes it right
My feelings keep growing like grass
Hoping for the special day to come
In the mean time
I hope all these days go by fast

My Confession

by

Eddie Tacub

I'm here to stay
Can't picture myself with no other girl
I'm so amazed to have you
The most beautiful girl in the world
Hearing the words you say
brings light on my darkest days
I love you and loving saying it
I can't complain the way things are going
Not one bit
If you consider me cute
Your all of this times to
I've been searching this planet
For a girl like you
Now that I found my queen
I'm waiting for the day
I can go down on one knee
I want to give you a kiss and a hug
Baby girl, it's only you that I love

Destined to Meet

by

Eddie Tacub

So amazed with the feelings that I feel
Got me thinking is this love for real
But now I know the answer without a doubt
So there's no other way, this is the "right" route
Moving forward and never turing back
Working out my situations
So I can tell you to get your bags packed
One day our dreams will come true
You found the man of your dreams
While I searched for my queen and I found you
Two people living their own seperate life
You we're someone's husband while I was someone's wife
Destined to meet, a strong bond we share together
Praying and hoping this relationship last forever

Only You

by

Eddie Tacub

After you we're running through my mind
I couldn't stop thinking
How beautiful you are
DAMN, you're so fine!
There's no way on this earth
That I would let go of your hand
I want you and no other girl
Believe me
Cause that's where I stand
Beauty of a woman can only go so many ways
But the things that you offer me:
Got me hook until the end of my days
You offer me, love, honesty, & compassion
Just to name a few
I'm so happy and more than content
Baby, I want no other, ONLY YOU

The Connection of Pain & Love

by

Eddie Tacub

I feel over powered by our love
By body is so over drained
Makes my heart is broken
And I'm going insane
How much longer will my heart melt
I feel breathless like a man hanging from a belt
I can't eat, I can't sleep, I'm losing my concentration
I miss you and need you, I'm drowning in frustration
I'm being tortured with endless pain
Walking around like a skeleton
With an invisible frame
Don't know what to do with you at a distance
I want to be with you at this very instance
Feeling so weak, I have an upside down smile
I'd do anything to see you right now
I'd even swim a thousand miles
So last but not least
I'm ready for you to kiss me
So I no longer have to be this beast
Ready for your touch, your kiss, and your love
I'm waiting for us to be connected like
Two turtle doves

So Much In Love

by

Eddie Tacub

Usually beauty is considered skin deep
But you have so much of it
You could easily make a man weep
Tears falling from his eyes
Because you're so beautiful
You made his heart cry
You're a keeper, so he says
He said you look better each and every day
He's so thankful to have girl sent from up above
He's overwhelmed & happy, he's so much in love

Assisted by W.L.D.

Picture Frame

by

Eddie Tacub

Being with you
Brings relief to my soul
Like a doctor
You repaired all my holes

Whishing you we're here
By my side
Cause we're only stronger
When we're combined

I'm sad and all alone
I feel the same pain
As one with broken bones

So as I sit here
Staring at your photo
It's just not the same
It would be better
If you we're standing
Outside of my picture frame

Your Children's Pain (Confession to our Father)

by

Eddie Tacub

(Son)
I can't believe the things that happened to me
If only someone could see what I had to see
I was being controlled by this beast called my father
Which in most ways he was never one
Instead of helping or loving me, he did the other

All this drama came from my so called dad
At times I wished for a father someone else had
Maybe he was one from the start
But it only took him a little time
Till he hurt me and lost his heart
Why did he have to tear this father & son relationship apart?

I wish for one day that he could change
I can't be around him if he's going to be the same
I wish for one day you would do what's best
Or else this shit will be passed on down
One generation to the next...

(Daughter)
Its hard for me and sad for you
You'll never understand what I went through
Years have passed but it hurts the same
Just one question.....why all the pain?

They say to accept you like you are
Some say you'll never change
But you see--because of you,
My life, I've rearanged

The way I grew up reflects
the person I am today
I vow I will never be like you
and show love in such a way

At least some good came out of this
I'm away from the beast and set free
I just want to thank you so much dad
for teaching me what I should never be

My Life Saver

by

Eddie Tacub

(Kylie's Part)
So amazed by the love you've shown
I love everything about you including your skin tone
You brought light into my dark life
Your happiness took away the pain
From those who stabbed me with a knife
Mark my words as I tell you how I feel
I wanna love you till my life is over
And that's no lie, all of this is real

(Malia's Part)
Or so I thought until I awoke
And remebered the harsh words we last spoke
It was all a dream
Things aren't really what they seem
Oh how everything is perfect when I'm alseep
I don't want to wake.....ever
I just want to dream
There you'll be my lifesaver
Instead of the crashing waves around
There, you'll help save me
Instead of helping me drown

Every Day

by

Eddie Tacub

Every day is another day
Of one day in your life
But every day is another day
Closer to the day you die

How can I be thankful for the next day I live
Without being scared that I'm a day closer to my last?
How do I look upon this?
It's an Every day test

Should I believe the saying
What goes around comes around
For all the dirt that I did
I should be burried 6ft. in the ground

Every day seems one day closer to the heavenly gates
Trying to live righteous every day, living by faith
Wondering ever day if I'm going to heaven or in the gravel
All day, every day I'm thanking god and fighting the devil

I go through all these problems & drama
Every single day in my life, or is it just me
Every day was a struggle...
And it all started from the day of Adam & Eve

Now all I need to know is
Where do I take things from here?
I'm tired of all this fighting
Every day my heart is shedding tears

Should I put down my personal desires
Or should I live my own life and die of burning fire
I think I'll just let God steer
Let Him take control and put my life on neutral gear

So I guess now I'm stronger in every way
I learned how to deal with my battles
Each and "Every Day"

Mistreated

by

Eddie Tacub

I sit here reminiscing on the day we met
I'm trying to see now, is my life all set
I'm more than content with how my life is now
Since day one my life have been filled with "wows"
You've been more than great since day one
If I never got a chance to meet you
I already knew my life was done
I knew since we spoke on the phone
That we had a connection
No matter if we live in different time zones
You run through my mind every single second
Not talking to you the past years was our secret weapon
Cause now we are set and ready for a change
We want different things in a relationship
Because we we're tired of being treated as lame
We're just sick of being abused and hate when you're mean
We just want to be loved and treated like a king or queen

My Confession Pt. 2

by

Eddie Tacub

Eyes glimmering
Hearts simmering
Explosions in the air
While I'm running my fingers through your hair
I'll love you in the morning
Till the sun sets
I'll love you when the stars are out
I'll love you till I'm laid to rest
I love everything you offer
I love your smile and your body frame
I enjoy being with you and around you
I hope you feel the same
Your kiss, your legs, your touch
I love when you're happy or sad
I still love you at times that we fuss
To me you mean the world
You're my lover and you're my friend
I want you to have my son or my baby girl
When I say these sweet little things
I say it from the bottom of my heart
I love you just the way you are
I just can't stand being apart

Open Your Heart To Me

by

Eddie Tacub

My heart blossomed the day we met
I confess: To find a girl like you was my request
What I don't get is,
"How much pain comes with love"
All I know is I felt both from the One above
I'm so happy but I still don't feel like I should
Receiving so much hurt with happiness
That I never understood
I can never stop you from being you
But it is possible that you can stop me from loving you
When you come to me with open arms
Also open your eyes & your heart
Open yourself to me
Or this relationship will tear apart
Use me & talk to me for all good reasons
I'm here for you baby
Through night & day of every season

Scarred For Life

by

Eddie Tacub

The first time my father laid his hands on me
I have to admit
That turned my life around drastically
I know I messed up and did something stupid
But that's no reason for you to treat me
The opposite of cupid
My father whooped my fuckin' ass
Which then shattered my heart like broken glass
He could've used something else instead of a belt
If he only knew how that shit felt
Eight bruises around my arm, chest & back
I wish I had the balls to retaliate
I would've hit him cross the head with his softball bat
This situation scarred me from the outer skin
To the inside of my heart
Till this day I still believe this is what ripped me & my dad apart

You Can't Take Me

by

Eddie Tacub

Forgive me father for I have sin
Without you lord, the devil will win
The choices I make is the conclusion to my life
giving in to Satan's malicious plan
Is like stabbing myself with a knife
It's something that I could never do
Dear Lord, help me right now, "I really need you!"
My pain is increasing and my heart is bleeding
My eyes keep crying and my body is aching
I can no longer walk this walk, I need a change
Draw me a new life plan, I no longer want to be the same
I'm going crazy God, open my ears to your voice
I know the difference between right and wrong
I just can't make the right choice
Seems like everything I do is never right
I always say I'm going to change my ways
I follow my own desires and then lose sight
I lose sight of living my life holy and righteous
I start making things about money, lust and fame
I'm losing my mind because I'm corrupted in my brain
So much pain and so much struggles
Trying to live by these Laws & Commandments
Seems impossible and so hard to juggle
All I know is that I'm not doing everything I can
I could try harder and give it all I got
In the mean time I'll keep my head up
Be thankful because I'm still alive
After all these battles I have fought
I made it this far so I know the devil can't break me
This is my confession to Satan and his evil angels
You can chase me, catch me & try to shake me
But you Can't Take Me...

Keep Me Stable

by

Eddie Tacub

Oh, how I love everything that you do
I love everything that you are
I love everything when we're together
I even love you when you're far
It's been a month since we was side by side
You & me make an earthquake when combined
Our love is so strong it makes the world vibrate
My love for you grows stronger when I'm asleep
And even more when I'm awake
Never have I felt the love and compassion from a girl
I can't even tell you how much I love you
Because my description is "out of this world"
As you stay and remaining waiting for me to pick you up
I'll be at a far doing what I can to love you up
I'm here to be your pillow when you need a rest
My arms are here to comfort you when you're stress
But most of all, I'm here to treat you like a woman
I'm here to make you happy
It's my job to make you smile when you're feeling crappy
That's why I felt that we are meant to be
Today when we talked, you brought life back in me
This pass few days my life felt unstable
Today when I heard your inspirational voice, you kept me stable

Forever Pain

by

Eddie Tacub

I'm feeling hurt cause I got my heart broken
All this drama coming my way
Feels like I lost my soul or someone took it
I'm searching for answers
To all of my concerned questions
I can't move on with my life
Unless someone sit down with me
And have some honest sessions
All these lies is messing my head up
My attitude is changing from
I used to care to I don't give a fuck
Why am I going through this?
How can all this be?
There's millions of people in this world
Why does it have to be me?

My Turning Point

by

Eddie Tacub

I was once a happy kid
With an upside down frown
Then there was one day
Till I felt like my whole turned mute
I heard no sound
My whole life took a tragic turn
My dad tossed my soul in the fire
And told me to let it burn

Heaven's Blessing

by

Eddie Tacub

If I'm a beast
Then you must be a "Beauty"
I'm so glad to have someone like you
Plus you are such a QT
They say beauty is found skin deep
I say you must be extra blessed
You're extremely beautiful
From your head 2 your feet
If my life was a big puzzle
Then you must be that missing piece
You fulfilled me since day one
Now I'm going to love you
Till I'm deceased

The Feelings of A Little Boy

by

Eddie Tacub

There was once a young boy
Who felt that his whole life was over
He wants to die so he drinks
And feels the opposite of sober
Evil thoughts roaming through his head
Nothing looks good for him
So he feels better off being dead
People used to tease and harass him
His life felt useless and had no love within
He hardly saw his mom and his dad was a jerk
His own marriage took a flop
He tried all that he could,
And it still didn't work
Then one day he bumped into his one time crush
He enjoys her company
Fell in love with a single touch
When their love click they make a perfect team
At times things seems to good to be true
So he wonders if this relationship is "meant to be"
All his pain & frowns from the past
Has turn in to love & smiles
His love has gotten stronger
Even when separated by a few thousand miles
At the same time, he feels sad, bored & all alone
It's hard for him because he wants
Him and his future wife to live in the same home
Once a boy but now a grown man
He's trying to find his life and see where it stands
This young man, who's trying to figure things out
Is me trying to find out
What my life and our relationship is all about

My Confession Pt. 3 (Completely Satisfied)

by

Eddie Tacub

My heart craves for more of your love
I wan't to share my 4-ever love with you
Giving you everyday "kisses & hugs"
Our separation is waiting for us to cuddle
I'll do anything for you
I'll even put my jersey down
For you to walk over a puddle
If I could buy you anything
I'd have to buy you another world
Because there's nothing on this earth
That could show you how much I love you
Not even 1,000,000 shiny pearly
So here I am telling you
How much I love you
In a written session
I'm writing to explain my love towards you
Pouring out my heart with another Confession

Recognize His Power

by

Eddie Tacub

The powers of god no man can stand
Nor can anyone figure out god's plan
His hand, so powerful and strong
The more you pray and live holy
Might determine if you die short or live long
Problems & struggles happen in your life for a reason
Just like life will bring you joy and pain every season
When one close to you to dies
It might be a sign or reality check
You determine whether to make a change or not
I think you should cause this might be a test
At times life will get ruff
But stick your chin up
Even when things get tough
God can carry you
And help you through your pain
He can brighten up your day
When your life is filled with rain
One powerful and single touch
That’s all it takes
He loves you regardless
Even when you constantly make
The same mistakes

Soaring Emotions

by

Eddie Tacub

I know the pain that I feel is real
I feel like a lemon, my mind is shredded and peeled
My heart's burning like a candle
These emotions I'm holding I can barely handle
My love is on spin cycle so I'm a little off track
I can feel the heat touching my inner feelings
It hurts so much I'm crying hot wax
I'm boiling hot like a volcano erupting
Hot lava flowing down my body
Being away makes our relationship so corrupting
I have zero or any intentions to make you upset
I rather be able to speak what's on my mind and be open
Why would I try to hurt you?
You're a priceless & beautiful one of a kind token
I don't care about me, myself, and I
I would rather put you first
I would bring you a glass of water
Whenever you thirst
I don't feel like I'm so demanding
The things that I expect out of our relationship
I just want you to have a little understanding
Just respect my opinion & be honest
Allow me to say what's on my mind
Love me & care for me
Until the end of our time
I don't want nothing more, nothing less
Treat me the way you would like to be treated
Never hold back and give your best
Still I push my personal feelings to the left
So I can make things right
I try to bring a smile to you in the morning
Hoping it will last through the night
I'll go out of my way
No matter the situation
Taking care of you is my job
Because I love you
And your God's beautiful creation
This all started when I was once lost
Walking the lonely road with a damaged spine
Then I found my cure to happiness
So now I'm glad to call you mine

Pure Sadness

by

Eddie Tacub

A beautiful black queen
Attitude so nice but never mean
You we're a friend
Everyone wish they had
To see you gone, I'm deeply sad
For you to get shot
That should never be
For all the wrongs things that I did
That should've been me
Why would God take you so soon
Now you're resting in a silent tomb
I still remember the last time we talked
Now your last time on earth ended
With your body surrounded with chalk
The last time we talked I gave you a hug
Everything we went through
I'll cherish it with love
Atleast now I know you're resting
With "Our Father ABove"

Definitions of My Life

by

Eddie Tacub

Pt. 1
So many feelings running through my head
I'm reflecting on my past
What I did, what I saw, what people said
It would be hard to believe
If I told you everything my eyes have seen
I seen my grandpa take his last breath
I've been through a bombing
Bag & tagged a little baby
I was scared to death
He was 6 months old, I saw his head cracked
120 days seemed a life time in the country of Iraq
Never I thought I'd ever see American soil
Every time I woke up, my heart would start to boil
I was sweating everyday even if outside was cold
It's because I was in fear of my life
With nothing and no one to hold
I need prescriptions for the descriptions
Of the life time pain & memories
I guess I'm thankful just to be alive
And not sleeping permanently in a cemetery
That's one of the things I regret
Sometimes I just wish I never went
Maybe this was punishment for everything I did bad
I just wonder how life would be
Wrapped up in a body bag

Pt. 2
Now I'm still here
It's 2005 and I'm still alive
I'm still struggling
Dealing with these emotions in my life
A different person in the same body
My life struck gold after I discoverd a "hottie"
A girl that I had dreams about for years
She took away a lot of my pain and tears
I'm here, the happiest ever
I received numerous shots by cupid
So I'm feeling a whole lot better
I'm definitely in love
So thankful from the One above
Here me when I say these words to you
I want to marry you one day
I hope you do too
Because my feelings are strong and forever true
So I'll end this by telling you my favorite words
QT Pie, I LOVE YOU!!!

Evil Thoughts

by

Eddie Tacub

Time is at a still
As the roller coaster of love
Goes up and down in many directions
I'll cry now so when I die later
I'll look down and smile
Realizing the struggles & pain
That came with the storm and the rain
The life I would once live is now over
No longer having reasons to get drunk
I'm in heaven drinking wine
But I'll be eternally sober
I see life flash in front of my eyes in slow motion
I see when the devil stabbed me with his fork
And when cupid shot me up with a little potion
I'm hoping now that my life is in a box
And my spirit is running through the pearly gates
That my past don't be in my memory or in my thoughts
I would hate to see all of the battles that I have fought
All the times I almost died or killed myself
Overdosing on pills
To let my life drown 6 feet deep in the gravel
I was blending in with hopeless sinners
Standing in the line to meet the devil
I'm glad I'm dead because I already lived my life
But I'm confused in this present time
Because I lost my special someone
I feel the pain of being stabbed with a knife

Shattered Heart

by

Eddie Tacub

My eyes began to bleed
It was Apr 3rd 2005
When I was disconnected from my future wife
She was the woman I would marry
And love for all of my years
Now we’re not together
My heart is shedding tattoo tears
Feeling smaller than usual
My life came to a fold
It’s a sunny day but I’m freezing cold
My whole body is in shivers
I barely cried in the past
But now I’m crying a river
I feel hopeless & helpless like a man without a liver
We’re powerful when we’re together
But being apart brought us down a few peaks
Now it’s even worst, we’ll be separated for another 52 weeks
Giving the situation, we just have to be patient
We know we’re both meant for each other
I’m hoping for one day to be your daughter’s father
For me & you to be eternal lovers
I know we’ve been separated for a while
I know you’re tired at times just talking on the phone
You want us to be a family & live together in the same home
Spend all of our days & nights combined
We can both make this happen
And make all of your situations in life fine
I love you baby, this will just take a little time
Since the day that we first met
I knew you we’re that special girl that God choosed
I love you & can’t wait for your last name to be Tacub
Open your heart and then you will see
This will all be worth it, please baby, please wait for me

The Reality of My Dream

by

Eddie Tacub

My life was resurrected since the day we first talked on the phone
To the Sunday we almost shared the same home
It was another Sunday I was hit with a hard stone
Now I’m dead again and I’m back all alone
When my eyes made contact on your body and soul
In broad day light you could see my heart glow
My world became silent as my feelings began to fold
The words I heard was so cold, my whole body froze
I fell deeply in love the first time I saw you walk by
I never felt true love since you stepped into my life
Dreams arose as me as your husband and you as my wife
I thought of us having kids, I can’t lie
I see a family photo in my vision till the day we both die
The thoughts of us not being together
A deaf man could hear my soul cry

Wishing We Could Me...Together

by

Eddie Tacub

Love hurts when emotions explode
As two lovers try to unite
Living on two separate roads
Love so true, bond so strong
Both tired of waiting so long
Our love is deeper than most
Because we’re in love & engaged
Yet there are feelings of extreme loneliness
Like a bird in a cage
Still, my feelings will never change
No matter how long I have to wait
I asked you to marry me
So in God I’ll keep my faith
Wait for me as I wait for you
Stand by my side
Together, we’ll stay faithful & true
Hand in hand we should
Stand tall & stay strong when I get back
We’ll get married to your favorite love song

One Last Hope

by

Eddie Tacub

I’m like a dog set astray
Waiting to be found
Lonely all my nights & all my days
I’m seeking for my long lost love
Feeling hopeless
Praying to the One above
Please bring everything back to the way it was
We’re so tired of being separated
Do what you can to bring us close
So we can get on with our lives
Get married and prepare for a toast
Save us, save our helpless souls
Cover, repair, & fix up
All of these empty holes

My Vision & MyThoughts

by

Eddie Tacub

My vision in life, so clear
Whishing I could see tomorrow
So I could prepare
For my unknown pain & sorrows
It’s just crazy
Not knowing what lies ahead
Wondering how long you’re going to live
Or when you’ll end up dead
I cried inside & out over my 26 years
I experienced so much pain
I think I cried my last tear
Deaths, divorce, and countless drama
I was 3 months old
When I was separated from my mama
Drinking to relieve my stress for the night
Smoking weed to have my mind
Escape my body & fly high as a kite
Never, ever wanting to come back down
Wishing I could tune out the world
And eliminate all its negative sounds
Still searching for understanding & answers
Wondering till this day
Why did my Grandpa have to die of cancer?
Since his death, I chose to live by
More action and less talk
And live by my favorite saying
You have to crawl before you walk

A Beautiful Change

by

Eddie Tacub

As I take a glimpse of my life in the past
I see more smiles turned upside down
More rain, less love, & super sized pain
Obstacles & roller coast rides
My self-esteem in life going
Up & down, circles, and side to side
Hated being alone & tired of an everyday change
Wishing I could pick out my life
And keep it all the same
Eight years have passed me by
I was shown the definition of happiness
So I no longer wanna die
A beautiful "azncutie" walked in to my life
With a single glance
I saw my future wife with my big brown eyes
I knew from the start
That you & I we’re meant to be
Making you happy & getting married
Is the vision I want you to see
Nothing will change as long as we
Realize how special the other person is
When we’re together or apart
And remember to respect & love each other
From the top to the deepest part of our heart!

My Relationship's Last Breath

by

Eddie Tacub

Sent of to war against my own will
Now I'm being dumped, heart beat-less, my body at a still

So many emotions when you're apart
You say one day that you love me
The next day you go and break my heart

My heart has holes in it, my body is feeling drained
The pain I feel made the white clouds rain

Eight long months in the battle field
Along with my weapon, our love I would've carried
It took me a lot of courage
To ask your dad permission to get married

Someone who's dieing inside just like you
To be with the one they love
To spend forever as one instead apart as two

I long for his day, my soul cries for us to be as one
To sit on our front porch under the same sun

To end our relationship over something I have no control
You not only ripped my heart out my chest
But you damaged and scarred my body and soul

I hope that you are happy with your choice or decisions
While I'm dodging bullets or avoiding convoy collisions

If you can't wait for someone you love so deeply
I guess you get rid of them first, leave them in the corner weeping

I guess you rather be with someone
You could see almost every single day
Then be with someone who can take care of you
Love you and hold you in each and every way
Looks like all for what we worked for
You'd rather go and throw it all away

Seeing or picturing you being with someone else
Only makes me sick and makes my eyes melt
I still remember the time we first broke up
I remember your reaction and how you felt

You wanted to work things out and give us another chance
Do whatever it takes to make it last
Now I'm being crucified for being a soldier
We have no future, all we have is a past

I wish things could have been different
Wish I could type a request to God and hit send
I wish you knew how much to me you really meant
But all this has all come to a fucking end
I guess we'll be the opposite of the song lover's and friends

The Vision of a Broken Home

by

Eddie Tacub

It’s freezing cold as I awoke
The crack of dawn ready to approach
I wake up once again looking like death
I can no longer tell that I have morning breath
A beam of sunlight creeps through a little corner of the cardboard box
Another morning headache from sleeping on a flat sheet of rocks
Another day, another dollar
To people walking or driving by, I try to holla
Ignoring me, like a soldier standing across enemy lines
Standing on my feet all day brings constant pain to my spine
Never the type to beg, I’m forced to do what I can
Reaching through trash, I make money by recycling cans
Too tired_I can barely stand
I was a proud father and husband
Till shit hit the fan
My wife and kids got murdered
Then I got fired; now I no longer make any cents
Got kicked out of my apartment_this shit doesn’t make sense
Now I live in a house where I don’t have to pay any rent
A few dollars to my name, I buy my favorite 40 ounce drink
So I walk around the block
Until my self esteem begins to sink
Talking back and forth to my imaginary friend
Till I lose consciousness, thinking my life is at its end
I awake hoping something has changed
Immediately, I realize that my life is still the same
Sitting on the corner, homeless_
Till it’s my time to visit the cemetery
I’m all alone with nothing but me and my memories

Stranded

by

Eddie Tacub

I’m sitting in my room
Thinking about my struggles and pain
I’m asking myself
Will I survive? Can I maintain?
Walking cautious, nerves itching
In the back of my thoughts
I can hear my life ticking
Across the ocean
Here we stand (as prey) in no man’s land
Like a hermit without its shell
I’m here standing in the middle of a 2nd hell
As I lay myself down to sleep
The Heaven’s I seek
Protect me, cover & hold me
Give me the strength that I need
So the devil can no longer take control of me

A Letter From a Broken Heart

by

Eddie Tacub

To the girl that I once loved
I thought you we’re a blessing from up above
When we we’re together everything became stable
Until I realized you was Satan’s Angel
We we’re unstoppable until your anger came in between
I was once happy until you shattered our dreams
A beautiful girl with a hole in her soul
How can you love someone but treat’em so cold?
During our happy times, I had a constant blast
Now I hope your life fades away like the desert grass
Why don’t you do us all a favor and eat glass
If you could feel the love that I once felt
There’s no way in hell you would let my heart melt
I hope never to see you now or in our 2nd life
This is dedicated to the one I once considered
My "future wife!"

The Result of Your Actions

by

Eddie Tacub

Loving you is all I ever wanted
Now you’re dead
And I’m on America’s Most Wanted
How could I kill my wife?
My one true love
A once devoted Christian
Happy to serve the Man above
Expressing our love each and everyday
We we’re set astray since the day I went away
You we’re the only one that I could trust
Until one day you fulfilled your lust
You we’re once "beautiful & clean"
Now you’re dirtier than mud
Due to your unfaithfulness
You’re lying in a pool full of blood
Great was something we could’ve been
Until you committed
A relationship’s GREATEST SIN_

Love...Through Someone's Eyes

by

Eddie Tacub

I can see the love through your eyes
Dedicating your heart
To someone special in your life
The love you have has no boundary
Whether together or in separate countries
Together, you’re both a blessing in disguise
The level of love that you share
Can’t be seen with Cupid’s eyes
A beautiful love filled with sad emotions
A lonely tear could fill an empty ocean
You’re tired of having him out of your site
You’re ready for you and your love
Ready to reunite_

Questions for the Most High

by

Eddie Tacub

What is God's purpose for me?
Is it to damage my soul?
Or is it to set my spirit free?
God is the Master of love
Yet why do I feel lower than dirt
Why does God stay in Heaven?
Why couldn't he remain visible on earth?
Why do I have to suffer?
Why do my enemies curse me?
Why do the ones I truly love hurt me?
Why did God let the devil manipulate Eve?
Why not make everyone in this world believe?
Why can't money really grow on trees?
When we all know money is made from trees
We sin because of one person who didn’t obey
So why do we get punished from something
That happened back in the day?
Why can't everyone live in a mansion?
Who decides that one be poor and live one the streets?
Why can’t everyone have clothes on their back
and shoes on their feet?
Where is Jesus when I call upon his name?
Does he hear me?
Or is He just a picture in a frame?
With the way I live my life, am I worthy?
Will I receive the Key to get through the "pearly gates?"
Or will I get turned down and sent to the "man of hate?"
Who made the devil? He's not one of ours
Who decided to give him a little power?
Who wrote the Bible, was it really your disciples?
Why does sin run in a repeated cycle?
Where we’re you when I was in the three car wrecks?
Will I really burn in hell, if my sins I don’t confess?
Did my brother play a part in my friend being robbed?
If you heal people, why not do your job?
For all those soldiers who died by bombs and bullets
Why couldn’t you save their life?
Instead, you took it!
Why do have people with evil thoughts?
Why couldn’t you stop every battle that was fought?
No one ever saw you but yet they still call your name
It’s been 5 long years & my niece still got cancer running through her veins
It’s a shame that she has to lose all of her hair
A beautiful innocent girl, do you even care?
Why do we have to ask all these questions?
Why can’t we be born with all the answers?
What is the meaning of giving humans AIDS, HIV, and cancer?
Many questions, no answers!
I guess I'll just sit and wait
While I'll let the devil try to lure me some bait...

Since The Day We Met

by

Eddie Tacub

Oh girl, you're better than good!
You treat me better than all the other girls could
I enjoyed every part of our conversations
And I'm thankful for God's greatest creation
I love your attitude and dedication and all your ways
I just hope that you're here to stay
I fell for you from the club to the parking lot
Just to let you know...I like you...alot...
You can't be "her" because you are you
Just because I hardly say it
Don't mean that I don't miss and love you too
You say you love my style and I make you wild
I feel the same even if we're separated by miles
I can still show you love
No matter if I'm far across the ocean
My sex potion got your @$$ rocking in every motion
Back in the day I was an asshole which I still can be
But I'll be a gentleman when it's you and me
I once lost my self in the desert sand
But since we met, I found myself and took a stand
And decided to be the man that I am
That night when we had our talk
The night was dark as we kissed I felt a spark
Our conversation turned into stimulation
So hot, so heavy, I was ready for elevation
Goin' in & out! I know you like that!
When I taste you and make you climax
Got you staring at the ceiling
Got my head in between
Waiting for you to get on top of me
If this was a race, I knew I was winning
Damn girl, you got my head spinning
So good, so great, I don't want this to end
You back I wanna bend
Me on top hitting from side to side
Our sweat pounding as our bodies collide
I love hearing you saying my name
Oh $hit, oh no, it's time. Awwwwwww... I came...
Since I left your side
I knew what I felt for you was more than true
So let me tell you how I see me and you
Whew!!! Let me see how I can say this
You made the butterflies in me disappear when we kissed
Having to hold you in my arms, that I miss
Although it's hard that we're far apart
I wanna give you everything I have in my heart
To find and have someone like you
Was all I ever wanted in a girl
Now that I found her I'm ready to give her the world
Maybe one day have a son or a baby girl
Where this is going, that we'll never know
Just remember that I love you from head to toe
You say together or whatever's, I say---together forever
But they say nothing last forever
It's true unless you're willing,
Do stand side to side together
Then that will show if you're meant to be...
If we promise to love each other
Only then you will see that in the end
It will be you and me
Hmm....

2 My Lovely Niece Tiana (See You In Heaven)

by

Eddie Tacub

To my lovely niece
God's special masterpiece

A beautiful girl
That could light up the world

Sparkles reflect upon your face
It hurts to see you gone
But now I know you're in a much better place

Your heart was big, your strength was like a lions roar
Your spirit is in the heaven's skies where eagles soar
Now you're in a place where you don't have to struggle no more

I'm thankful for the memories
Thankful for the last few days that we got to hang out and play
I will cherish every moment we had the rest of my days

September first was not the day that you died
But the day you were set free
It's the day to celebrate your life

Today won't be the day you were sent to your grave
But it is the time to remember the amazing fight that you gave

The many lives that you touched
We're gathered here because we loved you so much

As I close my eyes I see you sitting next to God
The one who is willing and able
Because you're there with Him
That should make you "Heaven's Angel!"

My Reaction To Reality

by

Eddie Tacub

My heart and face dropped
When I heard that my niece passed away
My brains and veins were ready to pop
My love towards God was set astray
I tried to believe he was the God of love
Until people in my family got cancer & died
You said ask and you should receive
I asked for them to live
But still my prayers got denied
I’m going crazy, wish all of these emotions
I’m tired of crying rivers and oceans
I’m passed "hurt," I can no longer cry
I feel like two cars when they collide
I’m tongue tied
Don’t know what to say or how to feel
I wish this was all a dream
None of this was real
Cause now I have a heart of steel
Hardened from disappointment
Why can’t doctors find a cancer ointment?
All of this is making me doubt
I’m trying to figure out what our lives are all about
Do we have to go through hell on earth to go heaven?
Does God keeps his eyes and arms open 24/7?
Am I wrong for all these questions and expressions?
Just wish I could sit down with God
Have a one on one session
To get answers and relieve these aggressions
Maybe then I could move on with peace in my heart
But until then my heart is torn apart
Lost without any answers
My life filled with a little strife
Burning flames
No longer walking the same
One more time, I’m calling your name
I need your help cause I can’t help myself
I’m tired of feeling hopeless & trapped
Like a prisoner in his cell

A Woman's Worst Nightmare..."Abuse"

by

Eddie Tacub

My sympathy goes out to you
I was deeply saddened
After hearing what you went through

My eyes cried tears
As I felt my heart melt
No respect for a man
Who put a woman through hell
Why force a woman to hide in her shell

A big deep hole in my soul
How can you treat a woman so cold?

I get heated when a man acts so shady
Or when a man who puts his hands on a lady
Don't they know women are priceless?
Precious as little babies?

Trapped, stuck in a shuddered place
Concerned, stuck with a man full of hate
It’s a terrible waste
When a man, a coward!
Put his hands on a woman's face
He's full of disgrace

He's filled with the exact opposite of love
Fell off track with the Man from up above

Hatred in his heart
Demonic ways in his mind
He thinks the way he treats his woman is fine
Not really knowing
He's making the love in the relationship decline
No longer spiritually combined

She has the desire to leave!
But making it out alive, she's in disbelief

She was your closest friend
Maybe your soul mate or your wife
You could me a man of love
Instead you're a man filled with strife
How can a woman be denied of living a happy life?

Treat her with love & respect
Like a princess or a queen
Instead you're evil, violent and mean
Giving orders like she's a machine

So many women are torn apart
Shattered, from a man with a damaged heart

Causing endless pain
Furious storms, with tears as rain
Strain, thoughts of running away
But she knows if he finds out
He'll act totally insane
A man with a head but no brain

A man full of abuse is a woman's void
She wants a genuine conversation
Without the raising of the voice
A hole in her busted soul, without a choice

Thinking his ways is "right"
But she disagrees, wishes to go "left"
Tired of getting hit or hearing threats
How can a man treat a woman like shit?

Now she's a woman with a busted spirit
She feels there's no possible way to mend
Looking at a her life with no end
So much anguish, she can no longer pretend

At first, she realized
He treated her as a 1st Place prize
But now she's put last
Full of cries and lies
She walks in public with a disguise
As time painfully goes by

She's trying to see how this relationship came about
Stressing, looking for a way out
Run far, flee, unable to be found
Anywhere but here
Away from these annoying sounds

She’s hurting, no longer in perfect health
She tries to reach out, but there's no one to help

She’s ready, ready to be set free
She shouts silently, somebody, please rescue me!

I’m living A Woman's Worst Nightmare
I'm with a man that don't care

A man who left my eyes with a bruise
I refuse to lose
I choose to longer take this "Abuse_"

*I dedicate this poem to Kassy, a new friend of mine*