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Thank You

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

You don't think I know that?
You don't think I wake up in the morning and think about that?
My whole life I've lived suppressed by everyone else
It's not as if I get by alright either
It still hurts
It still brings silent tears
Nobody can hear me; they don't want to
They don't want to involve themselves in my condition
Don't feel angered by my situation; don't waste your time
Don't sympathise with my condition; it only digs a deeper grave
I don't need to be reminded
I don't need to be excused
Don't relate to my exception; you'll probably undermine me
But maybe I should thank you
For acknowledging my presence_

You don't think I hate that?
You don't think I live the day without feeling like that?
My entire life I've lived alone from everyone else
It's not as if I don't get lonely either
It still stings
It still brings muffled cries
Nobody can see me; they don't want to
They don't want to watch as I die from neglect
Don't feel pressured by me persistence; I just need a shoulder
Don't parallel yourself with my circumstance; it only serves to hurt me
I don't need to be rejected
I don't need to be exempt
Don't promise yourself to save me; such promises get broken
But maybe I should thank you
For accepting my existence_


One Eye Open

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

One opened eye, soul trapped within
With past demise and tortured sin
And deep inside the iris blue
Show your goodbye as ice cracks through

Beneath the film of opaque skin
The blackened blood of hate begins
To seep into the pristine heart
Like an assassins poisoned dart

Growing hatred from clenching fists
And night time journeys of nightmare fits
Fill the empty void with something new
Who gives a damn if it's not true?

Like fakers who fake and liars' lies
They fail to hear the sufferers' cries
The blade digs deep into their flesh
And tears the life-forces' woven mesh

But with one eye open, soul trapped within
The past denied where truth begins
It becomes as fair to steal a breath
As to rebuke a single death


Motivation

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

As I sit here in my long exams
I stare out the window dreaming
Of some past vision that I demand
With my conscience still a-streaming
And I have no force; no driving will
For my life is in sedation
So please just understand that I
Am without motivation

And like a fallen tree I lie
With people standing; striding
Across the bark and in my eye
I find it not enticing
And I have no fate nor destiny
This needs no deliberation
For it's fine for me until you see
I am without motivation

A little scribble here and scribble there
I find no time to savour
So I sit and wait for time to end
I'm feeling kinda sour
Coz I have no life or mission to save
Myself or the worlds nations
It's been like this for one thousand years
I'm without motivation

I seem as though I have my stuff
All organised and worked-out
But really I'm a tangled mess
Of ink, paint and white-out
And so when I die; my eulogy read
I'll sleep peacefully and stationed
On the church's altar where my loved ones said
I had no motivation


Solitary Figure

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

A solitary figure wakes amongst the flowers dawn
And opens blackened eyelids to the golden summer morn
But beneath the skin so delicate lies the blood of intense grief
For this figure is a liar, a con, a poor and cheating thief

So many of them stolen, so many of them sold
To the devils and the demons in the frosty winter cold
And just as many taken, the other ones all have seen
The glint of knife, the stifled cry and the sticky crimson sheen

Now this blackened figure breathes with lungs encased with fire
And nails so think release so quick onto soft skin they scour
Clawing; clawing deeper now to free from hard dis-ease
Begging fantastical gods and spirits to "save my soul, please!"

The daises and roses begin to open now
Their faces turned to the figure burnt, almost at death now
Yet still moving is this figure, rustling among the grasses tall
But too weak are arms to initiate the simplest grovelling crawl

So now a solitary figure chokes amongst the flowers dawn
And wide-eyed gasps induce the past in the summer morn
And onto the breaking skin blood drips like water thick with mud
The figure is slowly dissected to serve as Lucifer's dainty cud


Understanding Differences

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

You must think this is uniquely special
Or some sort of fantastical theatrical composition
Used for show?
Why do you value the experience
Of the initiating of high superfluous credentials
When there's none?

But you, you're different
You can't join in
No, you're not the same and
You don't know what you're doing
Do you understand?
Or must I accentuate my meaning?

This doesn't make me feel any better
The way you flow in like you own the space - we both you know you don't
It's okay
You must think this is awe-inspiring hey?
You must think the majestic proliferation is somewhat tall
Well it's not

But you, you're different
You can't join in
No, you're not the same and
You don't know what you're doing
Do you understand?
Or must I accentuate my meaning?

Please stop what you're doing and think it through
Are you sure you'll be able to handle this sort of commitment
I think not
It's hard to believe you can become us
When the differences are greater than the void of man's spirituality
Don't try again

But you, you're different
You can't join in
No, you're not the same and
You don't know what you're doing
Do you understand?
Or must I accentuate my meaning?

Be careful, you'll get hurt
You can't make it
No, I can't allow that
You don't know what it's about
Will you recognize?
Or comprehend the mass complexity?

You can't join in_


Send Me A Letter

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Send me a letter with your name
And your sweet words; your heart
Make every word say the same
I love you, I love you, I love you
Send me a rose with your kiss
And the redness your blood; your heart
Make every scent pure bliss
Say you want me; you need me
Send me a letter with your name
And your sweet words; your heart
Send it post-haste with your name
So I may put my knife through it
Send me a rose with your kiss
And the redness your blood; your heart
Make every scent smell like this
So I may pull the blade from my soul


The World's Front

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

There is nothing in this world but a twisting sea of turmoil
Fuelled by our anger and pain
And taught fervently by our unparalleled power of sophisticated hatred
It not only grows, but multiplies like a plague of rats wreaking havoc upon society
Boring
Digging
Tunnelling into our conscience and heaping piles of petrified shrapnel under our skins
It's like a needle in the heart
A flame
Burning in someone's emotions
Breaking the very fabric of sanity we all once knew_


Peaceful Death

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

She stands on the edge of the cliff
The wind blowing her long golden hair
She shades her eyes with her hand
And into the far distance she stares

Then like a stone she falls forwards
Arms outstretched as she embraces the wind
She closes her eyes and whispers softly
Unaware of her committed sin

But as she drops time stands still
And the veil that covers her billows
Around her underlying naked form
For the rocks that she lands are pillows

She lands with the grace of a feline
Touch down without a sound
And as she rises again into the air
She sees her body lying strewn on the ground


Live To Mourn

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Every time I see you
I melt in the shadows and hide
My love for you is eminent
So strong that one could cry
I live in seclusion waiting
For you to notice my face
Until that day should follow
I'll forever hold my place
For you in my heart and yours
In mine and never fail
For I only love you my sweetheart
If only you'd follow the trail
I left for you with pieces
Of my broken heart
Bit by bit I'm breaking
The strain of us apart
Too long I have loved and lusted
To feel your physical form
But it's not that at most; I need you
But instead I live to mourn

{Dedicated to A.G. ~ I'll love you forever}


I Have

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I have loved but never been loved
I have seen but never saw
I have spoken but never been heard
I have pain but never tears
I have laughed but never been happy
I have walked but never ran
I have listened but never have heard
I have touched but never felt
I have fallen but never been caught
I have saved but never thanked
I have loved but never been loved
I have lived but never truly lived_


As We Live We Die

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

So let the mirrors break
Exhausted of the sane
Hold your sceptres high
In the pouring rain
In tunnels take a ride
The vibes our spirits make
The fabric of time
Are creased for our own sake

As we live we die
When we die we live on
Our bodies lay waste
And our spirits move on

How is thee to cry
In the folds of angels' clothes
Our ripples and reflections
Imbibe our shadows
Maypole ribbons are severed
With red and rusted shears
Why is the world we live in
Flattened by our fears?

As we live we die
When we die we live on
Our bodies lay waste
And our spirits move on

A shattered glass is a shattered dream
With misted parts
And broken seams
Our senses dulled
With evil fill
Our empty minds
And in thy kill

As we live we die
When we die we live on
Our bodies lay waste
And our spirits move on


Me

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Wilting flowers mark the death
Of the non-conformist tyrant
And through the silt the pebbles sink
The loudest noise is silent

Breaking bars of screaming metal
Jingle keys in locks
The spirits want to break free and live
Turn back the ticking clocks

My representation fades like silk
And slithers into darkness
My tongue is dry and I've cracked lips
My body in dangerous starkness

The paper burns as pens scratch on
With words of fear and redemption
Once in screaming fits and yelling strife
Their trap was misconception


Alone

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Alone there is nothing that blinds me from
Watching the world fall down around me
I sit in solitude wondering when
The day comes in which I will be free

Personality is a curse on my persona
And my character fails its characteristics
Nothing can be further from the truth
When all that is left is a husk

Failure hardens our learning
But failure can satisfy my soul
I thrive on the mistakes of my life
And live off the prejudice of others

Find me something that hurts my existence
I hunger for nothing more than that
Coz then I know where I stand in this world
Now I have an excuse to be exempt


The Kem and the Deshert

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Melted blue like painted ice
Iris true with mid east spice
Arab dreams and desert sands
Golden statues; grasping hands

Dry eyed tears for Ibis blood
Blackened kohl with stars above
Flowing linen; strapping flail
Herding sceptreís never fail

Rising stones like childrenís bricks
Shadow palmed pink/red sunsets
Polished bronze, electrum wire
Piercing high obelisks and spires

Bowing people; bemused smile
Hippo bulrushes all the while
Praising songs and mantraís too
Sweeping river - sapphire blue

Melted blue like painted ice
Iris true with mid east spice
Arab dreams and desert storms
Withered gold; timeless mourn


The Fly Screen

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I float out through the fly screen
As I watch the heads look at me
And when the sun sets, the air turns cold
And I float
I let the air carry me
To the oceans made of some paper
And deep within it lies my soul

I float out through the fly screen
As the moon seems to laugh at me
And when the stars twinkle, my eyes sting
And I float
I let the sound carry me
To the reverberated glass shards
And deep below it lies my character

I float out through the fly screen
As the voices in my head die down
And when I'm far enough, they stop talking
And I float
To the rocks that pierce the wood
And deep inside it lies my sympathy

I float out through the fly screen
As the music beckons me to follow
And sometimes it's so loud I stop my ears
And I float
To the steel that supports the light
And high atop sits me


Armageddon

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

The moon falls to the earth with a thunderous crash
And the stars spin into oblivion with a last cry of glory
The mighty sun and its one thousand rays
Extinguish in a second by the breath of the Gods
As the trees wither and die, the oceans freeze and collapse
Mountains crumble and valleys lift and the thin air turns foul
All that once lived now lay strewn on cold rock
Lifeless, dead, absolutely lamented and still born
For it all was never there; there was nothing but
A simple projection on a screen that was the Universe
And an audience that fell asleep long ago
So now it's time to awake, stretch and yawn
Rebirth
To pack all the texts and sling all the bags
The Universe was a screen
The students were the dreamers and players
The God was
A lecturer

_Hence the name University_


Can't You

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Let the trouble hearted weep
Let the poison ivy creep
Fear and hatred till the end
No more broken hearts will mend
In my mind there is a place
Cold and deep
Yes
Can't you feel it?
Can't you?
Can't you feel what I feel?
Let the pain and anguish rise
Rape the world of truth with lies
Fill the chalice with crimson blood
Let the heavens fall from above
In my soul there is a space
Big and black
Yes
Can't you see it?
Can't you?
Can't you see what I see?
Twist the shining silver knife
Alone and lost we live our lives
All the roses wilt and die
Wipe the tear the forms your eye
In my body there is a break
Cracked and fused
Yes
Can't you hear it?
Can't you?
Can't you hear what I hear?


Hold Me, Save Me, Heal Me

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Heaven hold me as I falter
While my skin turns blue with grief
Coz I need you where
My raven soul resides

In the twilight I am sinking
I am sinking into chains of fear
And I'm breaking in this twilight
For I can't stay long
I can no longer breathe

Goddess save me as I stumble
While my eyes turn black with fear
Coz I want you where
My ghostly shadow lies

In the twilight I am sinking
I am sinking into chains of fear
And I'm breaking in this twilight
For I can't stay long
I can no longer breathe

Angels heal me as I whimper
While my hair turns green with loss
Coz I'll have you where
My sacred veils fly

In the twilight I am sinking
I am sinking into chains of fear
And I'm breaking in this twilight
For I can't stay long
I can no longer breathe


All This and I Think of You

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

The cradle rocks gently
As waves lap the shore
The stars they shine so brightly
And I swallow the flowers

Peace in my mind
My skin is silver-blue
The wide-open sky
And I think of you

Lives have been taken
And sand blows away
The cupboards fall over
And I swallow the flowers

Nails on my bed
The fires burn true
The trees they grow old
And I think of you

Paper boats tear
The clocks stop dead
Moonbeams glisten ghostly
And I swallow the flowers

Ink in my blood
The pain is like glue
Like webs of deceit
And I think of you


I Can't; I Won't

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I can't
And I won't
No, I've seen this all before
And I'll run
And I'll hide
Just to get away from here

Coz this is your place, your side
And I love you so much I'd die
But this is something
I can't
And I won't
No, I've sensed this all before
And I'll run
And I'll hide
Just to get away from here

It is your choice, your life
And if you just say goodbye
Then this is something
I can't
And I won't
No, I've seen this all before
And I'll run
And I'll hide
Just to get away from here
Just to run away and leave
To run and leave this behind
I can't decide...


Never

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Never say you love me
Never say you do
Never speak to me unless
You find your words are true

Never touch my mourning face
Never lean my way
Never try to kiss my lips
Next week, tomorrow, today

And never try to stay behind
With me when everyone has gone
Never stay up all the night
Thinking of me till dawn

I'm only passing by
I'm only passing through
I'm only stopping for a bit
And not to stop for you
I never looked for love
I never expected it see?
I never wanted to hear you say
"I love you. Stay with me"

Never try to steal me
Never force my mind
Never wipe the single tear
The trickles from my eye

Never hold me closer
Never tempt me with treats
Never make me promises
That we know you'll keep

And never try to carry me
On your back when I fall
Never try to heal me
With energy from your soul

I'm only passing by
I'm only passing through
I'm only stopping for a bit
And not to stop for you
I never looked for love
I never expected it see?
I never wanted to hear you say
"I love you. Stay with me"


Seaside Row

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

By the cobbled way at the seaside row
Where the ivy climbs in the salt wind-blow
And the midnight moon with the stars ascend
As the waves crash down on the sand depend

Lives the souls of the drowned and the tortured sea
The tumult of the waves and the grotto key
Deep - the ocean - dark and cold as ice
Drifting skeletal forms and the chance of dice

Oh many my knee grazed by seaside salt
Like the inner shell filled with pearly guilt
Rocking gently for all eternity's sake
Fall asleep by the row of the seaside snake

As the waves crash down on the sand unspent
May the tortured souls with their loss repent
For there's never time - wrapped in silken bow
For the lives of the salt
Snakes
And the seaside row


Within You

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Arousing shrouds of solemness
Into the breath of feeble aphrodisiacs
Open my eyes; let me witness you
Your beauty; you're love affection

Kissing your pure soul of light
The coldness of lonely swallows me
As I wade in your misconception
Your truncated version of reality

Whispering unheard words of dreams
Fantasies drawn from a lost freedom
From you; time of consciousness
A moment with you - eternity

Touching that soft face I do so adore
Why won't you welcome me? Open your heart?
Close your eyes; dream the stars
The universe in which I reside - within you


Leafiss

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

A single golden leafiss in the breathing autumn breeze
Falling down onto the earth; set me free like oh so please
In the distant twilight sinking past the auburn tinted sky
Send the joys of soulless splendour in a haunting freedom cry
By the spoils of heartless rancour find the leafiss slip to sea
In the warmth and loving comfort oh by God just set me free
I don't want you; I don't need you - I don't want your kind embrace
I don't need the twilight shining - I don't need my leafiss faith!

NB - there is no such word as a Leafiss (a brown, dead and crumbling leaf), it is made up to poke fun at a persons faith/belief, particularly mine, under the pressure of another domineering one and the turmoil that results


Ressurect The Senses

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I want to find you again; my dear
And hold you
Closer than the skin between us
Closer than the love that binds our souls
I want to seek out that tenderness again
And taste the emotions through your eyes
Those sparkling blue eyes

Yes I could have chosen another
Yes I could have overlooked you
Yes I could have walked on by but -
Yes I still - I still love you

Let me resurrect the senses
Let me experience you again
I am sorry I had left you
But are you sorry that I came?
Let me pursue that fresh flesh feeling
That warm inside-ness around you, behold!
Let me make a moment eternity again
Let me embrace your pure soul

I want to touch you again; my love
And steal you
Farther than the world around us
Farther than the eternal sea of revulsion
I want to chase out that compassion again
And sip the sweetness from your heart
That warm tender heart

Yes I could have chosen another
Yes I could have overlooked you
Yes I could have walked on by but
Yes I still - I still love you

Let me resurrect the senses
Let me experience you again
I am sorry I had left you
But are you sorry that I came?
Let me pursue that fresh flesh feeling
That warm inside-ness around you, behold!
Let me make a moment eternity again
Let me embrace your pure soul

Yes I could have desired my freedom
Yes I could have ignored my luck
Yes I could have tread on thicker ice
Yes I...
...I still love you, but

Let me resurrect the senses
Let me experience you again
I am sorry I had left you
But are you sorry that I came?
Let me pursue that fresh flesh feeling
That warm inside-ness around you, behold!
Let me make a moment eternity again
Let me embrace your pure soul

Dedicated to AG ~ I thought I had gotten over you by now... I was wrong


Forming Reveries

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Abandoning that subtle, sombre grapple of your secrets
And the fallen captive saviour; once was one and once was all
Exam'ning your endearing form of astral self-projection
That you give to me in times of darkness in cathedral hall
And you're so wonderful
With your marvel seeping in
Taking hold of me; taking time
Reach out and touch me once again

Forming reveries
Forming a new time scope
Where will the light reside
Where will there be hope
Can I trust our reunion
As I trusted the past we shared
Is there light at the end of the tunnel
Is there a burden that you bear

Forming castles in the spray of ocean breeze and salted rock
Everlasting is the sand on which my beating heart once rocked
I would yield the blades of joy for you to fight the coming storm
But I can't; give me your endearing astral self-projecting form
And you're so breathtaking
With your miracle seeping in
Taking hold of me; taking time
Lean out and embrace me once again

Through my relentless dreaming
Let me bear your karmic lumber
Let me pay the debt you held
Can we experience this again

Forming reveries
Forming a new time scope
Where will the light reside
Where will there be hope
Can I trust our reunion
As I trusted the past we shared
Is there light at the end of the tunnel
Is there a burden that you bear

Coalescing colours of our souls and of our dreams
Patching fabrics of reality with me and you and you and me
Forming reveries of past and whim in parallel time scopes
How much do I love you? How much equalled is my hope?
And you're so remarkable
With your phenomenon seeping in
Taking hold of me; taking time
Soar away from there and kiss me once again

Forming reveries
Forming a new time scope
Where will the light reside
Where will there be hope
Can I trust our reunion
As I trusted the past we shared
Is there light at the end of the tunnel
Is there a burden that you bear


Four Letters

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

How can I shake free from the shell
That encases me. Deep inside throes of
Violence that is born of four letters of emotion.

Is there a way I can become
Indesperate for the taste of that word?
Or must I endure. Must I endure this?

Like a tongue that licks from a flame,
It tingles my soul with its touch and cold
Breath. Like a withering flower I fall from grace

Who was; why was it, that it is?
And why was it me; why was it; how come?
I have to lose for I can't win - this game is done!

This four letter word game is done.
There is nothing to win from this than that
Four letter word which is the prize we all seek,

That we all need; we have to have.
How can I put this far down below me,
That violent apprehension; that jelly feeling.

Waiting for the day the clouds break
To let that solitude shine inside me,
That comfort of success and personal freedom.

But shackled to the breath of those
Four letters that I flee from, I can't seem
To spell my way out; I can't escape this prison.

Wrapped beneath the crimson weight of
Serenity and peace, I find no time,
I find no space to breathe for I'm suffocating

From those four letters to whom I
Trust; to whom I send and feel this. Let there
Be light; I seek salvation from that word; that LOVE...

Dedicated to S. McShannon


Moulded

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

See me walk in the opposite direction;
They are raindrops in my eyes
The mists are the words I degenerate
That is speech within my cry
Watch me look in another direction
i.e. away from the sight of you
I know I am greatly different
Why didn't He make me like you?

I want to be moulded
In the image of God
Like you
I want to be perfect
In the scenes of Eden
Like you
I want to be a reflection
Of the Higher
The Holy
The Faith
I want to be like you
The superior race

Tell me to go your way or no way
Force me to my demise
Point me towards the direction of conformity
Fill me up with all your lies
Take away the individual
Replace with a robot with no belief
Sink my only self-esteem
Reflect the high to down beneath

I want to be moulded
In the image of God
Like you
I want to be perfect
In the scenes of Eden
Like you
I want to be a reflection
Of the Higher
The Holy
The Faith
I want to be like you
The superior race

And when you are finished dancing
Send me on my way
Teach me the song of restriction
So I may sing it one day
To the souls who were like me once
To the souls that live a life
They all want to be like me like you
With their arteries cut with a knife

I want to be moulded
Oh I want to be moulded
God?

I want to be moulded
In the image of God
Like you
I want to be perfect
In the scenes of Eden
Like you
I want to be a reflection
Of the Higher
The Holy
The Faith
I want to be like you
The superior race


Access Denied

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Walk up through the palisade mountain
Restructure the clear blue sky
Beseech universal existence
And find you have access denied

Gather yourself in your conscience
Modify your feelings and thoughts
Beg for forgiveness coz you're different
Access denied is your fault

Open up; pick it up
Can you hear the tone?
Can you changed the outcome?
Can you find your home?
Close it up; put it down
Regret the living lie
Regret the forsaken breath your breathe
For you have access denied

Line them all up on the barren walls
Have faith in the repetitive class
Use tape and glue, fill the holes with clay
Denied access through future and past

You try to connect to the outcome you want
You try to feel your way through it all
But all you receive is that busy tone
That code error; stack dump; general failure
That discriminate out of focus picture; interference
That signal that tells you -no-

Cut and paste; colour by "preference"
Crossover lines in the faults
Sing a lament to the scores of the different
Access denied with insults

Open up; pick it up
Can you hear the tone?
Can you changed the outcome?
Can you find your home?
Close it up; put it down
Regret the living lie
Regret the forsaken breath your breathe
For you have access denied

From a game of literary tag - subject/tag phrase: "Access Denied"


Number 22

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I will go to stride
To pursue it; no more am I chained
In the dungeons of mistrust
Compacting my fears
Number 22

I will bend my will
To overcome it; can I be free?
Is there a heaven in me?
A seat of faith here?
Number 22

I will shred your life
To besiege you; are you after me?
For the life that is golden
A fake and a lie
Number 22

I will kill your trust
For my personal pleasure, you see
Can you understand me now?
You fruitful bastard
Number 22!

Don't we all live in a catch 22 situation?


Blue Eyed Master

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Darkness swallow me
To the valley of the vampires
With your cold, cold breath
Rid me of the sense of longing
For the true heart I own -
Not mine; forever lost in gasps
I wonder
When
Blue eyed master

Make your forces over-
Come me; dismember my bastard
Soul. Again, lock me
I love to hate love here
I'm happy
When
Blue eyed master

Is there a shackle
In the dungeons of lost freedom?
Is there a liar
In the folds of my breaking heart?
Is my breaking heart lies -
All the same in lost bright turmoil
I'm longing
When
Blue eyed master

Walking in darkness
Daylight vampires of deceit and
Love; sweet mixed cocktails
Rid me of the sense of longing
For the heart I own -
Not mine; forever away - here?
I'm hating
When
Blue eyed master

Dedicated to S. McShannon


Sophistication

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker


With your cigarettes
Champagne, black suits and silver dinnerware, seats
Of velvet - best
Intelligence
With your suaveness
Your grip on billionaress and your sunset
Hawaiiness

You come off as superior
But you're equal through and through
How dare you
Triumph over me!
Don't you know who I am?

Magnificence
With your vision
Of a clean and competing world of franchise; stocks
Wall street press
Politeness
With your competence
Of a high end world; a sky rise with a
Penthouse nest

You come off as superior
But you're equal through and through
How dare you
Triumph over me!
Don't you know who I am?

Throw around you cash
It burns the best
But there is something better that burns -
You know who...

Classiness
With your leather vest
Imported swimming pool water and
Ivory chess
Sophistication avec vos cigarettes Champagne, costumes noirs et dinnerware argentť, siŤges de velours - mieux

You come off as superior
But you're equal through and through
How dare you
Triumph over me!
Don't you know who I am?


How Insightful

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker


You always fill me with the most
Enlightening
Facts about life, existence and the universe
And you seem to always know what it's all
About
Just shut up

How uplifting
You always talk about things being
Divine
What is there that you don't feel
Enthralled about? Nothing, of course
Forgive me
Just shut up

I don't want you
I don't need your voice filling my head
Don't you see that I don't care?
Don't you know that it's all shit
From your mouth? (just shut up)
I don't want you
I don't need your tone vibrating me
Can't you just get out of my face?
Can't you just get lost?
Shut up
Just shut up

How complete
You always like to make sure your words sound
Benevolent
I know how you feel; it's so familiar
Except I'm not missing the same thing as
You
Just shut up

I don't want you
I don't need your voice filling my head
Don't you see that I don't care?
Don't you know that it's all shit
From your mouth? (just shut up)
I don't want you
I don't need your tone vibrating me
Can't you just get out of my face?
Can't you just get lost?
Shut up
Just shut up

How unique
You are forever selling me stories of
Miracles
And other magnificent products of your experience
Has it ever occurred to you I have a problem
With that?
Just shut up

I don't want you
I don't need your voice filling my head
Don't you see that I don't care?
Don't you know that it's all shit
From your mouth? (just shut up)
I don't want you
I don't need your tone vibrating me
Can't you just get out of my face?
Can't you just get lost?
Shut up
Just shut up

~This is a response to all the things that people try to tell me about something. Most of the time, it's not relevant or I already know it - it's a response to how some people are like me in that they seem to draw this sort of thing to themselves; do i really look that imperceptive...?


Once Upon A Time

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

How much have I opened up
And realised the perpetual emptiness
Though I knew my feelings well
I must have read between the lines
Maybe I needed some resistance
From the forces of being alone
But I suppose it was a waste of time
And now I'm repaying the debt...

And I miss you
So much that I have to realise
I never had you
And it's funny
Coz I could swear that I did love you
Once upon a time

You were a healthy burden
Yes, there was an arrow in my heart
It forced me to surrender my defences
But somehow I still remember
Was it foolish for me to admit it?
Did you think it was all a lie?
I am sure that one day I can look back
And make sure not to do it again

And I miss you
So much that I have to realise
I never had you
And it's funny
Coz I swear that I did love you
Once upon a time

It was a totalitarian situation
A Blue Eyed Master you were to me
Getting through to you was impossible
So I didn't try; didn't waste my time
It was as if you were a God
And I, a mere mortal
I wanted to live forever - like you
What wishful thinking that was

And I miss you
So much that I have to realise
I never had you
And it's funny
Coz I could swear that I did love you
Once upon a time

Come back to me; you never went away
Let me hold you again; for the first time
It's so hard to believe; it's so obvious
That I love you - I miss you; I never had you

And I miss you
So much that I have to realise
I never had you
And it's funny
Coz I could swear that I did love you
Once upon a time

How much have I opened up
And realised the perpetual emptiness
Though I knew my feelings well
I must have read...


In A Spiral

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

She awakes in a strange place
Trip on her dreams. With after images of
A strange face - looking at me
Can't you find your way home?
Can't you find the road home?

Down she goes
Round and round
In a spiral
Without a sound

Down she goes
Round and round
In a spiral...

Tears and rain are a familiar mix
Cocktails of deceit. And her lives
Flash by at amazing speed
Why do you feel like sleeping?
Why do you feel like dreaming?

Down she goes
Round and round
In a spiral
Without a sound

Down she goes
Round and round
In a spiral

Looking at me looking at you
Try to ease the pain. I will always be here
Breaking through your chains
Isn't it so ironic?
Isn't it so amazing?

Down she goes
Round and round
In a spiral
Without a sound

Down she goes
Round and round
In a spiral...

Chasing shadows of her past
Bring her to her knees. And her
Life is so empty; a cancerous disease
Please don't weep for yourself
Please don't sacrifice your soul

Down she goes
Round and round
In a spiral
Without a sound

Down she goes
Round and round
In a spiral...

~ Her name is Kordelia; remember that; remember her... ~


Untitled

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

My self-control is shattered
And I'm sinking; falling; turning
I am weeping on the inside
For I'm laughing; full of love

There's no change within my stature
Leave me here; leave me be
My shell is slowly cracking
I am falling from above

Why is IT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND!
DON'T YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE YOU?
How much I despise YOUR NATURE
AND YOUR CONTINUOUS IRRITATION that is emmitted
From your soul. I AM NOT CRAZY - NO - I AM
JUST FINE! Just fine
All I want is for you to leave me alone
Oh how I want you so
How I need your aura
How I LOVE YOU

My reasoning is faulted
And I can't make sense no more
It's so hard to change my mind
I'm questioning it; I'm questioning it now

Lost for words I stumble
In this hell for tortured souls
There's no heaven here; no paradise
Who will show me how to live?

Why is IT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND!
DON'T YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE YOU?
How much I despise YOUR NATURE
AND YOUR CONTINUOUS IRRITATION that is emmitted
From your soul. I AM NOT CRAZY - NO - I AM
JUST FINE! Just fine
All I want is for you to leave me alone
Oh how I want you so
How I need your aura
How I LOVE YOU

My understanding is getting difficult
And I know how much I hate you
I love you; leave me alone; let me fall
Let me wither and die within myself

I am lost for words - how I love you
There is nothing more compelling than that
I have shelled texture for my skin
And reasoning; I am lost again...

Why is IT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND!
DON'T YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE YOU?
How much I despise YOUR NATURE
AND YOUR CONTINUOUS IRRITATION that is emmitted
From your soul. I AM NOT CRAZY - NO - I AM
JUST FINE! Just fine
All I want is for you to leave me alone
Oh how I want you so
How I need your aura
How I LOVE YOU

I hatelove you
I lovehate you
You WON'T YOU leave me be
You are FAR AWAY AND YOU WON'T leave me
My mind swims
WITH YOU in my thoughts...

Why is IT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND!
DON'T YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE YOU?
How much I despise YOUR NATURE
AND YOUR CONTINUOUS IRRITATION that is emmitted
From your soul. I AM NOT CRAZY - NO - I AM
JUST FINE! Just fine
All I want is for you to leave me alone
Oh how I want you so
How I need your aura
How I LOVE YOU

Dedicated yet again to S. McShannon


Flounder

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Hark oh sullen saviour!
Can you not see what you have done to my life?
Your fruitful incandescence
Does nothing to prove your worthiness of my minds attention
Floudering helplessly
Oh sullen saviour
Floundering in the scent of failure

You are not pure; chastised to your desire
You are violated and unclean
You are an excuse for my nonwithstanding evidence
That you are a bastard indeed
Rot in hell and
Flounder
Oh sullen saviour
Flounder and leave me here to fester

Get out!
Leave me be, hark can you hear my screams
And see as I writhe in your grip
Leave me oh sullen saviour; save me no more
For the hell that you deliver me from is more heaven than here
Flounder
Oh sullen saviour
Flounder and be merry in my decadence
Flounder
Oh sullen saviour
Son of refused favour


I Am Like You

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I am like you
I need temporary love
I want to hold you tight
And pray to the above

That you'll love me
Just for a while
That you'll hold me
Only for a while

For I am like you
I need a night not alone
I need your warm touch
And a heart not like stone

...

You know what?
I'm tired - go to sleep


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I Now Realise Why

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Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Ha - I now realise why
When you walk past I cry
It's a matter of elation
It's a concept I must pass by

Ha - I now find more time
To do more things than just cry
Coz crying is a waste of time
And crying is not my life

Ha - it's your turn to cry
For the loss is yours, not mine
It was your choice to commit the crime
Of pushing me to say goodbye

Ha!


Poetry!

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I want to write poetry!
You can't stop my flow of words
My microcosm creation
The reflection that is me

I want to write my poetry!
Don't reliquish my God-given right
I don't care; you cannot stop me
With your tissue paper words

I want to write poetry!
I have my reasons - what are yours?
Why do you try to stop me?
Why can't you find some other pleasure?

I want to write my poetry!
Go away and leave me to scrawl
On my bits and pieces of experience
And my life - get your own!


Different - For Me

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Sitting here gazing at the stars while people mill around me
Try to find a reason for this whole melancholy feeling
But I can't sit still, no I can't find a way to get outta here
And it's not my fault I'm needed here when I want to be there

It's not my party here - for me...

It's funny how you can take solace in the privilege to be on your own
While I am here wondering when you'll make beside me your home
And I wanna be with you on this... funny, strange night
And it's not my party but I must stay here for tonight

And all I see (within this looking glass)
Is a tear in the sky (slipping slowly down)
Oh I can't escape this (it's closing in)
For I only want to be with you...

It's not my party here - for me
It's not my plan to be here - for me
It's not my command I follow - for me
It's only a gift of loneliness - for me

To my dismay I wasn't invited to your celebration of the senses
Of course I know now that you have enough ability to find someone else
I'm standing here flickering like a broken light bulb now
At the thought that you could be f**king someone else I know

And all I see (within this looking glass)
Is a tear in the sky (slipping slowly down)
Oh I can't escape this (it's closing in)
For I only want to be with you...

It's not my party here - for me
It's not my plan to be here - for me
It's not my command I follow - for me
It's only a gift of loneliness - for me

It would have been nice
It would have been gentle - us two together
It would have been perfect
It would have been... but we're different
By God's command we are different
So different...

Sitting here gazing at the stars while people fade from me
Try to find a substitute for this emptiness I call my heart
But I can't move now, no I can't find a way to get outta here
And it's not my fault that I love you...

And all I see (within this looking glass)
Is a tear in the sky (slipping slowly down)
Oh I can't escape this (it's closing in)
For I only want to be with you...

It's not my party here - for me
It's not my plan to be here - for me
It's not my command I follow - for me
It's only a gift of loneliness - for me


Welcome

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Welcome to my
Abstraction
Frequent of its
Separation
Thank you; thank you - dab the wounds
How many times must I bleed?

Pale moon floating river stars on crimson paper cranes
And I'm wishing deep in winter ice for kissing summer rain
Tell me, must I weep for death and find the midnight dream
Reaching for the zenith light and slipping on the sheen

It's not so hard to drown here in amongst the stems and flowers
Sleeping against a shattered visage everyday for half an hour
I find my sparkles scatter in the wind and river streams
I'm closer to the pale moon than it usually seems

Welcome to my
Abstraction
Frequent of its
Separation
Thank you; thank you - dab the wounds
How many times must I bleed?

Now hear me make my feeble grasps reuniting with my breath
My fortune's made of wishing bone's and shelled-silvered-oak-chests
Answer my rasping stutter for the truth is hard to say
I'm hoping that I come to terms with bleeding everyday

So welcome; welcome to my minds own central imagination
You must tell me when I start to cry - and tell me with elation
I want my pale moon floating river stars on crimson paper cranes
And I'm wishing deep in winter ice for kissing summer rain

Tell me, must I weep for death and find the midnight dream
Reaching for the zenith light and slipping on the sheen

Welcome to my
Abstraction
Frequent of its
Separation
Thank you; thank you - dab the wounds
How many times must I bleed?


Sunflowers

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Easy call
To the summer breezes
Only small
Is my heart
Can you see me here
In this field
Can you see me here
In this shield
Of

Sunflowers
Tall and young
Yellow and brown
Facing the sun
Sunflowers
In my dreams
Visions of
You and me
My sunflowers
Shine the way
So we may meet
One day
With sunflowers
In our path
Oh sunflowers
Why do you laugh?

I am lost
In the summer breezes
Add the cost
Of my lost time
I'm breathing here
All alone now
I'm breathing here
All on my own
With

Sunflowers
Tall and young
Yellow and brown
Facing the sun
Sunflowers
In my dreams
Visions of
You and me
My sunflowers
Shine the way
So we may meet
One day
With sunflowers
In our path
Oh sunflowers
Why do you laugh?

Take pity
On this mess
And find how I
Can clean it best
Why come for flowers
When there's none
Why come for flowers
Of the sun
Called

Sunflowers
Tall and young
Yellow and brown
Facing the sun
Sunflowers
In my dreams
Visions of
You and me
My sunflowers
Shine the way
So we may meet
One day
With sunflowers
In our path
Oh sunflowers
Why do you laugh?


Everyone

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Everyone has a gluestick in the midst of their hearts
Loving someone so easily, it's almost never enough
And everyone has a paintbrush residing inside their brain
The images that are to be are never quite the same

Everyone has an eraser, as time goes on in their memory
Purifying that thirty seconds of bliss in half forgotten reverie
And everyone has an ink pen in their humanly human of lips
The ink flows on in conversation, but such loose lips sink ships

And we all have clocks in our conscience, of course, yes - I am sure
It only counts to 6.5 x 1010 before it ticks no more
On our noses there is a flower, and our eyes are lamps indeed
But everyone has potatoes for ears - so much that we don't heed

That everyone has a gluestick in the midst of their hearts
Loving someone so easily, it's almost never enough
And everyone has a paintbrush residing in their brain
The images that are to be are never ever the same


If I Die Tomorrow

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

If I die tomorrow
Promise to love me still
Promise not to let go
And hold me till
The cold goes away
And the tears go dry
I vowed to love you
While I was alive
Now I need your word
And I need your pledge
I won't die alone
On this barren ledge
Don't let me go
Don't live a lie
Please love me still
If tomorrow I die


As I Am

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I have no control over facile trust
And it's not my fault over lies I lust
From a inept past and a fortune damned
Why can't you take me as I am?

I look at you and your blissful days
And wonder why mine's not the same
A contrived pretence and a phoney sham
Why can't you take me as I am?

Spiritual spiral in deep despair
Wasting away in the thinnest air
I am not an object washed up on land
Why can't you take me as I am?

Leave me here and walk away
Just as you've done every other day
I have an inept past and a fortune damned
Why couldn't you take me as I am?


He Never

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

He never tells his fear
Never did and never will
And he never sheds a tear
For he keeps it in until
Heaven falls down and
Hell spills out and
The forager looses his key
He never tells what his heart says
He never weeps for me

He never takes a breath
Never did and never will
And he never follows himself
For his repute stands until
He stumbles down and
Meets the ground and
Fails to rise afree
He never goes against their word
He never will break free

He never opens his eyes
Never did and never will
And he never looks around
For he blinds himself until
The truth is feint and
The lies unfold and
Restriction forms its sea
He never seeks the quick way out
He never comes to me

He'll never say 'I love you'
Never did and never will
And he'll never ever find me
For I'm hidden away until
The stars fall down and
The trumpets sound and
I lose my locking key
He'll never ever know it
He never will love me

Dedicated to S. McShannon


Fade Away

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

A candle flame
Was my love
For you my dear
From above
Flickering
In the breeze
I'm dying now
(Please don't sneeze!)
So pass me on
With a wish
To another of those
Candle sticks
Keep me alive
And keep me sane
So we may alight
Once again
I'll fade away
Just like you said
I'll disappear
So you may tread
Free from my grasp
And from my love
I tried to give
Heaven's above
But you refused my gift
And I must pay
So just let me
Fade away


You Were Never Meant To Know

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

All I can say is: How dare you!
Who do you think you are, you infected soul?
I am tired
I am weary
Go away and leave me alone - like you did before this

There is nothing left of my conscience
It's harder to live with my faults than you
I am different
I am alone
You were never meant to know

About me!
About how I felt
And how I was living under this unconditional experience
You are wrong!
You are a bastard
And I knew that before; you just had to prove it to me...

All I can do is: Sleep restlessly
What is wrong with you - I thought you were fine
I am angry
I am exhausted
I no longer want to be reminded of you

All I can think is: Why is it?
Why have I been punished like this...
...I am infected
I am disillusioned -
You were never meant to know

About me!
About how I felt
And how I was living under this unconditional experience
You are wrong!
You are a bastard
And I knew that before; you just had to prove it to me...

I am not a bundle of sticks!
So you can STICK them where there's no light
I am not afraid of you anymore
HAHA! I'm laughing, coz I realise that
YOU'RE afraid of me
You're AFRAID of me!
You're afraid of ME!
And all -

About me!
About how I felt
And how I was living under this unconditional experience
You are wrong!
You are a bastard
And I knew that before; you just had to prove it to me...

~Yes, S.McShannon - I am OVER YOU! YES!


Charisma Eyes

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Charisma eyes
Puncture my soul
I'm blinded by you
I can't help but die from you - it's you I want to know
Charisma eyes
Forces me damned
But I am closer now
I can't help but shudder soft at every pass of you

Charisma eyes
They are so cold
Tell me why this is so
Can't you divulge your pains and scars so I may heal you
Charisma eyes
You are so lost
I can show you how
I can lead you straight from this hell do you trust me now

Ooh red claws let me go
Ooh red faith let me go
Go now; let me go

Charisma eyes
Fly floating free
I'm chained to your soul
Please understand I love you but we cannot go on
Charisma eyes
I miss you so
I have substitutions
Like chocolate ice cream but I don't think that helps me

Ooh red claws let me go
Ooh red faith let me go
Go now; let me go


On My Wings

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I swear
I'll fly from
Here

Hassle me no longer
Find me my freedom and my freer
I demand that you do for my sake
And jump clear of the fire
Hassle me no longer
Find me my song and my singer
I demand that you do for your sake
And set me free from your desire

I am flying higher to the summer
On my wings
I am flying higher to the sun yeah
On my wings

On my wings my way (so free)
No longer slave to your way

Hassle me no longer
Find me my pipe and my piper
I insist that you do for their sake
And climb free from the tower
Hassle me no longer
Find me my time and my timer
I insist that you do for our sake
And fly free entire

I am flying higher to the summer
On my wings
I am flying higher to the sun yeah
On my wings

On my wings my way (I'm so free)
No longer slave to your way

Tired of your lies and of your indecision
Tired of falsehoods and your chain deceit
Tired of your sickness and air of disease
I'm tired of your hatred and repulsive stormy seas
Tired of

I am flying higher to the summer
On my wings
I am flying higher to the sun yeah
On my wings
I am flying higher to the summer
On my wings
I am flying higher to the sun yeah
On my wings

On my wings my way (I'm so free)
No longer slave to your way
I'm totally carefree
Clear of your power yeah
On my wings my ways
Clear of your forces now
On my wings my way
I'm not here anymore


Strange

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Strange days overwhelm my soul and I must find a way to lessen the pressure of
Strange days overcome my soul and I must sever my ongoing connections with these
Strange days overtake my soul and I must find a way to prevent my self-destruction

Strange thoughts invade my mind and I must find a way to detach them from
Strange thoughts keep offering temporal peace in the most unlikely circumstances
Strange thoughts control my reasoning and I must relinquish their claim on me

Strange things sweep past my window and whisper words of wisdom in my sleep as
Strange things enter my room at night and speak of half-forgotten paradises hidden in
Strange things are happening to me in a spiritual metamorphosis

Strange days overwhelm my soul and I must find a way to lessen the pressure of
Strange thoughts keep offering temporal peace in the most unlikely circumstances
Strange things are happening to me in a spiritual metamorphosis


I Hate You

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I hate you so much that I could die from it.
I hate you
I hate you
The word soon loses its meaning to me - writing words over and over force them to lose control over my existence. But will I ever be free? Can I find a way to escape this recurring nightmare among the sane and living? How can I so simply combine twenty-six letters into words, sentences, phrases and paragraphs; I'm tired and weary. I wasn't made for this... There has to be something much, much better than this. Soon too, these very words will lose their meaning - not only to me, but to the rest of the universe.
I hate you
I hate you
I HATE YOU GOD DAMMIT
I need to find solace somewhere out there among the brambles and thorns in that excuse for a world. Pray for their souls - not mine. Pray that they'll find their temporary and permanent lovers, their money and sentimental junk in amongst the debris. Leave me to wither; like these words - a scrawl in the history books of humanity. Give them what they want and suck me dry of my possessions and emotions. I'm tired of harbouring them now. Teach them to capitalise and help to establish their consumer economy paradise. I'm nothing but words left to bleed on the paper.
Forget me
For I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
Tumble down from that pedestal and let me have my final say
I hate you
Let me stand on your head for a change - let me thrash you and gash your flesh - let me reopen the wounds in your soul and poke the scar tissue with the molten needle fresh from my heart
Then let me wither and die
Slowly
So you may see and applaud
Then weep for the fact that I am no longer there for your incriminations, your prejudice and abuse
Weep, for I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
I HATE YOU GOD DAMMIT

*yet another stream of conscience during my 'episodes'


In Your Heart

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

It's not hard to see within you and through your transparent skin
It's not hard to witness the beauty of your gymnastic sin
Are you certain that you are approved?
Is what you love so hard to prove?

You are hiding something in your heart
A glimmer of faith you hold apart
You are hiding something in your heart
In your heart

You're stumbling in your heart but you continue on your way
Through the bleak weeks you see such blue clear days
What is it that you need from here?
Why are you asking me such things?

You are hiding something in your heart
A glimmer of faith you hold apart
You are hiding something in your heart
In your heart

There's a light ahead
A place where you can spill
Tell your secrets
Convictions
And sudden realisations
Don't hide what's in your heart

You are hiding something in your heart
A glimmer of faith you hold apart
You are hiding something in your heart
In your heart


Now

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

And you sleep restlessly at night
For you can no longer breathe
Are you shivering?
Are you hurt?
Is there a truth that you're hiding?
A solemn allegation
Is it falling on you?
Is it breaking?

You're losing now
You're losing now
You've gained your doubt
You're losing now

I see you walking there
Alone in the gusty wind
Why can't you come home?
Why are you lost?
There is nothing for you
In this desolate plain of pain
Come closer I love you
Let me hold you

You're losing now
You're losing now
You've gained your doubt
You're losing now

A fallen angel you are
Despite all the holiness
You are a devil inside
For half the time
You are my saviour
My sole saviour
Pull me to you
And disperse your cosmic tears

You're winning now
You're winning now
You've lost all doubt
Coz you're winning now


Truth

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

You eyes are blank
You sit on your own
There's nothing that catches your fall
Everyone loves you if you lie
But nobody cares at all
You weave for yourself
A world of faults
From the shattered reverie
It's all made beautiful together
But you will never be free

Taste your blood
Stop breathing
Your jaded eyes give it away
So exhale
Take it all back
And build yourself a truth

Your whisper's unheard
You cover your face
There's no reason for you to be here
Everyone loves you if you're fake
But nobody makes it clear
You hide yourself
Come out when they want
The choice is never your own
Life is what you make it
So reap the seeds you've sown

Taste your blood
Stop breathing
Your jaded eyes give it away
So exhale
Take it all back
And build yourself a truth

Your hands are cold
You shiver in vain
There's nothing that melts the ice
Everyone loves you if you smile
But nobody there looks twice
You cry for yourself
With your dry-eyed tears
But it's hidden deep inside
No one's allowed to be close to you
You never let anyone try


Distinction

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Don't look at me; look aside and keep your
Keys away from the locks that imprison me
But can't you see? I am not cages - I'm
Walking towards the light that I have created
For myself in times of unrest and darkness
And my mind is as quiet as a whisper
When I cry; I'm not sad because I am singing

There are shadows here that invade my soul
But I welcome them with open arms and praise
They only keep me company
As I reach out towards the distant light with black and
Frozen hands; fragile tools of feeble love that
Escapes their grasp in a flurry of wind. How
Am I supposed to escape?

And there is a sudden distinction
Between what is good and what is bad
A monopoly of extinction
Of the feelings I once had
It's a shadowed light I walk in
A sheltered life I've dreamt
But it's my choice - my decision
For life, what am I meant?

Why can't I have what I want - the answer
Is clear to me, but a solution evades
My mind. I am tired of it,
Writing chapters of my life in beach sand and air
And bleeding the landscape with my blood, my ink
Tell me: I am fine; for I am crying
Again, crying when I sing

Look at me; look from within outside
And taste the sky with its shattered dream and faith
I am walking beneath your feet
In a reflective shadow of lightered hell and heaven
But pouring within you overhear a sound
That tells you I am whispering; I am singing
With my icy frozen hands


The Reason

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I saw the birds come falling
To the spires of NYC
And I wondered to God for the reason
I begged on my knees in plea

As the red flames of hell ruptured
So too did my heart and the globe
Watched in fear and distress as I
Remember these events unfold

And I prayed to God for the reason
I pleaded with tears in my eyes
The newsrooms buzzed with activity
While people fell down from the sky

The crystal capitalist emblem
Collapsed under angst and strain
Sending off lives by the thousand
To God's eternal heavenly plain

And I still beg God for the reason
I pray that He'll answer my prayers
In my mind I'll still have the memory
Of the Eleventh of September there


My Turn To Cry

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Your glittering eyes mask an inner fear
For the love that hold
The one time it was clear
And you glow like a flame
Where you desert tears flow
How far have you gone?
How deep did you go?

Your breathing is shallow and almost bare
That long lost dream
That recurring nightmare
But there's no reason to cry
For you win at each trial
Why do you feel worthless?
Why is it denial?

Success is required here
Probability problems; your life is austere
Climb into the tunnel
Blot out what you hear
It's my turn to cry
My dear...

Your trembling hands are cold and pale
I'll warm them for you
And show you the trail
Back to your salvation
To Nirvana above
I'll whisper a lullaby
Hold onto that love

Your essence is beautiful and pure
So blindingly white
The most hidden cure
For glittering eyes
That walked on you trail
You're breathing again
You're no longer pale

Success is required here
Probability problems; your life is austere
Climb into the tunnel
Blot out what you hear
It's my turn to cry
My dear...


Special Moment

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I have a special moment
Hidden deep inside with you
And I hold it close to my heart
Whenever I feel blue

I sometimes wish that I could
Hold you close to me
To feel your love and comfort
Warm embrace and soft heartbeat

I want to gaze in your eyes
And search your soul just once
To find that inner beauty
And welcome all your love

I'll give back all you've given
And offer you the world
I'll promise to stay with you
To let your wings unfurl

So with this special moment
I'll wish to the stars above
That you were here so close to me
And give you all my love


In A Cup

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Stare at those shards that are autumn leaves
Is it wiser to cover your pain?
Though there are scars, let me heal them
And shield you away from the rain
Could you find solace in my soul?
And hope that I love you the more
Let me wipe that tear from your cheek again
I can see that pain of yours

Whisper to those dreams
That won't come
Your wishes are falling away
Like the sand
That was once you and your freedom
And the love that you held
In a cup

Don't weep for the sake of your losses
Instead weep for the joy that's to come
I can understand your convictions
And be known that your trials are done
Is it wiser to cover your pains and
Hide your beautiful skin under stone
Whisper to those dreams and relive them
And be known that you are not alone


Really

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Would you miss me
If I sailed
To the moon
Would you really care
If I never
Came back
Would you miss me
If I flew
To the mountains
Would you really care
If I never
Found home

Running circles from recurring nightmares did you really once think it was all really there? Knocking on the doors with a waxen flail did you really once think I was there...?

Would you miss me
If I said
My goodbyes
Would you really, really care
If I slipped
From your arms

Running circles from recurring nightmares did you really once think it was all really there? Knocking on the doors with a waxen flail did you really once think I was running circles from recurring nightmares did you really once think it was all really there? Knocking on the doors with a waxen flail did you really once think I was there...?

Would you miss me
If I died
This very day
Would you really care
If I somehow
Returned
Would you miss me
If I never
Looked back
Would you really care?
Would you really care?


Always

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I'll always be here
And you'll always be there
Cross the rift and come to me
Seal your fated destiny
And I'll always love you
So you'll always love me
But as time moves on
I'll be the only one waiting
Always

Who do you admire the most?
God, Buddha or Re...
Does it matter whose boss?
Who leads the way; calls the shots
Do you really think you understand
The provocative stimulation
The things that are bold
The things that are bland

I'll always be here
And you'll always be there
Cross the rift and come to me
Seal your fated destiny
And I'll always love you
So you'll always love me
But as time moves on
I'll be the only one waiting
Always

I admire you the most
My God, Buddha and Re...
It matters - you're boss
You lead my way; call my shots
I really think you understand
The pacifying stimulation
The things that are meek
The things that are piquant


Lost In Rhyme

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Contained again in my best of friends -
My darkness and its benign
Time doesn't exist where I can breathe
Melancholy lost in rhyme
I have my favourite colour beside me -
My blue of bluest faith
Alone in the shell of solitude
Under protection, I am not safe

So my voice rings loud and clear at night -
But it's only a whisper I'm sure
It seems to echo within this shell
Hark - I cannot hear it no more
So I'll sit here alone in my darkness shell
And it's familiar feeling benign
Time doesn't exist where I can breathe
Melancholy lost in rhyme


Lost Without You

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Don't rule my life like you own
Every little piece that I call my home
I can't escape your screaming
And your lowered tone
I'm tired of you singing your little song

I'm lost without you here
I'm drowning in my own blood
You don't seem to notice how
I'm drowning in the sound

How many times must I go on my own
Shivering in ice that leaks to my bones
I'm tired of your snatching
My soul is my own
I don't understand why
You can't leave me alone

I'm lost without you here
I'm drowning in my own blood
You don't seem to notice how
I'm drowning in the sound
I'm lost without you here
I'm singing a voiceless song
You don't seem to notice how
You cannot hear the sound

Don't rule my life like you own
Every piece
And every whole


Forgotten Ol Me

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

It's not as simple as you might think
To exhale so calmly as I sink
Forging onward in placid pretence
To a deeper, darker silence

For the truth that I once laboured
And the love that I had favoured
Ultimately, seal my fate
With little else to compensate

Despite my deadly hex and antics
I am feeling quite pedantic
Though it's wondrous at its core
Life's not much worth living for

So I fade into the distance
Since I hinder your existence
Leave me to wither and gather dust
An antique disgrace - a sale - a must!


One Of Me

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

One of me, a pair of you
A solitary companion too
One silent heart, a two-step beat
A quickened pulse amidst defeat
One silver thread, a golden knot
With one stitch too soon forgot
There's one of me, and two of you
One in white, one in black
And one in blue


The Only Person

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Do you really think you could hold me down with your arms and do you really think this is the way to understand me. Your self-control is what lacks so I'm sure you can fix that but once that was what attracted me to you.

And you don't know my spite
Against your soul - against you whole
And you don't know how much I hurt
Every day and every night
Don't you realise what you have done
It's not my fault
It's not my fault
The only person to blame is you

And it's not as if I learnt my gruelling lesson the first time fast and it's not my justification that I breathe the same air as you. It's not how many times you can soothed me that counts and it's not how many ways you can rescue my soul.

And you don't know my spite
Against your soul - against you whole
And you don't know how much I hurt
Every day and every night
Don't you realise what you have done
It's not my fault
It's not my fault
The only person to blame is you
And you don't know my hell
Inside my soul - inside my head
And you don't know how much it hurts
Every minute of every hour
Don't you realise what you have done
It's not my fault
It's not my fault
The only person to blame is you


Rhinestone Ring

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

She's strolling far amidst the silver sky of a masterpiece and forming in her eye
She spies the daylight moonscape rising scene and the softest kiss in a moonbeam
And oh she's walking onwards, farther now to awakened dreams; a wisp of cloud
That falls between the cracks of heaven and earth to her reverie but what was it she heard?

And she stops
And listens hard for a voice to ring out
While her mind is painting pictures of a vanquished doubt
And she fingers her rhinestone ring with hope in her eyes
But the only sound that escapes her lips is a sigh

So now she journeys on an endless search to disown her claim as queen of the broken world
Although her noble birthright bides to stand, did she accomplish her dreams or did they turn to sand?
And oh she's stumbling in her silver sky then the rains come forth from the glint in her eye
Now there's nothing else that she can do but break down inside; melancholy blue

And she stops
And listens hard for a voice to ring out
While her mind is painting pictures of a vanquished doubt
And she fingers her rhinestone ring with hope in her eyes
But the only sound that escapes her lips is a sight
And she goes
And fights the urge to jump back and return
To her broken world filled with silver skies and moons
And though her rhinestone ring now lies on the silver ground
Crying out in self-proclamation there is no sound


Foreword/Open Poem To Lucifer's Autobiography

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Instead of this pendulous
Supposedly strenous
Heart-breaking healing feeling
I wish for equivalent
Sub-luminesscent
Dramatical burning and searing


Ode To My Battered Bottom

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I remember one day after a blizzard
I strolled naked to Summertime Creek
And when I jumped (bottom first) into the liquid
...Let's just say I could not sit down for a week...
Anyway -
I gathered this mighty mad bruise and
Thrashed around in the reddest of pain
Like a wild animal (from the mountains)
- I'll never go swimming again!

...Well, not during Midwinter anyhow...


I Know

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I know
You won't stay long here
You won't know
What I know
I know
You won't hurt as much here
You won't know
What I know

Dial a preacher
Senile future caving in
I know I know I know I know

Embrace my soul
Tortured slaves of old
Don't leave me here alone
Like you always do to me
Embrace my fears
Don't walk away from here
Never looking back
It always happens to me

I know
You won't say a word to me
You won't know
What I know
Oh I know
You won't find me hiding here
You won't know
What I know

Dial a preacher
Senile future caving in
I know I know I know I know

Embrace my soul
Tortured slaves of old
Don't leave me here alone
Like you always do to me
Embrace my fears
Don't walk away from here
Never looking back
It always happens to me

Serenate my desire
Relight the inner fire
Don't let me know
What I'm meant to know
Discard my certainty
Relinquish my reason
Release my grip
Resounding my voices

I know I know I know I know
Oh I know
Don't let me know
You won't ever know
What I know


All Is Well

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

How many times must I die?
How many times must I see you?
In the looking glass of death
And it's fine
Oh sunlit plains

Though there are times I die
And though the times I see you
I can tell there is reflection
And it's sick
Oh dark descend

All is well
Except for stinging revelations
All is well
Bar incessant accusations
But all is well
There's no worry as I'm sane
And all is well
I know that you are not the same

How many times must I lie?
How many times must I flee you?
In a twisting turning spiral
And it's dry
Oh watery grave

I think that I must lie
And I think that I must flee you
Stronger currents carry me
It's not you
Oh pacifist damned

All is well
Except for stinging revelations
All is well
Bar incessant accusations
But all is well
There's no worry as I'm sane
And all is well
I know that you are not the same


If You Like

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

And you can see my bones here
Through my skin
Through my flesh yeah
And you can heal me here if you want to
If you like; if you care

And you can see my blood right here
Through my skin
Through my veins yeah
And you can stab me here if you want to
If you like; if you care

Twitch
Simply for a while through it
And your mind seeps out into me
But it's not the way it's meant
So jolt
Electric streams inside your brain
And you had better embrace the feeling
You will never be the same

And you can see my bones here
Let me point them out to you
Ooh I know there is some blood here
But the person to blame is you

And you can see my bones here
Through my skin
Through my flesh yeah
And you can stab me here if you want to
If you like; if you care

Twitch
Simply for a while through it
And your mind seeps out into me
But it's not the way it's meant
So jolt
Electric streams inside your brain
And you had better embrace the feeling
You will never be the same

But can you see my blood here?
Can you see through opaque skin?
Can you twitch and jolt and fall here?
If you like; if you care


Lost And Found

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I seldom fall asleep at night
For I'm thinking deep
Of the hole in my head

And when I try to blind my sight
My increasing grief
Leaves me for dead

So I make a tiny incision
To separate my mind
From irrationality
And all else I can find
I stare with intense precision
And tangle in the web
Of how you've never talked to me
I remember what you said

I find it colder here alone
And when I breathe
I remake the past

I often wonder why you are gone
For I believed
We would last

So I sever all connections
With realistic reality
Exploring deeper every time
And decide just who to be
But what is this 'rejection'
Never heard the term before
And what is this within me
Oh it's a scar I'm sure

I find it
I lost it deep within my soul
And I kept it
In a wooden box
In a hole
So I've found it
In the lostness that is me
But I threw it away again
Coz I found that
I lost me

So I make a tiny decision
To reunite my psyche
From preposterousness
And all else I can find
I stare with passionate abstraction
And snarl at the trap
Of how you've never listened
I remember what you heard


In The Darkness

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Dissipating deep in my memory
My angry tears evaporate; it's clear to me
I don't think I can make it but I know that I can try
So why not back off and leave me here to wither and to die

Cold breath blows here in the darkness
There's a bleeding heart cradling emotions
Deep inside me

Frustrated with pretences that fall down one by one
I have a way to solve the problems that always come
And underneath the starry sky I lay back deep in sleep
For don't you agree that shadows gather and around me they creep

Won't let go of this reliance
On this fear in my heart coz I am reminded
Oh pathetic me!

I fall deep inside it, oh why can't you hear my plea?
This well of emotion
Is swallowing me

Silently falling in my dead dreams
My restless nights filled with demons it seems
Oh and lightly rasping against my skin the voices take their turn
But it's not my fault; I'm swollen now, like paper I burn

Oh I know there is a silence
Deep within my heart for there's no one in there
No one but me

I sink in this silence there's no way out for me
No entrance; no exit - what will become of me?
Deep inside me


My Own Glorious Show

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

People like ... groups;
Marginal shows ... and looks
From a deepening rift ... oh yes.
I know ...
Clear ... there's glass here
With me ... and I see ... I know,
What a glorious show

People like ... sane
One eyed looks ... and shame
They're drawing and writing ... oh no
I know ...
Fear ... it's dark here
In me ... and I echo ... I know,
What a glorious show

NOTICE: This way;
Emergency exit
But the show must go on...
Don't leave; encore!
I really love this
I revel in my own freak show

People like ... sex appeal
I used to like ... orange peel
How I changed my mind ... I'm glad
I know ...
Charcoal ... it's hot here
For me ... calm my chi ... I know
What a glorious, glorious show!

NOTICE: This way;
Emergency exit
But the show must go on...
Don't leave; encore!
I really love this
I revel in my own freak show


Light

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

An obvious transition
From one to another
And the other within
Company
You are slipping and sliding
Your life is deriding
Tumultuous chaos
Therein

Allah _ speak to me
My God; don't make me assume what you want
Tell me _ in your omni-secular motions
Is there a light out there that shines? A light for me?

But you cannot proclaim it
Oh no, you contain it
It's not in your right to
Speak out
So just sit there and take it
Shut up; don't berate it
You've no sanity within or
Without

Allah _ speak to me
My God; don't make me assume what you want
Tell me _ in your omni-secular motions
Is there a light out there that shines? A light for me?

There is nothing to change
For there is nothing wrong
Go away; you are not meant to
Cry
There is not light, my God
I am just what you made me
There is not light out there that
Shines


Amongst The Stars

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I am waking here amongst the stars
That each contain a separate voice
Calling softly - calling me
So I shift and I stretch in myself
And I slip, then I fall right through
But I'll be okay - okay?

Oh hello there my friend
From where did you fall?
Can I catch you
Before you
Hurt your
Wings?

I regain consciousness alone here
And there are no more soft voices
I am bleeding - but I am
Drawing pictures in the seaside sand
And avoiding all of those shells
They are, anyway, shattered
So I wanted to become a cloud
Or returned in amongst the stars
I miss my benign darkness

Oh hello there my friend
From where did you fall?
Can I catch you
Before you
Hurt your
Wings?

But I'll never return - I know it
With my feet planted on the ground
My head is spinning; just spinning

Oh hello there my friend
What have you to send?
Is it for me?
Or is it
Just for
You?

Oh hello there my friend
From where did you fall?
Can I catch you
Before you
Hurt your
Wings?


Within Me

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I hate it when I can't not write
For it sort of steals away this
Inner purpose that surfaces
Within me

I hate it when I can't not scream
Temporarily, of course, yet undisturbed
I think I've had enough
Within me

No smoking they said, unperturbed and incessant
And now you have her in your clutches
Away from the switches you lowly peasant
You now have me in stitches

I hate it when I can't not lie
Energetic substances that vary
It's never a doubt; planted on the stairs
Within me

No smoking they said, unperturbed and incessant
And now you have her in your clutches
Away from the switches you lowly peasant
You now have me in stitches


Iron-whatnot-ity

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

A self-determined evangelist
In a self-contained container filled with
'Ironicity' - or something just as good
Look at the competitiveness of resistance
ņ l'eau Et ņ Lumiere
A current natural nurturing
In a presumptuous discipline

I beg your pardon
Again?
"'Ironicality' I said," they said when I wanted
"How ironic," I thought
As they wanted
Went Away


Enough

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

DONíT touch me
Nor brush your lips AGAINST my CHEEK
Donít you wrap ME in your arms
And TELL me everythingís OKAY
DONíT crush me
Nor suffocate me IN your LOVE
Iím not SURE I appreciate it
But Iím sure Iíve had ENOUGH

And itís my fault
I suffer in my own consequence
Fling me in freefall forever
And itís not okay
Itís not my way
No, never

DONíT touch me
Nor BRUSH your hands against my BODY
Donít WHISPER me with SWEET words
And TRY to make everything OKAY
DONíT crush me
Nor suffocate me IN your LOVE
Iím not SURE I appreciate it
But Iím sure Iíve had ENOUGH


To Me

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

A rueful incandesence that shines brightly from your eyes
Like a candle
A flame; a torture tool
That shivers in the sky

With a fountain force that spills a truth regarding day and night
A harness of
A power deep
That trembles all the time

Look at me; a withered shell in harmony
Wallowing indifference - can't you see
How much you
Mean to me

A glowing aural fractal that gives wake to space and time
Charismatic
Self-indulgence
In itself enduring crime

Look at me; a withered shell in harmony
Wallowing indifference - can't you see
How much you
Mean to me

Young and free
A last self-portrayal of harmony
Dissolving in myself - release me
How much do you
Really mean to me


Happy

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

All you happy little people
And your happy little lives
Happy little husbands
And happy little wives
You're happy in your happiness
As happy as can be
I'm tired of being happy
I am now married to me

How can you be happy when there's sadness all around
How can you feel safe at the times of midnight-ed sound
What happened to your logic
What happened to you sneer
What happened to the happiness that comes but once a year

How can you start laughing in the face of false dis-ease
How can you accept it when it's not what you would please
You've lost your touch with reality
You've lost you frame of truth
You lost yourself in tumultuous happiness ressurected from your youth

All you happy little people
And your happy little lives
Happy little husbands
And happy little wives
You're happy in your happiness
As happy as can be
I'm tired of being happy
I am now married to me

Why am I not happy?
Coz you smile when I fall!
Why am I so snappy?
You don't seem to hear at all!
So I don't know why I waste my time; I've better things to do
Like not being so happy, and not being so happy with you!

How can you recover so quickly from your wounds
How can you be pleased with me when sanity has no room
Do you realise what you're doing
Do you know how much it hurts
Do you wonder why at night I cry and deep with death I flirt

All you happy little people
And your happy little lives
Happy little husbands
And happy little wives
You're happy in your happiness
As happy as can be
I'm tired of being happy
I am now married to me


Isle Of Temptation

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker


Lead me not into temptation
To the isle I'll find
By myself; by myself
Excuse me?

Oh look at the sky it's clear again and the birds are singing their song, but can you understand their gibbering and comprehend their tone?

And lo can you see how they dwindle slowly; deepening the rift between us and can you see how they snatch our souls, blurring what they mean to us?

Lead me not into degradation
To the isle I'll find
By myself; by myself
Pardon me?

Oh look the waves recede now, and leave their pearly shells, do you think you could handle one and can you live to tell...?

Lead me not into temptation
To the isle Iíll find
By myself; by myself
Thank you


Oh How Much

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

My dreams are flowing now
To a twilight dawn
I feel my life is slipping
The air is cold in the silence of my mind
I hear my voice softly calling
If I could love myself - like you
I would be free from this
But no; it doesnít seem to work along that way
Oh, how much I needed you

Alone I sit here in the rafters of my world
It itself is slowly breaking
My tears are shed in silence - not a word
I know how much I resent them
If I could know that you were here
Without that note you left me
Oh, I would be happy if you were here with me
Not alone in darkness

I know Iím dying
My eyes are growing heavy
The shades of blue set in me
Yet morning light touches my careless mind
Where I could not go myself
If I could allow it all again
If I could begin a life alive
I would not feel like a husk flowing in the wind
Oh, how much I needed you
I wanted to be close to you


So Sorry

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Welcome, welcome to here; thank you
Your selection is workable, of course
But are you innocent?
Are you truly helping me?
Are you there in there?
Are you deep in me?

Glory, glory for us; how are you?
Remember this - remember that; me?
But can you reconsider?
Can you truly decide?
Can you recall and retell?
Can you see inside?

So sorry
Malfunctioning loyalty
And truth
For you
And all above as stated
In me
In you
No one before me
Nearby
Near me
Near me

Forever, forever; how embarrassingly
A tangle and youíre shifting almost nicely
But will you understand?
Will you enchain yourself?
Will you ignore it?
Will you lie?

So sorry
Malfunctioning loyalty
And truth
For you
And all above as stated
In me
In you
No one before me
Nearby
Near me
Near me

Shifting therapeutically
Tangled in here for you_
In chains of self afflicted purpose
Lying to myself about my fear_

So sorry
Malfunctioning loyalty
And truth
For you
And all above as stated
In me
In you
No one before me
Nearby
Near me
Near me


Blame

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Before this
I was unindebted
I was free but was so apologetic
I was sorry for you and for me
And sorry for them
Yet I realise
These two words:
Not anymore

Donít blame your unhappiness on me
I ignored it all, so you must too
Itís my fault that I am like this
Not yours at all really
Itís my fault
The only thing you must redeem yourself for
Is trying to capture me

Can you realise the times that I
That I
Loved
At least for a time
Ignorance works
It gives bliss
Almost
For a while

Before this
I was unindebted
I was free but was so apologetic
I was sorry for you and for me
And sorry for them
Yet I realise
These two words:
Not anymore

Donít blame your misery on me
I ignored it all, so you must too
Itís my fault that you are like that
Not mine at all really
Itís your fault
The only thing you must exchange your soul for
Is trying to imprison me

Can you realise the times that I
That I
Appreciated
At least for a time
Unawareness works
It gives delight
Almost
For a while


Everyone Has Someone Else

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Coz everyone has someone else
And everybody knows themselves better
As each one knows the other and even
Those ones which are together

There was wisdom so deep and true that I, unfortunately, did not understand despite my upper handedness in terms that require an apology

Coz everyone has someone else
And everybody knows themselves better
As each one knows the other and even
Those ones which are together

Coz I wanted to
You, all of you and your convictions
Didn't want to be
No matter
Anymore

Coz everyone has someone else
And everybody knows themselves better
As each one knows the other and even
Those ones which are together


Deepest Wish

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

How many times can you disappear without me, crawling deeper in the thin
I donít think that is very good for you but you donít seem to care so just keep stumbling in

Donít you realise
That I cannot conceptualise
Your recent flourishing
Coz it was apart of my

Deepest wish I set for you
Donít you think this is not all true?
Can you try to understand?
No I didnít think so!
Forbidden fruits are you meals
And the fountain of youth your thirst
While we all wither here
You and your evil eye

How many more lives must be lost before you realise the shit youíre in
Iím tired of questioning your pseudo-authority up until the point you almost give in

Donít you realise my irate nature
And I cannot comprehend
How you go on and on and
How you never cave in

My deepest wish I set for you
Unfortunately itís not all true
Can you stop stopping me?
No I didnít think so!
Ambrosia is your aphrodisiac
While gold is your pleasure too
While we wither here
You and your spell of nets

If you forget your origin
Let me remind the shit youíre in
Paranoia will be setting in
Too late for you this time
Too late for you that time

Donít you realise
That I cannot conceptualise
Your recent flourishing
Coz it was apart of my

Deepest wish I set for you
Donít you think this is not all true?
Can you try to understand?
No I didnít think so!
Forbidden fruits are you meals
And the fountain of youth your thirst
While we all wither here
You and your evil eye


Far From Here

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

And I said there wasn't
Enough time for us
But you believed otherwise
You said it was okay
That it was good enough
And I thought I believed you at first
But there were disruptions
And other such things
That threw us off of our path
And I was lonely
Although cradled in your arms
And I cried tonight

And I had decided to run away from you and you ran after me but I soon disappeared and you called out my name but I blocked the sweet sound and I had decided to run far, far from here

We spent all out time waiting
For the time
We would be unity met
But it never happened
And I twisted and cried
And this was only a dream
I don't think it's possible
For me to love you
If you do not love me
I know it's a one-way
Or a two-way; it doesnít
Matter either way now

And I had decided to run away from you and you ran after me but I soon disappeared and you called out my name but I blocked the sweet sound and I had decided to run far, far from here

And I had decided to run far, far away, far from here


My Poison

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Your controversy
Speaks in tongues
And I don't understand what's going
On in here
I cannot lie
I honesty thought Iíd fake it
And all I see
Is you and me

I feel my outsides
I feel my insides
Burning in my desire
I try to turn
I try to run
I try to push you away from my skin
And all I see
Is you and me
And Iím troubled
Because of lies
And I do know
They were mine

Everybody loves it when they see this
They think it's some kind of staged show
Iíd like to think that this thing is safe right here
But no, you're my poison

Your controversy
Speaks in languages
From the centre of my universe
Iím craving it
I need your pure
Afflictions against my sole being
And all I see
Is you and me
And I love you
As you love me
But I don't think
This will happen again

Everybody loves it when they see this
They think tit's some kind of staged show
I'd like to think that this thing is safe right here
But no, you're my poison


I Only Say So

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I only say so
When there's no one else around
When the lights are shadowed deeply
And the wind carries no sound
I only say my feelings
Alone, and in slight degree
Of my crouched and hunched figure
Behind smoke; a mask - a screen


Not To Tell

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Coy like this
Can you give me a chance now?
Such noisiness
Are you alright?
Are you alright?

Just go; abandon me
Leave me here with a withering look on my face
I try not to tell you this
But I loved you once, I loved you here
And it calls for mourning

Iím all gone
I am all gone now anyway
I try not to tell you this

Why did you treat me regardless?
Coy like this
And a spreading of the tale went through my heart
Such noisiness
Are you alright with this - in bitter bliss?
Do you see that I am not counting...?

Just leave; forget my sympathy
I wonít be one to make a meek apology
I try not to tell you this
But I needed you one, I needed you here
And it calls for s sojourning

I'm all gone
I am all gone now anyway
I'm not forlorn
To you heart I find now comfort
I try not to tell you this

Why did you treat me regardless?
Coy like this
And a spreading of the tale went through my heart
Such noisiness
Are you alright with this - in bitter bliss?
Do you see that I am not counting...?

Do you see that I am not counting?
I am not counting

I'm all gone
I try not to tell you this

Why did you treat me regardless?
Coy like this
And a spreading of the tale went through my heart
Such noisiness
Are you alright with this - in bitter bliss?
Do you see that I am not counting...?


Footnote

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

I am not wrestling with this anymore - I'm tired of your persistence
I am not hearing your voice - I'd rather slip into a deep darkness
And you think I'm alone
But I was not abandoned
I have my melancholy here

You must think I am enticing; that I am one to grow and grow
You must think I am one that doesnít stop and go
And you think I'm alone
But I was not frightened
I have my dementia here

I can see your sole purpose; your incandescent meaning to greet me
I can tell by your tone and your style that you donít really give a damn
And itís nice if you are much nicer
I am not lightened
I have my anger here

Did you know that I am just a footnote to your biography?


It'll Last Forever

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Thereís a blue pool of water by the shore
Where the starfish and sea shells take shelter at night
And the shoals of small fishes play in the sun
And itís quiet on the shorefront with you by my side

Cloudless skies; flawless dreams
Paradise; you and me
Freedom here; not a care and we know itíll last forever
Just you and me

Itíll last forever...

Thereís a blue wave crashing to the sandy shore
Carrying the gifts born from the ocean floor
And the rustling of the palm leaves bring peace to the mind
Letting go; freefalling, in blue cloudless skies

Cloudless skies; flawless dreams
Paradise; you and me
Freedom here; not a care and we know itíll last forever
Just you and me

Cloudless skies; flawless dreams
Paradise; you and me
Freedom here; not a care and we know itíll last forever
Just you and me

Itíll last forever...


Song of the Hybrid

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Walk with me into the sunset
Sing with me the song of the hybrid!

I am the one of two and three
Look at the way I am and discern my personalities in amongst the mess
I am the one of two and three
Look at the way I am and try to find all the flaws in my own existence

I am the one of the two and the three
Walk into the infinite sunset with me
Iíll show you the places that I have seen
Iíll show you the things that have happened to me

I am the one of the two and the three!
Come, take my hand and Iíll set you free
This is the song of hybrids; of you and me
Iíll take you to places you have never dreamed!

Walk with me into the sunset
Inquisitive curiosity
Sing with me the song of the hybrid!
Holler innuendo!
Walk with me into the sunset
Recall the memories of the hybrid!

Come and pick a rose; pick a rose - see the petals glow
Come and pick the leaf; pick the leaf of the forest growth

I am the one of two and three
Has there been enough blood spilled on the plains of a tyrantís draft manifesto
I am the one of many commanders
Of the things that I tell my own heart in the times of crisis and loss of importance

I am the one of the two and the three
Walk into the infinite sunset with me
Iíll show you the places that I have seen
Iíll show you the things that have happened to me

I am the one of the two and the three!
Come, take my hand and Iíll set you free
This is the song of hybrids; of you and me
Iíll take you to places you have never dreamed!

No more colour; no more colour - everything I see in here -
Has been turned to primeval soup
>Fix it!
No more colour; no more colour - everything Iíve tried in here
Has failed despite my non-contradicting calculations!
>Oh my god...!

I am the one of the two and the three
Walk into the infinite sunset with me
Iíll show you the places that I have seen
Iíll show you the things that have happened to me

I am the one of the two and the three!
Come, take my hand and Iíll set you free
This is the song of hybrids; of you and me
Iíll take you to places you have never dreamed!

Walk with me into the sunset
Inquisitive curiosity
Sing with me the song of the hybrid!
Holler innuendo!
Walk with me into the sunset
Recall the memories of the hybrid!

Walk with me into the sunset
Sing with me the song of the hybrid...


Complex

by

Sekhem Psikor Strecker

Complex; why you're that for?
I can't understand anymore
You're free - but you can only count on me

So you perceive and therefore out
That when you're wallowing in doubt
Too much - you find it really hard to see
What do you mean?

You and yourself - not anyone else
You keep coming back - bound by contract
You owe me so much - but you don't believe it be
Unfortunately

Don't you know I'm not just another person in your universe?
I was your centre
ANd now that circumstances have changed you won't remembe!
It pleases you to
Rebound off; reflect all of yourself and the things that you do
And you remind me that it's
Not your fault; you're not to blame; it wasn't you that
Tried to break me
So you go

Pretence; why you act that now?
I don't want all of your know-how
You're fun - but you can only be, indeed
Not much for me

You and yourself - not anyone else
You keep coming back - bound by contract
You owe me so much - but you don't believe it be
Unfortunately

Don't you know I'm not just another person in your universe?
I was your centre
ANd now that circumstances have changed you won't remembe!
It pleases you to
Rebound off; reflect all of yourself and the things that you do
And you remind me that it's
Not your fault; you're not to blame; it wasn't you that
Tried to break me
So you go