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Trying to Make You Happy

by

Mia Ridder

So you scream at me,
and you expect me not to cry.
But you know me better than that,
still I try to hide
my feelings from you.
I'm just trying to make you happy...

So you laugh at me,
and shake your head because I hurt.
I'm so confused about what to do!
And though it's absurd
I agree with you.
I'm just trying to make you happy...

So you lie to me,
and get mad because I know.
I don't understand what I'm feeling!
Yet I don't want you to go
and I dismiss it.
I'm just trying to make you happy...

So you love me?
and you're upset because I'm shocked?
I'm in awe with your contradictions!
But now you've got me locked
and I believe you.
I'm REALLY trying to make you happy...

So you're leaving?
And you're disgusted and sick of me?
I do my best to hold back my tears.
But I'm unhappy
and I cry for you.
I was just trying to make you happy...

So what did I do wrong?
A question that haunts my mind in dreams.
I try to shake your unmoving memory.
But you're not what you seem
and I long for you.
I was just trying to make you happy...
Why couldn't I make you happy?

Untitled

by

Mia Ridder

I'm alone.
Forever by myself
in an endless bliss.
Yet I am restrained
by unseen walls
created by darkness.
A dark so thick
it coats my skin
and its presence makes me tingle.
I try to shake the feeling,
forget its visit.
I turn away
and try to ignore,
but everywhere it's there,
the darkness
following me,
begging me to give in
and rest in its tempting arms.
I run.
Screaming
Fighting with inhuman strength!
But my running takes me nowhere.
Power is nothing.
There isn't anything
to save me.
I fall to my knees
tierd of being chased.
Unwillingly
I finish the fight.
Swallowed whole by my hatred.
I become all
everything I've dispised.
And the tingly feeling
once left by the darkness
disappears.
It's now numbness.
A shock
of no longer being shocked.
I am what I am.
It's too late to change.
My fate spoke.
Yet inside my tears fall like raindrops.
Too heavey for the clouds
but thrown away
as soon as they hit rock bottom.
My companion
helplessness.
Also thrown around by hatred.
By just not fitting in anywhere!
Like the rain,
just like me.

River Of Deceit

by

Mia Ridder

Its shoreline so aluring: how it softly calls your name,
But if you listen carefully: you'll hear me calling just the same.
And when you do decide: whatever your choice might be,
It still hurts so much to lose: to the river of deceit.
You see its glowing eyes: it's all you've ever dreamed,
Somehow it makes you feel at peace: which with me you never seemed.
And though you know deep in: your soul, together we're complete,
The bond between us is washed away: by the river of deceit.
Can you and I find love again?: Is it still there?
Or are you just a memory: convincing me to care?
But is this memory of love?: Or is it hidden greed?
Are you like all the others: trying to make me bleed?
Breaking my weak heart,: trying to make me bleed.
It reaches out its claws: hidden in flawless skin,
and your too blind to notice: what hides deep within.
Its monsterous heart beats wicked: as it steals my love from me,
You've fallen in the currents: of the river of deceit.

H-Vegas

by

Mia Ridder

The pitter-patter
of a beating heart
growing fainter
weaker
with unsatisfied
affections.
Knowing,
just this one moment
was the only moment,
and it ends
way too soon.
It falls short,
way too quickly.
But memories of his smile
his face,
his eyes,
linger in hidden darkness
back in the depths of my brain.
Only to show
true colors
just in time
to keep this feeble heart
aching wildly.
Wishing,
the dreams in view
could be forever
and always.
I sigh in sadness,
knowing,
if my heart had a voice
it'd be screaming in agony,
in remorse.
Remembering,
exactly what's in the future.
What's waiting at so-called home.
Nothing.
Nothing's waiting
with wide-open arms
to suck me in.
And I look
at what I could have,
And know
what I do have.
GOODBYE!
screams my insides
as my dreams disappear
and your memory fades.