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Because Of You

by

Sherene Delgado



Anger is all I know
It is all I have for you
Memories from the past plague me
Memories of you is all I can think of
Like a vague dream that I know is real
The past eats away at me till I want to scream for it to stop
I'm changed because of it
My future is forever different from what it could have been
What it should have been I'll never know
Because of you
Now I'm what you've made me
A person who will never know true love,
A person who will never know how to trust again
A person who will never be complete
Always in the back of my mind I will know I am missing something
Something I can never have
Because of you.


I'm Sorry

by

Sherene Delgado


I tried my best to love you the way I thought you wanted me to
The way I should have been able to love you
But I couldn't
I can't
Now because of this I might lose a friend
You were always understanding
Always there when I needed someone to talk to
Talking between us was never dull,
But now all I can think of to say is...

I'm sorry...I can't return your love

I'm sorry... I can't give the heart back that I took from you without permission

I'm sorry...That no matter what I say or do, I know you will still hurt inside

You gave me back my hope
I'm sorry that I ended up taking your heart
I'm sorry


A Child's Small Plea

by

Sherene Delgado



I'm plagued with sleepless nights because of you
The past is so hurtful that I don't want to remember
I can't remember
For if I do they come back
The tears that will never stop
I wonder in the dark of the night
"Why me"
What was so wrong with me that you couldn't love me?
Was I so ugly that you couldn't bare to look at me or worst yet...
Did you even have a reason?
I'm grown now
And yet I can't move on from the past
I know now that it wasn't your fault
Everyone makes mistakes
I just wish you never thought I was one.


Little Sister

by

Sherene Delgado



I tried my best to redeem myself in your eyes
I know I've made mistakes
Only now I realize the effects of my choices on you
Hurting so much from the past I never realize I was hurting you
And your future
You look at me with such anger at time, that I see myself in you
I've made you into what I am
That's something I never wanted for you
I always wanted you to dream
To hope,
To love with all your heart and never to hold any back
But now because of me that may not happen
And I'm sorry for it
If I could take back all the cruel words I've said to you
I would
If I could wipe all the tears away from the past
I would
In my quest for revenge I took your faith in me away
I only hope that one day your faith in the world will return
That one-day we can some how find a common ground
And be sisters again
Till then all I can say to you is I'm sorry
For not being the sister you deserved


Hate

by

Sherene Delgado



My hate for you is beyond words
The sight of your face brings nothing but disgust for me
Your name brings nothing but anger and regret
Regret that some sorry soul of a person had part in bringing you into this world
I do have sympathy for you though
Sympathy for you because you have to walk around looking as you do
Being as you are
Hurting whom you seem fit to
My words for you are simple but true
Unlike you I won't allow my hate for you to guide me
I will move on and be proud of who I am
Unlike you
I will be loved for the person I am
Because I know I'll fine love
Unlike you


Best Friends

by

Sherene Delgado



We were best friends
I was there for you
You were there for me
We've always thought that we would be friends forever
But you've changed
I've changed
Nothings the same anymore
You don't seem to care like you use to
You are never there anymore
I tried my best to keep everything the same as it was
To make it be as it was
But I can't
I won't
You don't seem to want me to
So I've given up
Given up on a friendship that I thought would last,
But won't
We both have changed,
But you the most
Your not the person I once loved
A person I would have done anything for
Your not the person I thought you were
I loved you with all my heart
But you broke it
Now I can't love you anymore
Not the same as before


Betrayal

by

Sherene Delgado



I never really trusted anyone until I found you
You were there when I needed you
I was there for you
You brought sunshine to my cloudy skies
And told me everything would be okay
You gave me a reason to live again
After all we've been through you still did the one thing I could never forgive
You betrayed me
You betrayed the trust I gave you
I trusted you with my heart and soul
Yet it really meant nothing to you
Now all the hopes and dreams I once had are gone
Along with our future
Our friendship
I've been hurt in the past but never so deep
It's because you took from me what they never could
My heart


To Kill You

by

Sherene Delgado



The joy I would have to kill you
To see your blood running from your body
To see your face as the life drains from you
To watch as your eyes that was once shining black
Now nothing but a reflection of my own image
I wouldn't see your ugly sneer mocking me
Or your laughing face after you've just made fun of me
I could then finally live in peace for once
If I kill you
But I can't
I won't
Because I know that is what you want
That is what you crave out of me
My hate
My anger for you is so great that I can't think
I give you too much power over me
That power is what you want from me
By killing you I know in the end you would have won
In death you would still have control of me
I know this
So I will move on
Prove to you that I'm the stronger one
Because I posses an emotion even stronger then my hate for you
It is my love for myself
That alone will get me through this
Because I'm the one who matters
Not you
Your mind games are near it's end
And in the end
I win


My Best

by

Sherene Delgado


I had always done my best for you
Even when you made me cry
Never would I show such a weakness in front of you though
I could not understood why everything I did was wrong
Why my love wasn't a good enough reason for you to love me back
When I was young... you were the world to me
Even when you put me down
Now that Iím older I see thing clearer

You don't look as though you care about what I went through
What you put me through
Youíve move forward in your life
I can't

Memories of the past is all I think of
Memories of the nights I cried myself to sleep
The memory of defeat after realizing that once again I failed in your eyes
I remember that day well
That was the day I finally realized that my best would never be good enough for you
You never understood your power over me
Or maybe you did
At times I thought you wanted to break my spirit
You never could though
I wonder if that was what angered you so much?
That I was stronger then you thought
That I would never give up no matter how much you put me down
All I ever wanted was for you to say you were proud of me
To hear you say you loved me
But you never did

Even now I catch myself doing things to please you
In hopes to just one day hear those words Iíve waited for all my life
I had hope to one day make you proud of me
But I know I won't
I know now that my best isn't enough for you
It never will be enough for you
Now all I can hope for now is that you will at least accept me for who I am
For the person you've made me


Why not me?

by

Sherene Delgado


I wait every day to see that smile
To be near you
To see your face
Some say your plain
To me ...youíre the world
Youíre in my every thought
My every dream
Youíre all Iíve ever wanted
But could never have
I feel your presence all around me
I know I shouldn't but I do
It pains me to be close
Knowing I can never have you
Youíll never see me the way I see you
I ask myself constantly
"Why not me"
No one will ever love you more then I do
Just one touch from you is all I crave
Itís all Iíve ever wished for
Yet you'll never know
Iíll never tell you
The risk of losing your friendship is too great
Tomorrow is a new day
But for me it will be the same as all the others
Another day without you near me
Another day without your love
Though I can't have you I wish you the best
I just hope that one day you'll realize the best was right in front of you
Me


I Wait

by

Sherene Delgado


Death had eluded me thus far
But still I wait
Knowing that my time will come
Someday if not today

To brave to take my life
Yet to scared to live it
So I wait
Till this hell I call life comes to an end
Maybe then I can find peace
Peace for those around me
Peace for myself
Peace for a person who's only knowledge of the world has been of pain

Anger

Hate

Regret

These are the lessons life has taught me
This is all I know of the world
The reason why Iím willing to leave it
I can't find peace in life
I can only hope I find it in death
I don't make the mistake others do
I don't fear you
I know you are my friend
So I shall wait for you
Till the end


The Pain Within

by

Sherene Delgado


You need no tears to fall from your face
You did nothing wrong
You give your heart and soul to another
Yet they betrayed you
They were wrong
Not you
You hurt now but it will fade
With time
All things need time
Love hurts and yet we still crave it
Knowing the results
Knowing how much it can hurt when it comes to an end
Like all things do
Donít lose that need
Not because of them
In time they will learn
They will realize what they lost
When they lost you
But for now do not lose the most important thing
Yourself


Never Enough

by

Sherene Delgado


Was it me?
Did I do something you didn't like?
Or couldn't stand
Did you have a reason?
I gave you all the love I could give
Yet it wasn't enough
I wasn't enough
Now I have no more love to give
To you
To myself
I know love hurts
Itís a gamble that you play with your heart
I just never though you would take mine and leave
One day you'll realize your mistake
I did the best I could
I gave you my all
Someday you'll realize I loved you the most
You might regret what you did then
Or maybe not
With your leave I say this to you
You have taken my heart
But you won't take my soul
I will get over you
I know it will be hard
But with each passing moment you'll slowly fade
You couldn't love me for who I am
But someday someone will
I won't lose myself because of you
I'm all I have


Mirror Image

by

Sherene Delgado


I gaze into the mirror to look at my own reflection
The image of a person who is now only a shadow of herself
The innocence finally gone
I no longer have hope
Hope that there is still good in the world
I'm not who I once was
I'm not what I wanted to be
I see the chaos I make around me
Yet I have no remorse for those I've hurt
For those who once cared about me
Who now look at me with only anger in their eyes?
I became my own worst enemy out of fear of the world
Fear of letting others come close to me
Fear of them rejecting me for being who I am
There is nothing but chaos in my life
I feel nothing but hate
I know my hate will finally cause my end
But I don't care anymore
I welcome it
Maybe then I can find peace
Peace that I could never find in my life


Love's Secret

by

Sherene Delgado

Friendship is all I'll ever have from you
It is all I'll ever know of you
I can never have you
Yet I can't fight my need
The need to be near you
To hear you speak my name
You'll never realize the affect your presence has on me
The way one smile from your lips stops my breath...
My heart
A kind word from you brightens even my darkest days
Everyday I counted the moments until I see you
Until I can hear your voice
Until I can see your smile again
Yet you see me only as a friend
A person you can talk to and nothing else
I had always hoped for a small place in your heart
Only because you take such a big part out of mine


If Only

by

Sherene Delgado


Now that your gone I don't know what to do
I lived my life only for you
To be near you
You never knew the depth of my feelings
Never saw the way I brightened when you walked in the room
You can never imaged how deep my love is for you
Never know how much of my life you still control
I wish I could hear your voice
The voice that still haunts my dreams
Now that your gone I feel nothing but sorrow
I wish I would have had the courage back then
To be brave enough to tell you these things when you were with me
Now You'll never know
Now I only have regret
Regret for what I didn't do when I had the chance
Regret for not having the courage to tell you what I've written now
I only hope that I get the chance to....
One day
Maybe then the shadows you left behind won't haunt me anymore


Tempting Death

by

Sherene Delgado


I beckon you every night in my dreams
I think about you in my days
Yet you never come to me
I tempt you in every way I can
Yet it doesn't seem enough
I know your not my enemy
I know you wait
You wait until you think my time here is done
But I can't wait
The pain I've suffered is too much
The past is too clear for me to forget
I rather live a short life
Then suffer a long death
Each day I die a little
My body wasting away with each tear I shed
Tears for a lost childhood
Lost dreams...
Lost hope...
My lost of faith in the world and it's people
I have tried to be patient
I know you understand me
I just wish you would help me
I know my quest for freedom is selfish
But it's all I ask of you


Understanding You

by

Sherene Delgado


You make the world how you want it to be
As you thought it to be
You change things to suit your needs
Your desires
Never caring about who you hurt in return
Never caring about me
After all you don't feel any of the pain you've caused
You never saw my face after you've hurt me once again
You never noticed how one word from could me feel small
You know your selfish
Yet you can't help it you've said
Am I suppose to suffer through it?
I've tried my best to be there for you
Even after all you've done
But I can't anymore
I won't
You don't care about me
If you had love me at all you would not have hurt me so
I'm tired of all of your cruelty
Of the sadness you've brought into my life
Maybe after I'm gone you'll realize your mistake
But by then it will be too late


My Best

by

Sherene Delgado

I had always done my best for you
Even when you made me cry
Never would I show such a weakness in front of you though
I could not understood why everything I did was wrong
Why my love wasn't a good enough reason for you to love me back
When I was young... you were the world to me
Even when you put me down
Now that I'm older I see thing clearer

You don't look as though you care about what I went through
What you put me through
You've move forward in your life
I can't

Memories of the past is all I think of
Memories of the nights I cried myself to sleep
The feeling of defeat after realizing that once again I failed in your eyes
I remember that well
That was what I felt the day I finally realized that my best would never be good enough for you
You never understood your power over me
Or maybe you did
At times I thought you wanted to break my spirit
You never could though
I wonder if that was what angered you so much?
That I was stronger then you thought
That I would never give up no matter how much you put me down
All I ever wanted was for you to say you were proud of me
To hear you say you loved me
But you never did

Even now I catch myself doing things to please you
In hopes to just one day hear those words I've waited for all my life
I had hope to one day make you proud of me
But I know I won't
I know now that my best isn't enough for you
It never will be enough for you
All I can hope for now is that you will at least accept me for who I am
For the person you've made me


Loving you

by

Sherene Delgado


I wait every day to see that smile
To be near you
To see your face
Some say your plain
To me ...you're the world
You're in my every thought
My every dream
You're all I've ever wanted
But could never have
I feel your presence all around me
I know I shouldn't but I do
It pains me to be close
Knowing I can never have you
You'll never see me the way I see you
I ask myself constantly
"Why not me"
No one will ever love you more then I do
Just one touch from you is all I crave
It's all I've ever wished for
Yet you'll never know
I'll never tell you
The risk of losing your friendship is too great
Tomorrow is a new day
But for me it will be the same as all the others
Another day without you near me
Another day without your love
Though I can't have you I wish you the best
I just hope that one day you'll realize the best was right in front of you
Me


The Thin Line

by

Sherene Delgado



I don't know whether to love or hate you
At times you border the two
You have such a big part of my heart
But I don't feel you deserve it
How can someone I love so much makes me cry so often
But you do
Yet you never seem to care
You never let yourself see that youíre not the only one in pain
Especially when youíre the cause of that pain
But who is to blame
You for doing this to me
Or myself for allowing it to happen?
I tried to block my heart from you.... But failed
You say you want me to be happy
Yet I can't be myself around you
I have to be who you want me to be
I've never really made mistakes in my life
Because you never let me
You never gave me a choice
Something you were always given
Because of this I often resent you for a simple reason...
Instead of regretting the things I did
I look sadly upon all I didnít get to do or experience
Because of you
You were able to live a life how you saw fit to live it
I'm still waiting for mine to start.


The Lessons We Learn

by

Sherene Delgado


It is a difficult job to be me
To be the mediator to parents who canít stay in the same room
Who donít understand each other anymore
Who often argue...through me
But I stand silently and endure
To be me means
To be the protector of a sister who is still too young to be seeing this kind of anger
Especially having it come from the two people she loves the most
My job to her is to protect her the best I can
Which is often not enough to stop the tears from coming down her cheeks
Often her anger is release onto me
But I stand silently and endure
I'm left to battle this alone
A job I never ask for... but was given
Because I'm the "strong" one
The "strong" daughter who never ask to be strong
Who only wanted to be a child
But I stand silently and endure
A happy childhood is a luxury I will never have
Unlike the oldest who is long gone
Gone before the trouble started
A sister who was never really a sister to me
A person who left me here alone while she went to find happiness
Only I know she will never find what she seeks
Happiness is never long lasting
I understand that now
But I stand silently and endure
I just wish we could be the happy family we use to be
Why I could not have what I've always dreamed of
A mother who cared about my feelings
A father who just...cared about me
Even a little
But as I learned long ago
Dreams never come true
A simple fact we all come to live with it
Another thing we have to suffer through
No home is a happy home
No matter how much you pretend
In the end all you can do is...
Stand silently and endure


Mankind

by

Sherene Delgado



Within you is the power to be free
To love without restraint
To see what is not clear
To live without regret
We often do not feel the power within
Because of the fear of what is inside our head
Inside our hearts
The body is a mysteries thing
Only time will show you how to release what you hold inside


Promises Of Tomorrow

by

Sherene Delgado



When I think of the day you went away
I'm left with only my tears, My memories
I never understood why you left without saying goodbye
And now I see that I was to blame
I pushed you away
Never caring about what you had to say
I see I was wrong
But I keep holding onto my hope
The wish that one day you'll forgive me
That you'll say you love me once again
I hurt you so deep
I see that now
I cause you so much pain yet...
In the end I felt like I would die
Without you here near me


Unforgetable You

by

Sherene Delgado


Times goes by so fast
We often do not realize it until it passes us by
Until we look in the mirror and see what weíve become
As we get older we realize many things
We begin to appreciate all we have
And look sadly upon all weíve lost
Time does not take from us
It only gives
It gives us time to learn
To understand
To accept everything that goes on in our lives
But in the end it leaves us with only our memories
Sometimes only our tears are there to comfort us
To give us solace for all we had to endure
For all that we know we can not change


Monster Within

by

Sherene Delgado


The sneaky thief that comes with no warning
The pain
The despair he causes
Yet does not care
The brief cure we produce only hides us from his view
Hides us until he sees clearly once again
Until he comes after us again
There is no escape from his embrace
For he comes for you subtly
From deep within you
You try to fight him
But you become his victims
His prize
For all time
Never realizing you can break away
But only until you face him
Until you take control
Of what is to come


To Never Know

by

Sherene Delgado

Deceitful

Liar

Manipulator

That is what they told me
But I never listened
I couldn't see what they saw
Not until now
A lessoned learned some may say
I realize now you see what you want to see
I thought you would never hurt me
That you really cared about me
About my feelings
I was wrong
I realize that now
I have a wall around my heart
A wall I built from past hurts
A wall that you snuck though
I tried so hard to protect myself from the hurt
The hurt they thought you would cause me
I see once again that I failed
Now I have to suffer more knowing what I know
A pain that could have been prevented some may say
I should have listened to those who really cared about me
Instead of the person who didn't
I just hope one day you realize that you lost a true friend
True friendship is rare in this world
Even for those who seek it
After everything that has happened I'm not sure who is worst off
Me....
A person who lost someone they cared about
Or you....
A person who will never realize what they lost when you lost me


Our Little Good-Byes

by

Sherene Delgado


Graduation is a time to reflect on life
A time where we know it's time to let go and move ahead
As we move forward in our life
Our future
We leave behind all we've shared
The pain
The laughter
Our memories
We never realize till the end that these few years impact our future
That these few years we've shared will forever be in our hearts
Each person we have met along the way has changed us somehow
A simple smile to brighten the day
A shoulder for us to cry on
Each of these things our so simple yet leave a great impact on the heart
So to those who leave your childhood behind today I write this to say one thing
Many of the people you meet along the way you may never see again
But they will always be with you
In your heart


This Is Me

by

Sherene Delgado


I live in this cloudy world I've created for myself
No sunlight coming in
No life dwelling inside
Evil is what you call me
How I will always be to you
No person can change me
Because I do not want to be changed
Sinner
Manipulator
Deceiver
This is how you see me
You don't know me
If you did you would know that is not who I am
You see me as being cold hearted
Never realizing it was not by choice
But out of necessity
This is how I protect myself
How I survived
But you couldnít understand that
You never realized the fear I had inside
The fear of being hurt
The fear of having my heart torn once again
A pain that I fought so hard to forget
You said I could trust you
That you would accept me for who I am
I knew you could never accept the true me
You tried to change me
But couldn't
Now this shell I've made for myself is forever here
To protect the person no one could accept


Mom

by

Sherene Delgado


I realize that all people are given gifts
The gift of life,
Love
The gift of happiness
But I am thankful everyday that I was given the greatest gift of all
...You
You have taught me that things are not always perfect
That even the strongest of people struggle along the way
You taught me to understand this and realize it is all right
That no one is perfect...
Only human
Because of this I enjoy what I have and am thankful for it
I have learned many lessons from you
Lessons that I will use when I have kids of my own
I leave you with these last words
Love is the biggest gift you have given me
I hope one day I am able to give you such a gift
A gift that would do justice for what you have given me


Missing You

by

Sherene Delgado



Everyday I wish and pray to see you again
To see your face
To hear your laughter
Even if it's only for a short time
My last memories of you is of that smile
The smile you always had ready for me
You always made me feel better whenever I was down
I only wish I could do the same for you
Time passes us by day by day
Yet we do not see
We do not realize it till the day has past us by
Until all we are left with are our memories
Our regrets
Though I have regrets from the past
I will never regret loving you for who you are
Because that is all you've ever done for me


Mirror Image

by

Sherene Delgado



I gaze into the mirror to look at my own reflection
The image of a person who is now only a shadow of herself
The innocence finally gone
I no longer have hope
Hope that there is still good in the world
I'm not who I once was
I'm not what I wanted to be
I see the chaos I make around me
Yet I have no remorse for those I've hurt
For those who once cared about me
Who now look at me with only anger in their eyes?
I became my own worst enemy out of fear of the world
Fear of letting others come close to me
Fear of them rejecting me for being who I am
There is nothing but chaos in my life
I feel nothing but hate
I know my hate will finally cause my end
But I don't care anymore
I welcome it
Maybe then I can find peace
Peace that I could never find in my life


Fallen From Grace

by

Sherene Delgado

As the dusks settles from above
The light shines through
Yet there is no light below
Broken spirits is all that are left
Crushed, not by the hand of fate
But by the hand of ignorance.
Lives taken before their time
Not men,
Nor women,
But humans
Whose only crimes were that they lived differently.
With their leaving,They left a nation in shambles
Confused, bruised, and battered.
We have known pain and have been hurt,
But never so deep or so thoroughly.
We have anger for people we do not know.
Some are so blinded by it,
They hurt others who are in pain themselves
There are no victims now.
Only survivors.
There will be a time when this will only be a distant memory
A page in a book, a footnote in time
And I fear for the future when they do not learn from the past
I fear ignorance and hate cannot end
Until we realize that though we are different on the outside
We are all the same within.


Vulnerable

by

Sherene Delgado


To be open to all that is out there
The uncertainty of what is to come your way
The feeling of helplessness to what is happening to me
Knowing that I can stop it
But I won't
I know what will happen if I let it continue
Yet I can not control myself
Like a moth who sees the flame
Though I know it will be my end I am still drawn to it
Yet the end to what?
My life...or who I am?


Fire And Ice

by

Sherene Delgado

He melts me from my icy stance
A simple smile
A simple touch
He makes me feel when I do not want too
I am for once, powerless to my own desires
Yet am I the only one affected by this curse?
Does he not suffer from the same illness?
He comes and goes
Yet I am still left with the feel of his touch
A permanent mark in my mind
I hate him....
Yet I can not seem to come up with the power to stay away from him
This game of fire and ice surrounds us
And I stand there watching as I am consumed by it


If the truth were told...

by

Sherene Delgado


the lies within lies
you use the ones you love to hide your secrets
they protect you from the ugly reality youíve created
while they marvel at your perfection
the beauty of your face that conceal the ugliness within
a pretty package that hides the suffering you cause with a ready smile
no one else has ever matter but you in your mind
too fragile to face life and the ugliness it holds for the simple people
yet you seem willing to bring down those who look at the possibilities life offers
what would happen if the truth were told?
would the light that shines upon you dim?
or would it burn out completely?
would you feel sorry for what youíve done ?
would you have sympathy for those youíve hurt?
or will you just find another shield to cloak your true self?


My Heart

by

Sherene Delgado

I once had a bird.
I protected it so
Eat day I feed it and watched it grow
With time and patience
I waited till the bird was healthy enough to make it on its own
One sunny day I set it free into the world around
And allowed it to live on its own
When the sky grew dark
And the weather grew cold
I looked out my window to see my bird come home
The feathers were dirty
And its face looked sad
Then I knew it finally experience the world like I had.
With mended wounds
I set it free once again
So it can find the happiness I know the world has give


Love

by

Sherene Delgado

I'll never know what it is to love
To feel happiness at the sound of a voice
To smile at the first site of his face
I'll never know what it is to feel loved
To be held in his arms with the caress of someone who cares
To be kissed by a man who has no other motive but to show he cares
I'll never know what it is to touch love
Because how can I find something i've never seen


My Own Personal Dragon

by

Sherene Delgado


The protective dragon that surrounds my heart
The fiery flame it wields to ward off those who challenge it
Yet at the same time keeping the heart within cold to the touch
My poor helpful friend does what he does out of love for me
To protect me from the cruel world surrounding us both
His strength and courage helps him face the world
His kindness tells him to share the wisdom with me
Yet he never realizes the damage he does to me
He could not understand how much I hurt
He lives for me
I live through him
I watch as he hides the world from me
And though his intentions are pure
I still cry silently for the world I will never know


Looking Through The Hurt

by

Sherene Delgado


The world is blurry when looking through your tears
Are the dark skies above a sign of what is to come?
Behind you is past hurts
In front of you is the unknown
You walk in a daze
Not knowing who to trust with your heart
Not even knowing if you can trust yourself with it
A Constant fight with the world around you
In a never ending war with yourself
How can one look at the world with hurt eyes?
Eyes that now only see the bad in a world full of possibilities


Dangerous Beauty

by

Sherene Delgado


I know your every thought
Your every dream
Yet you know nothing about me
You see what I allow you to see
What you want to see
A pretty face
A gentle smile
A smile that I give you even as I plan my next move
My unsuspecting fool I think
Never realizing that I will leave you after I am through with you
Another fly in a complex web that I have built though the years
A web, it seems, even I can not get away from


Let Me Let Go

by

Sherene Delgado


There is no freedom in letting you go
At least there is no such reward for me
I am still plague with thoughts of you
What is it about you that will not let me let go
It is not your looks for I have met cuter men
It is not your personality for I have met sweeter men
What is it that holds me in this torturous place?
I can not move back because the ground would fall under the weight of my burden
Yet you will not let me move forward
I am left dangling in the uncertainty of what is to come
While you watch above me holding the rope and my heart


My Cousin

by

Sherene Delgado


I see your smile
A smile that has never changed
Your once innocent brown eyes are now full of the knowledge the world has given you
Your once empty heart is now full of what life has given you
The pain,
The laughter
When experiencing one we often forget the other
Youíre leaving soon cousin
Off to find your own path in the world
When you leave
You leave behind the past
But you take your knowledge with you
With each tear you have shed you became stronger
For the knowledge helped you grow and move on
Each time your heart was torn
I sat and watched until it was mended
Knowing you carried the knowledge of how it feels to love
Knowledge that I know has taught you how you want to be loved
As a new dawn arrives
So does a new day
As well as a new lesson in life
Whether they be good or bad
Enjoy all life has to give
Because no matter the outcome in the end always know to me...
Youíre perfect the way you are


An Unknown Angel

by

Sherene Delgado



Tears for the future
To wash away the past
I'll never know if you had my smile
I'll never see your face light up
The way my own did when I knew you were on your way.
I'll never know what you would have looked like when you had grown up
A victim of circumstance
A victim to free choice
Your were never really with me
Yet you still are with me in my heart
In my heart is where I see the smile you never got to give me
In my mind are the visions of the memories I was never given
Your first Christmas
Your first cut
Your first laugh
Life never gave you a chance
You were never given a choice
Though in reality you are gone
In my mind you will always live on


The eyes of the past

by

Sherene Delgado



You don't understand how hard it is to look into your eyes
The eyes which are the only part of you that has never changed
Itís hard for me to realize that someday the person I love the most will be gone
I stare at you and I realize that one day you won't be here with me
You will leave me here alone
That thought plagues my mind every time I am with you
Until all I am left with is sadness and fear
You were always my foundation
The safe place I could turn to when I felt no one cared
When you leave I donít know what will become of the person you loved so much
All the good I found in myself was because of you
You kept the demons at bay in my mind with your love
I just hope that I wonít disappoint you


The pain the truth causes

by

Sherene Delgado

Itís hard for me to know the truth
That the love I thought we had was not real
That light that burned so brightly in your eyes was not there because you loved me
But because I was there
I was a convenience for you
All the dreams and hopes I had for us have now been torn away from me
By you
I think back to all the times you said you loved me
That I was the only one for you
It hurts knowing the one I loved more then myself
Can lie so easily to me
My illusion of our love is just that
An illusion


The Lies We Tell

by

Sherene Delgado

I gaze at the stars above in the never-ending sky
And try to understand why the world has become what it is
A haven for violence
A world so full of bitterness and rage that we are often blinded by it
There does not seem to be enough love to go around
Yet enough tears to fill the ocean
I have seen the tears of a friend whoís been touched by this disease
And wonder where was god
Our protector
Our savior
Our lie
The lie for which we tell ourselves so we can feel safe once again
A wish we hope for but have never seen proof of
To build a society on a lie is to prepare for a fall
For the foundation we stand on has too many holes to be stable
All I seek are answers
All I get are more questions
Questions that seem to have no answers


Foolish

by

Sherene Delgado

Look what you've done to me
Youíve made me what I have never wanted to be
Weak, naive, even foolish
How do you do this to me?
Why do I let you?
I sit back
I wait
Hoping things will change
But as the time ticks away
I know it is a dream that will never come true
Yet your brown eyes tell me you care
And I fall into the same trap all over again.
This foolish game I allow you to play with my heart
Never knowing how or when did it start
When did I let you get the best of me?
You take and take until there is nothing left of me
You leave with your smile
I leave with my tears
You leave with my heart
I'm left with my fears


Sleep

by

Sherene Delgado

Let me go to sleep
To dream another dream
Where I am with you
To see your happy smile with no barrier in between
I live my life for you
I try my best to be near you
Always know that though we are not near each other
You are just a dream away from me
And always know you are with me in my heart


Friendship

by

Sherene Delgado

A helping hand
When I need to be lifted from the ground
Someone who makes me smile
When it seems I have nothing to smile about
Someone who shows they care
When the world has seemed to have abandoned me
A true friend,
A rare gift,
In one's lifetime you will meet many who claim to be a friend
As time goes on
As the wind turns cold
You will see many slither away to safety
But your true friends will stay with you to weather the storm
And to guide you to shelter


Beauty Within

by

Sherene Delgado

You cry often for all you hide inside
The secrets no one can know
I know when you look into the mirror you do not see the beauty you have
But all that you have deemed ugly
It hurts to know that I can not help you
That this lesson must be learned by experience
Not by example
To find the beauty within is a hard road to take
A road that is even harder to find
After all if the road to acceptance was an easy one people would not suffer so
Until you find the path you need to take
I'll be here for you to guide your way


Beauty

by

Sherene Delgado

When I gaze at your face all I can see is the beauty you have both inside and out
Time ages people
But it does not take the beauty you have
Instead it shows you all you have inside
It allows you to see how beautiful you really are
It gives you time to accept all you can not change
And be thankful for all you have
I love you for all the things you are
And all that you are not
You have been my guidance through the storms
The bright light I hold near my heart that shows me the way
Youíre in my heart where you belong
And where you shall stay.


The lies we tell

by

Sherene Delgado

I gaze at the stars above in the never-ending sky
And try to understand why the world has become what it is
A haven for violence
A world so full of bitterness and rage that we are often blinded by it
There does not seem to be enough love to go around
Yet enough tears to fill the ocean
I have seen the tears of a friend whoís been touched by this disease
And wonder where was god
Our protector
Our savior
Our lie
The lie for which we tell ourselves so we can feel safe once again
A wish we hope for but have never seen proof of
To build a society on a lie is to prepare for a fall
For the foundation we stand on have too many holes to be stable
All I seek are answers
All I get are more questions
Questions that seem to have no answers


Cinderella

by

Sherene Delgado

I once wished for a fairy tale life
To find a prince who would take me away
To find a person who would love me above all else
I felt that I would spend my life looking for this dream
And then I found you
Iím not sure what caught my eyes first
Your eyes or that smile you always have ready for me
I feared by loving you I would lose myself
Who I am
Instead I found myself
I became complete
With your love I found the acceptance I have always hoped for
You helped me find my happy ending
To a story I never realized I started


A Gift

by

Sherene Delgado

To look for love is the bravest thing one can do
You subject yourself to the broken hearts
To suffer the regrets of all you wish you did or said
All in hopes to find that perfect someone who will love you unconditionally
By trying to find love you cry many tears
Until you find that person who makes the pain go away
The person who with just a smile or a touch clears your mind of the past sorrows
I found that person in you
You made me realize that I donít have to be perfect to be loved
Because of you I realized love can not be found
But is given when you least expect it
To find love is the greatest gift I have ever received
And it was given by the person I love the most


To Live With Hate

by

Sherene Delgado

People live with hate all the time
Never realizing the price they will pay
Living with hate punishes you by leaving you to suffer alone
You slowly see with time that you are left behind alone
Loneliness is your reward that you receive for all your efforts
A price youíll soon regret


The other road

by

Sherene Delgado

When I look at you I see the past
All the times we were there for each other
All the times where we wanted to kill one another
Memories. Good or bad that I would never change
I see us laughing
I see us fighting
All the while stilling loving one another
Loving each other enough to be honest with our feelings
Knowing you would not think less of me
You knowing the same goes for you
As the time past us by
Our childhood became a distant memory
We grew up together
We changed together
Though each in our own way
Those changes prepared us for the future
I had always understood that one day we both would go down our own path
Where that road would lead to, neither of us knows
But deep within, we know the other will be there waiting in the underbrush
Waiting incase the other needed a helping hand
There have been times where the path I have taken became a dark one
Where I had been lost within
Not knowing where I am
Nor where I was going
Then somewhere in the underbrush a hand arose leading me to clarity
You have always been my sanity
Whether you knew it or not
As you go down your path in life I send these word with you
Never sell yourself short
Never doubt your importance
For the smallest gesture can impact someoneís life forever
And if ever in need.... Remember. I'm behind the tree.


Slightly Shady

by

Sherene Delgado



To sing a song of praise
To one who does not know the power of her presence.
Her smile brightens the darkest hour
While her laughter reminds us how it feels to be alive
She is unaware of the beauty that she possesses
Both inside and out
Which is what makes her so beautiful to those she surrounds
Sheís not perfect
A fact that she knows
Yet she embraces the quirks she possesses
Showing those around her that it's okay to be slightly shady
The beauty in her heart
The beauty in her face
Are all gifts that she has bestowed to those around her
To those who can not help but love her just the way she is.


Difference

by

Sherene Delgado



There is no difference between you and I
Our skin may be different
Or maybe our size.
But my blood runs red
And we cry the same tears
We walk around each other
Because we have different fears.
To be liked.
To be loved.
We do not understand that we are all different.
But we all want to be loved just the same.


Absence of the heart

by

Sherene Delgado

An empty shell
with not even hope left inside
An empty heart
With no love inside for myself
As I live
I know I destroy what is around me
I leave only my destructive presence
The world changes around us
I do not
I live separately
Keeping my distance from the possible pains of life
I don't want to fall apart
Yet I can not stay whole
And in the end
As time has shown me before
I am left once again alone.


Bitch

by

Sherene Delgado

Lifeís a bitch
And apparently so am I
Yet people never seem to wonder why
Why are you so cold?
Why donít you care?
When I look into my eyes
I no longer see anything there
Am I dead inside?
Or just lost within
Everything is cloudy
As I watch my world spin
Round and round it goes in a flash
Destroying everything in its path,
The crying
The laughter
The pain,
In the end all I am left with is my shattered hope


Where we began

by

Sherene Delgado



How could you do this to me?
I give you my love
My respect
Yet you take it all and leave me wondering why
Why do I bother?
Why do I care?
Questions I can really no longer answer
Yet I continue loving you just the same
Wondering if you feel the same way
If not...
Can I accept the truth?
When I am clouded by the past
When we needed each other
When we knew each other
I love you
I would do anything for you
But each day I slowly see that
Sometimes love just is not enough.


Pitch Black

by

Sherene Delgado


Dark skies
A lonely night
To gain happiness you must fight
Yet at what cost
Lose yourself
To gain knowledge
To lose your soul
To feel loved
Is the end worth all of the pain?
The tears?
Or do you once again fool yourself
Into thinking there's a chance for happiness
When in the end
Sometimes you realize you lived your life
In a dreaming state.


Lying bastard

by

Sherene Delgado



"Trust in me"
You said with your voice so sweet
"Would I lie?"
The truth...
I could see it in your eyes
I loved you
Though I'll never know why
You became everything to me.
So much that I couldn't see
Even as the truth was in front of me.
You held your hand out in front of you
And you slowly stole my heart
I'll always remember the smile on your face
As you walked out of my life
And took all that I held dear to me.
Even the part of me I never realized I could lose.


Emotions

by

Sherene Delgado


I never tried to change you.
You never did.
I never wanted to blame you.
You never admitted Blame.
I did my best to accept you, as some may not have been able to do
You used it to your advantage
I loved you
I guess you never felt the same
I sacrifice for you
I know you would not do the same for me.
I did the best I could when it came to you
No matter how I felt.
In the end...
I know how foolish I must have seem to someone like you
I once thought we were one.
One entity
One mind with the same thoughts
But now I know we are not
I guess when love is not enough
You have to learn to be strong and move on
So live your life as you see fit to
I wish you only happiness
Because that is all I ever wanted for you
I hold no hate
Nor anger for you
Because you are no longer in my life
The choice was yours alone to make
The path you choose
Irrevocable.
Life will do with you as it sees fit to
Only this time I will no longer care as to what is the outcome to your life's story.
For I will no longer be a part of it.
I didn't want to lose you
I don't want to hate you
But I don't want to be the one who cries any longer.


The end

by

Sherene Delgado



The end is near
A friendship that has reached its end
The time had past us both by
Leaving behind the linger thought of...
What have we become?
Where do we go from here?
The path that seemed so clear for us at one point
Now is nothing but memories of what once was
To love is to hate
To feel is to regret
The cycle of life
A cycle of pain
Pain that lingers
But eventually fades away
Along with my need for you in my life.


The Quiet settling in

by

Sherene Delgado


Shut up
Listen to me
Try to see what I see with my eyes
My pain is real
My hurt is deep
Shut up for once
Please try to see
See me
Who I am
Beyond what
Or who you think I am
You never see me
You see beyond me
You look through me
Never paying attention to what is really there in front of you
Iím tired of tears falling from my own cheeks
Wiping each away with my hands
Hands that are so tired of fighting to try and reach out to you
Empty space is what I walk away from you with
What I take with me to sleep
The sadness I am left with is what I dream about
So please for once
Shut up
And try to see the real me
Before there is nothing left to see


The games we play

by

Sherene Delgado



An interesting thought has popped into my head
Where would your life be without me?
I guide your every move without you even realizing it
I made you
I shaped you to the very image of my choosing
Yet youíre an "individual"
A "self-reliant" person
One, who doesn't need me in their life
You donít need me you say...
Yet you are nothing without me
I protected you
Even from yourself
Who will keep your demons at bay now that you are alone...
Once again.
Who will protect you from all you try to hold inside
The secrets you hide from the world around you.
Will the world you so gallantly walk through
Consume you before your very eyes
Will that open your eyes to what the world really holds for you?
Will you falter?
Even a little?
Or will your choices finally come crashing down on you?


The Selfish things we do

by

Sherene Delgado



My moon in the dark of the night
You asked me to open my heart to you
To allow myself to take a chance
And perhaps even find love in myself for you
With your ready smile you somehow convince me to believe in you
To take a chance
Even as my mind screamed for me to stop
"Think of myself" I thought in my head
Think of the aftermath if things go wrong
Like they always do for me.
Yet my heart won out.
I slowly opened my life to you.
I allowed you to see parts of me.
I slowly started to feel that I had finally won my battle with love
A victory that was short live
As you walked out of my life
"I'm not ready" you said
Not ready I thought as the tears fell from my eyes
You felt the risk was too great for you to handle?
You could not take the chance you told me.
Even after you convinced me to put all I had on the line
You cry to me because of all you have to suffer from
"I still love you" you tell me
But I guess not enough to take the chance that I took for you


Clueless

by

Sherene Delgado


I'm clueless you say
Never seeing the big picture
Wandering through my life without a real sense of knowledge
Without experiencing how life really is.
But I do see the big picture
You will just never know it.
I see how life is each passing day.
As my thoughts cloud my mind.
As I think of the knowledge I possess.
I saw how life was when a man invaded my body against my will.
I saw how man was when he stole my innocence from me.
My soul is no longer with me because I have experienced life.
Yet I'm clueless to you.
I gained knowledge through watching my parents fight.
As they used me against the other.
I gained knowledge by watching how unhappy two people can make each other.
Yet I am clueless to you.
I am far from being clueless
My eyes have been open longer then you think.
I have witness the world in a far brighter light then one should.
And have seen aspects of humanity that should remain in the dark of night.
Just because I learned to hide my pain better then most.
Just because I learned to move forward rather then dwell on the past.
I am clueless to you.
You are wrong.
I am not clueless to the world,
But you will just never know.


While you were sleeping

by

Sherene Delgado

While you were sleeping
I grew up
But you never showed that you noticed
While you were sleeping
I learned lessons that changed my life
But you never showed you cared
While you were sleeping
I changed into the person I am today
But you never realized that I was different from yesterday.
All of this happened
While you were sleeping through my life
While I was experience what the world has to give
You were walking in a dream state where everything was happy
Nothing in your mind was less then perfect
Imperfection was not allowed
So I wasnít allowed in your life
While you were sleeping
The world around you changed
And so did I


Fenced in

by

Sherene Delgado

Let me out
Of this cage you made for me
Society fears what it does not understand.
Fear is what shapes the world,
What keeps me in my cage.
Life never gave me a choice on what I was to be
Only how I choose to live on
I'm no different from you
I want to find love
To be loved just the same
But I'm trapped in a cage to small for me to spread my wings
To fly away and be free from all that holds me here
Let me out of this cage you made for me
Let me fly away
Let me be free


Sleep well

by

Sherene Delgado



Random thoughts pop in my head
Like "you slimy bastard I wish you were dead"
Your evil deeds can not be undone
You did hurt to me through what you called "fun"
My hate for you is beyond the words I can find
My revenge for you will come to you with time
Each day I think and plan some more
Until the day youíll find that I have snuck through your back door
Silently I'll come for you deep in the night
From where?
You wonít know for I'll be out of sight
Sleep well my dear friend
Let no worries come your way
Sleep well my friend
For when I will come for you,
Youíll not know what day.


Sparks

by

Sherene Delgado


rocks can spark a certain light
to keep it burning you have to fight
to lose control means youíll surely lose
to lose a love that could have been true
so fight your wars
and win your battles
for the game of love is one that not all can handle


Worlds collides

by

Sherene Delgado


The worlds crashing around you
Or is that in my head
You being accounted for your crimes
Or is that in my wishful mind
I love you
Now I hate you
A fitting end to something that started from hate
I hated my life
You hated yours
We bound together and formed a friendship with that key member
But hate consumes
And lies spread
The world is blurring before my eyes
Or is it becoming more focus
As my illusions fly away
Or am I building more lies
To hide a new day.


Victim of the mind

by

Sherene Delgado


Youíre the worldís victim
Or so you feel
You add another tear to the ocean each day
Life is not worth living to you
You ask "why am I here"
But do you really know what pain is?
Itís the feeling of loneliness when no one cares,
Not because you feel no one cares or tried to.
Itís to cry the tears of sadness of wasted years gone by
Thinking about all the wasted time you could have been happy,
But wouldnít.
You dwell on what youíre not willing to change.
LIFE IS NOT PERFECT.
THE WORLD IS NOT PERFECT.
Each day the heart hurts from new wounds
Each day you make a decision to stand or die
To stand, is to fight for another day
Another chance to make a change.
To die, is to admit defeat,
To give up your right to hope.
Donít lie down.
Youíre stronger than you know
The world has more than you know.
Stand and make a change for the world
And for yourself.


Dawning day

by

Sherene Delgado


No more thoughts
No more crying
No more wishful thoughts of dying
A new day has come
Bringing forth the light of the dawn
The darkness fading into day
As understanding shows the way
Who I am
Who I'm to be
Each day I slowly see
I'm not a perfect person
Nor do I want to be
In the end I just want to be me


Boys

by

Sherene Delgado

I'm tired of boys,
And there little games.
I'm tired of their sweet smiles,
That hide their lies.
I want someone I can grow with,
Not one who walks behind me confused.
I know what I want.
I know what I need,
And I'm tired of boys.
Of the little games they play,
Yet know nothing about.
They try to walk in shoes too big for them,
Then they trip on me.
Boys donít understand me,
So I need one who does.
Someone who is willing to try to understand me.
Who can walk beside me,
And hold my hand.
While we experience the world together.


Mercy

by

Sherene Delgado

Mercy is a concept I do not understand.
Something you do not deserve.
Loneliness,
Longing,
Is what I wish for you.
To be alone,
To be lost,
Is what I pray for you
To be hurt,
To be helpless,
Like you made me feel.
I do not understand "mercy"
Nor shall you see it from me,
As I cut you down piece by piece.


Remembrance

by

Sherene Delgado


A time for change.
A time to let go.
The past is gone.
Life has left,
And moved on.
Tears that filled our eyes,
Have filled once again.
As we remember what we lost.
When all we knew disappeared in a moment.
Life was forever gone.
Our memories burned deep within the walls of our mind.
It is a new day,
But history has been made.
As a new page was turned.
To those I've lost,
But never knew.
Who died with honor and pride.
Who left us with their heads held high.
You are gone,
But not forgotten.


When I come around

by

Sherene Delgado

I've seen it all before.
You running for the door.
Youíve been living peacefully,
Not having to see me.
A reminder is what you didnít want to see.
Now donít be selfish
You knew it would come to this.
You had to see me.
Had to deal with me.
Thereís no hiding from me.
As youíve learned time and again.
There is no time to search the world around,
When I come around.
You ran from the past.
You ran from the future.
When will you stop running,
And deal with what you made of your life.
When will you tire?
When will you grow up and understand?
Life doesnít stop for you.
Problems donít go leave if you turn away,
Or close your eyes.
Youíll see,
When I come around.


A small world

by

Sherene Delgado

You couldnít understand us,
We couldnít show you who we were
Life was to short for us to stop and explain
You were not willing to go at our pace
We were not willing to justify why we exist to you
We had no reason to
The shouts,
The screams,
The silence.
The understanding of what happens when there is difference in the world
The understanding of permanent change
Nothing is the same
Nothing is as it was
Time can not go back
Only forward
But for a second,
Time stopped
At least for me
Why couldn't
They understand us
What was wrong with us that they felt we deserved this?
We were different
So were they.
But is that so wrong.
Is a little difference in the world worth the pain you caused?
Or were you scared of the change it would cause?


The path ahead

by

Sherene Delgado

The faith in your heart
That some try to hide
Is what makes you the person I love from inside
You feel you are lost
That you don't know the way
But in your heart you know he'll guide you each day
Follow your heart
But open your mind
For all things in life
Must have patience and time.


More then you know

by

Sherene Delgado


I mean you no harm
Just to show you the world as it really is
No false icon
No black
Nor white
Just shades of gray
Through a brighter light
The world is bigger than you believe
As your mind opens you slowly come to see
My view is not one like yours
I can't go through life not opening doors
Walking down a narrow path leading to my salvation
Or damnation.
I mean you no harm
Just to show you that there is value in diversity.


A rhythmic dance

by

Sherene Delgado


I donít play games
A fact we are both aware of
I don't make promises I don't plan to keep
As I have proven once again
I donít hurt easily
As time has shown
Make up your damn mind
Do you think I have time for these little games?
Back and forth your indecisive mind goes
Leaving me wondering as to what is going on
What are you thinking?
Do you even know yourself?
Do you even care?
And in the end,
Will it even matter when all is said and done?


The light within

by

Sherene Delgado


To lie,
To tell the truth.
Is there really a difference,
When the result is the same?
Thereís nothing wrong with me,
I tell you
Yet the truth is
Nothing you can see
You canít see I'm broken within
You canít see the pain
Nor the tears I hide while standing in the light
You canít see the secret I hide,
The things I wish I could change
Or have time fade into the background.
Iím broken
My broken pieces came from hiding from the hurt
As each piece was hidden
The light within began to slowly fade
I have nothing to give you
Can you not see?
I have nothing I can give you
At least nothing that I can see


To not know

by

Sherene Delgado

I let the time slip through my fingers
I let the possibilities leave me behind
What did I miss?
Will I get another chance to see?
I must run
Run from the pain
Run from the future
The uncertainty
The unknown
The past is my foundation
What my world built on
What I have learned to deal with
To live is to suffer
But the future is the unknown
The un-experienced
The possibility of suffering more deeply than I already have
Iím afraid of the future
Only because, I've learned from the past


BIG SISTER

by

Sherene Delgado


Itís hard for me to say I hate you anymore
When I do not even know you
I never did really
I only knew what you put me through
How you made me dry late at night
When no one could see me
Why?
I'll never know
Because I'll never ask you
When I became a big sister like you
I started to make the same mistakes you did
I started to hurt the one I should have been protecting
The world is a hurtful and hateful place
You taught me that
But I wanted to shield, rather then show her that lesson
That doesnít make me a better person then you
It doesnít mean you were right in teaching me that lesson
Even though I am stronger because of it
As life happened to me, these lessons would have come my way
I only wished I would have had a big sister who would have protected me
Rather then one who showed me how cruel the world could be


Dark Heaven

by

Sherene Delgado


Out of the dark they come
The soldiers of the night
Taking what they want
Leaving destruction behind.
No sorrow,
No regret,
Only hunger.
Hunger for what they can not have.
Life.
Death.
Blissful freedom,
Instead of endless nights.
Our world is their hell,
Yet their heaven at the same time
Their dark heaven
Surrounded by all they ever wanted
And everything they can not have.


Walk away

by

Sherene Delgado


I was fool to believe in all your lies.
Caught in your little ways,
Holding the pain deep inside.
I've been through this before,
But never witness with such clear eyes.
What do I do?
Now that I donít have you in my life
And it hurts deep inside,
These feelings I have to hide.
All the bitterness.
All the lies you try to hide.
And it hurts me so having to let it go.
I keep holding on to the things I know I need to...
Walk away from.
I was naive,
To never think youíd hurt me.
Caught in my love for you,
It was a thing youíd never do.
Finally I'm proven wrong.
Life lesson number one.
People can make you cry,
When all is said and done.
And it hurts deep inside,
These feelings I can not hide.
All the rage I felt.
Knowing you wouldn't help to ease my pain,
Because to you it is all the same.
I see that now.
But I keep trying to run back to the things I need to...
Walk away from.


Fighter

by

Sherene Delgado


I'm stronger then I'll ever let you know
I'm smarter then I'll ever let myself show
I have value
No matter what you say
Your words canít bring me down
Because I'll remain
Through the yells
Through the pain
I'll stand alone
I'll have no shame to be who I am
Even if I'm not who you want me to be.


Waiting for someone

by

Sherene Delgado

It gets so lonely sometimes as I lay in bed,
Even though youíre near me.
Are we meant to be together?
Or are we, because I'm afraid of what is out there.
Hold me now,
Because I will leave you tomorrow
Am I with you only until my SOMEONE had arrived?
The one I wanted
The one I hoped for without you knowing
But love has its way
All who seek it will suffer from it
You willingly offer your heart to me,
So I lay there with you until my heart comes back to me.


Brandon

by

Sherene Delgado


I tell you I love you,
Yet you push me away.
I tell you I miss you,
But do you miss me the same.
I try so hard to hold you tight,
But empty air is what I hold.
How do I hold onto you when youíre out of my grasp?
All I can do is love you,
To try and show I care.
But in the end will it matter?
Will I be the only one left standing there?
Will you leave me without a heart,
Without a soul to call my own?
Will you go and soar alone in the sky,
As I mend my broken wing.
Your fears I know nothing about,
Yet my own are probably the same.
But the love I feel keeps me holding onto you.
Hoping one day youíll cave.
Hoping that one day youíll see the light in my eyes,
And know itís there because of you.
I wonít leave you as they have done before.
I'll hold on tightly and try to weather the storms.
But in my heart I sometimes fear,
That no matter how hard I try to hold on,
Youíll let go someday and leave me here alone.

Falling in love with you

by

Sherene Delgado


When I look into your eyes,
It makes me want to cry.
How did I live without you?
I lived in a world so cold and unsure.
Then one day I saw you.
With an ordinary smile,
And gentle wiles ,
You crept into my heart,
Into my mind.
But do you really see me when you look into my eyes?
From you I want to hide,
Because with you I could be free.
As I always secretly hoped to be.
Yet freedom has its price.
And I think will it be my heart it takes as payment.
And in the end will my only reward be the broken pieces of me that are left.

Fallen one

by

Sherene Delgado


I'm the fallen one.
The one you look down upon,
But do not see who I really am.
You cast your judgment upon one who still tries to figure out why.
I never lost faith in your guidance.
I never gave up on you.
You gave up on me.
I stumbled.
Yet no one helped me rise.
I had to find my own way up.
The path I choose was not to spite you,
But was because of you.
I'm the fallen one.
The one who waits for someone to lift me from the ground.
The one who is still waiting.
I'm tarnished in your eyes.
So I walk my path alone.
I donít know what you see when you look at me.
I know that you donít see what my heart holds
I know when I look into yours.
I do not see any piece of me within your heart.
So I walk forward alone.
On the path youíve paved for me.
And in the end my only wish ,
Is youíll finally see me.

Standing in the way

by

Sherene Delgado


You once asked me why I could never love you,
And I could not answer you.
It was a question I asked myself a hundred times.
You gave me your love and heart,
Yet I would not accept it.
Because to accept it meant I would have to let go of the past.
I wasnít ready to do that.
You were always so persistent.
I never thought you would give up on me,
Even when you did just that.
When you asked me for the last time to love you ,
You couldnít see how much I hurt inside.
How much I wanted to say I did.
That I was scarred and tired of being alone.
Yet I still said no.
I never meant to hurt you
Even when you left I still had hope you would wait for me.
I thought we would have time to start a life together when I was ready,
But fate has a twisted sense of humor.
You left to find someone to love you,
Never knowing that the person you sought was me.
And I let you go with the hope I could tell you I loved you someday,
And I did.
I only wish I could have told you those words to your smiling face,
Instead of the shadows you left behind when you left me forever.

Valentine

by

Sherene Delgado


This started as a friendship,
Yet bloomed with a kiss.
Your brown eyes gaze at me,
As if you can see my soul.
I feel as if I can not hide anymore.
I am scared because of this,
Yet I do not want to let you go as I have done before.
I have sacrifice much in the life I was given,
Yet never at a risk so great.
For the thing I risk losing is not my life,
But my heart.
The path ahead is not a clear one.
One with many roads and bends,
But today I give you this promise.
That I will try till there is an end.
I will give you my all,
Or nothing at all,
because to me there is no in between.

word

by

Sherene Delgado


I know when youíve had something on your mind
The quirky smile that brightens me inside
The different ways you make me feel
Even though I never let you see
I'm not a very easy person to love
Iím moody sometimes
And you just might one day decide to given up
But before you break my heart in two
There something I need to tell you
But the words I just can not say
I try so hard each day
I try to say I love you
But the fear wonít let me say
When you gaze at me I feel I am loved
But is that how you feel
Or is my mind making it up
The fear inside is hurting me
And I know you can not see the pain you bring to me
So I keep the words inside so they can hide
And my love for you grows each and every time
I see your smile
Or touch your face
My heart it seems has just walked away
And left me here alone.

The tears you cry

by

Sherene Delgado


The tears you cry
That stains your face.
The sorrow in your eyes
As I turn away
Some say love is a hunger
Deep in side the mind
But to me love is just a fix
To fill a hole inside
I can't love you the way you want me to
I can't be who you want me to be
Each day youíre with me
The light in your eyes will start to fade.
The day will come
And you'll finally see
That in the end
Youíve wasted your life by being with me.

The Voice within

by

Sherene Delgado

Itís ok for me to love you,
When you want me to.
Itís ok for me to cry,
When you donít see.
Itís ok for me to hurt inside,
When youíre not around.
Which is usually.
Each time the phone rings,
And I know your miles away,
I cry a little more inside,
Each and every day.
Why donít you ever want to see me?
Is the thought ever on your mind?
What will it take for you to realize,
That love requires time.
Time face to face,
Not just over the phone.
I know you donít like poems,
So this poem will be my own.
My way to express my thoughts,
And the feelings I've never shown.
Basically a way to tell you that sometimes,
I feel so alone.
Youíre jumping off buildings,
Youíre soaring in the sky.
I'm sitting here by myself,
Hurt and wondering why?
Do you not love me anymore?
Are the feelings no longer there?
Is that the reason why you no longer visit?
My feelings you want to spare?
I'm stronger then you think,
My will has always been there.
With or without your love,
I'll always be the same.
Though with you in my life,
My life was forever changed.
I learned what love is,
I learned how it can pain the heart.
A lesson I learned from you,
Right from the very start.
You never really hurt me,
Only the heart inside.
Yet no matter the words you would say,
The words were never a lie.
In your arms I felt the love I never was given,
And by your side I saw all I had been missing.
But youíre not by my side,
Nor are you in my arms.
A fact I see every time I answer the phone.
Then the pain creeps in once more,
Along with the wish to open the door
And see your smiling face.
Instead I hear your voice on the phone,
And I pretend I'm ok.
Because in the end,
Itís just another day.