Searching in my distant past, my lifetime gone astray
You'd think that perhaps, here, at-last it'd someday fade away
and leave me with my patience, bubbling with oozing care
Shaping my horizon to extend to anywhere
I give myself the credit for not being anyone
Less than what I hoped for, back before this first begun
When I wanted to be something to someone who then was real
When there seemed to be some current in this river that I feel
That which had a set direction, filled some purpose now devoid
Disappointed my dilemma has made times that I enjoyed
Sink down to the bottom of an ocean filled with pain
Where feeling any happiness means hurting once again
Finding in my diverse thoughts beauty and mystique
Pushing me over the top of this mountain's highest peak
Floating gently to the landing of a long and treacherous glide
Wanting to feel warmth again, released on the inside
My passion too would find a place to save forever more
Not like all the other ones that it lost once before
A place that I'd remember having stayed the way it seemed
Sparkling with a light that the passion often gleamed