The Lessons We Learn

by

Sherene Delgado

It is a difficult job to be me
To be the mediator to parents who can’t stay in the same room
Who don’t understand each other anymore
Who often argue...through me
But I stand silently and endure
To be me means
To be the protector of a sister who is still too young to be seeing this kind of anger
Especially having it come from the two people she loves the most
My job to her is to protect her the best I can
Which is often not enough to stop the tears from coming down her cheeks
Often her anger is release onto me
But I stand silently and endure
I'm left to battle this alone
A job I never ask for... but was given
Because I'm the "strong" one
The "strong" daughter who never ask to be strong
Who only wanted to be a child
But I stand silently and endure
A happy childhood is a luxury I will never have
Unlike the oldest who is long gone
Gone before the trouble started
A sister who was never really a sister to me
A person who left me here alone while she went to find happiness
Only I know she will never find what she seeks
Happiness is never long lasting
I understand that now
But I stand silently and endure
I just wish we could be the happy family we use to be
Why I could not have what I've always dreamed of
A mother who cared about my feelings
A father who just...cared about me
Even a little
But as I learned long ago
Dreams never come true
A simple fact we all come to live with it
Another thing we have to suffer through
No home is a happy home
No matter how much you pretend
In the end all you can do is...
Stand silently and endure

NEXT?
Why don't you look at (Bowie)
by: Amadeo Saguar
from: Madrid, Spain

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