taming

by

Katherine Tildes

there is a hole inside of me
it has been there for years
it started with my father's death
grew with my rape
expanded each and every failed relationship

this hole grew out of failure

and dissappointment

self-depricating behaviors

giving in

giving up again and again
it started out like a rash of poison ivy

first, at one spot

then the itching comes

then legs and arms and body are covered

and there is nothing left to do but

lie in bed and TRY not to cry

this hole is filled from time to time

with some person who

is willing to take the chance

to give their love time affection

to brush past the WARNING sign and

try their hand at the beast

and for awhile it works

i am settled calm happy

my life is good and full of love
then the hesitation sets in

the unsettledness

the uneasy feelings

the shifty-feet and wandering eyes
this is when the beast wanders off

and finds another to occupy her mind

forgive me
all of you in the past and future
you cannot tame this beast

NEXT?
Why don't you look at Shifty Eyes
by: Francis Duggan
from: Wonthaggi, Victoria, Australia

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