Some Senseless Thoughts

by

Katherine Tildes

some senseless thought interjected here
a silent whimper in the night
where i want to be
i cant
who i want to see
i cant

depression is an evil monster
that steals parts of your brain
eatsa away at your thoughts at
3 a.m. when you're wide awake
because of pills that are supposed to make you feel better
but give you insomnia at the same time

listening to requim's music
over and over again
it's hypnotic
its breathtaking

you feel insane
eyes wide
staring at the screen and the red numbers of the clock
breathing in and out softly
hidden under the tones of the music

you stare and wonder what you are doing
why you are where you are
if you're going to make it here
you swallow
bite your nails
think deeply and wish to scream
yet at the same time you want to sleep
but you can't

if you can just lay down a bit
curl up with a stuffed animal an ex gave you
stop thinking
put your brain on pause
breathe
and live
and be

Shit
what are you doing
why are you still awake
you sigh
you can't sleep
eyes wide
staring
thinking
dreaming but awake
it's like be strung out
fucking movies

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