I Remember You

by

I remember the fights and the screams
I remember when I was a little girl
When we moved, over

and over again
The long phone conversations with my sisters
the wanting to leave as a teenager

I remember the tears and the late nights

spent listening to Ethel and Frank and

playing Monopoly with my then friends
I remember being embarrassed because

we were poor and

couldn’t afford to buy a color TV
Or when we bought the new van

and then sold the old one

I remember dancing on your feet

and driving to random flea markets for a

good deal or just for the thrill
I remember visiting my grandmother

and the few times you two would fight
And when we took the Greyhound out to

Portland to visit Aunt Kath

I remember your deep respect for

life and art and emotion
I remember how you loved my sisters

and how you tried to be a

good father
And how you cried when Pat died

and when you found out Frank died
And how you used to play the guitar,

singing old Hank Williams songs and

crying because his words moved you so much

I look back now and I see

just how much you mean to me

how much you have influenced my life

how you have made me a little of what I am today
Here I sit, crying and typing these words

and I remember you,

the good, the bad,

the worse,

and I still love you so much that

it hurts inside.

That day is nearing and I feel the hurt

drawing in
But this year I will not mourn you
I will not hate that you are gone
I will love you.
-July 8, 2004

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