to be a published writer
to be loved by the sisters
to be amused by the Christmas lights
to travel to a different town every week
to watch TV late at night in hotel rooms
to share all my memories and anecdotes
to meet women
to occasionally crave one of them
to hear the singing
to eat Burger King meals on the train
to be the subject of light-hearted newspaper articles
to be somebody
to get lifts to the station from well-wishers
to receive friendly waves from the girls who remember me
to drink in the clubhouses
to ask my way through the city streets
to eat bagels on the way there
to listen to Blink 182 on my personal stereo on the way back
to take the tube home in the dark
to write up my notes
to be given a cordial reception
to record humorous comments