Buried Feelings

by

Heather Nicole Luther

Have you ever had thoughts about things
That you simply cannot explain?
And do these thoughts parade in your head
And all you can do about it is complain?

The feeling itself cannot be described
Because it’s one like no other,
In simple terms to make it easy it’s the thought
That’s so controlling that you could call that thought "the mother".

Feelings of sadness and
Feelings of regret,
Feelings of loneliness-
In your head they’re all set.

You set around all day and
Take everything into perspective,
But eventually all these thoughts combined
Become overwhelming and collective.

You start to feel sad for
No reason at all,
And you let anything and everything
Make your spirit fall.

Overwhelming depression sets in
And you start to shed tears,
And you begin to recall all things you regret
From back in the past years.

You mope and sigh, and
Refuse to let yourself have fun,
And it’s all because you let this get to you
And you can’t let it be "done."

Then out of nowhere
Loneliness sets in,
And you miss all your friends and family
And the ones with whom you should’ve been.

Fatigue and insecurity come tagging
Along with these other buried feelings,
And they all together lurk in your head
Like mysterious and evil beings.
You get to the point where you
Can’t stand to be alone,
And you occupy your time with things like
The computer or the phone.

Eventually, you just get so overwhelmed
That you feel that you can’t go on,
And you start to feel like
All the happiness in your life is gone.

Sadness and regret, when mixed with
Loneliness and fatigue,
They all make an evil combination
And can interfere with your positive league.

No matter how much you try
To see things in the good light,
Everything gets dark in your head
Like you’re trapped in the night.

When you think it’s hard
To see the positive things,
It gets even harder to enjoy
The joy life brings.

But while you’re thinking
That the "dark" is the worst place,
You realize that even "dark" has darker spots
That you don’t want to face.

These "darker spots" are like
A never ending whole,
And you just keep falling until
You hit the bottom and surpass all your goals.

If you choose to let these buried feelings
Interfere with your life,
Then you’ll never know the meaning of happiness
And/ or the meaning of strife.

Believe it or not, you can forget about
All these feelings that you feel,
Just remember to keep your head up and be happy
And make your life worth living and make it "the real deal."

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by: Dr. John Celes
from: Coimbatore, Tamilnadu, India

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