i joined this...i dont know why...

by

Angela Bean

i joined this...i dont know why...i guess cos i thought maybe...there was other people like me...i am angela...i am 19...i am sometimes depressed...it comes and goes...i am happy now..well not happy..but not sad..i am just here that is all...i used to cut my wrists and stuff with razorblades....and i cut my arms with razorblades...and carve things into my arm with razorblades...but i havent done that in awhile...i used to do heroin...i stopped that a LONG time ago..and i used needles and so i thought the pain i was suffering would go away if i did it...so then i started cutting myself...the pain went away...but then it came back...and i kept cutting myself...i havent done that in awhile..i am not really in pain...during that time...i was in the process of coming out...and i wanted to die...i tried to kill myself...i thought if I did that...then no one would have to hate me for who i was...i didnt think i was normal at all...i still dont...but i kinda got over that...i am not happy where i am living...being here in virginia in the place that i am is depressing sometimes..cos what i needed wasnt here and still isnt..and i find myself struggling everyday...i am ok though...well that is my life story

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