your plight

by

Alison Carrie

no matter how hard i try
i know i always will turn a blind eye
to all the things i never wanted to believe
to all your lies i was so naive
how i wished you were the one
that would clear the clouds from the sun
no matter how dark i felt
the hail and rain you seemed to melt
the tears i tried to shed
always turned to a smile whenever you said
that i was the most beautiful in the world
and with every kiss my head swirled
all the times you looked through to my soul
your love was the only thing that made me feel whole
the words you said are embedded in my brain
my insecurities and fears you seemed to drain
showing me the best side of myself
letting me put my past up on the highest shelf
leaving it only to memories for a lonely day
this feeling to continue i always had to pray
for if the future is not to be as bright
and you running so far away from that which you promised, your plight
taking back all the words that changed my life so much
no longer to be comforted by your touch
instead knowing that it means less and less
starting to question how i got into this mess
and how i let myself go so far down
in your love i started to drown
how i wish i never let it get this far
the one thing i thought would last forever is now just a scar
everyone told me it would end this way
with me lost in my feeling and you beginning to stray
away from all the feelings we once shared
even though each new embrace you knew i was scared
but you reassured me we would always be together
through the snow, wind, no matter the weather
you would hold me close whenever i would shiver
your lips always seemed to make me quiver
how i wish i listened to all their warnings
of how you would leave me each morning
and climb into my bed just for a moan
ripping it all off just down to my bone
tearing each muscle as each passed
the time it took you to get to my heart seemed so fast
taking everything i once believed to be right
but around your finger you tied me too tight
and when you severed it i became so lost
my heart you once had melted has turned to frost
and the beauty in life now seems so fake
for all the lies and smiles that I had to take
leaving me so weak and alone
everything we did has caused me to realize ive grown
so much faster then i ever thought i would
but living for you showed me that love i could
experience only if it was love in return
but lust it was for you, my body is what you learned to yearn
not my heart, my feelings, my soul
my innocence i never though you would take, you stole
i gave you myself in ever way
but this pain and deceit is how you pay
bringing me to the point of wishing for death
crying for you was my last breath
before all the pills took their course
i hope knowing that i could not live without you, you felt remorse
as you looked in the back of the church
my soul for the truth i did search
now six feet under in the ice, cold ground
the understanding of true love i finally found.

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